Etsy Shop and related accounts added

Hey, I'm here just to say I finally added the links to my Etsy shop and the social media accounts I created for it (trying to do some promoting lol ahh-) to my Contact Me page. 

Now they're all on one place on this here blog. Yay! :)

And of course, here is the link to the page: https://shyrahwritingspace.blogspot.com/p/contact-me.html 

Ok so yeah. There it is. 

I'll end this post with some pictures from my shop to make it more interesting or whatever. I'm selling these items. Yes, yes. :D

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** All products listed here belong to me (Shan, Shyrah, @spiritixswart). **

Pet Updates 1 | September 2022

Hi all, I'm here to give an update on my pets. I'm going to make at least one more pet updates post because I said so and don't feel like putting everything I want to say in one post. 

Without further ado, it's time for me to talk about my pets! :3

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Thelma

Thelma is my 10 year old little tuxedo cat. She's mine and I love her. <3

I took these pictures back in March one night. And yes, she's on my bed. She likes to sleep on my bed at night and during the day with me. 

She usually has a judgmental look on her face since she likes to judge the dog. Thelma is also still afraid of her, though she has become a little less scared in recent weeks or months. 

By the way, I scrolled through my old posts where I put pictures of her and talked about her. I can't believe I started this blog when she was only 2! She was such a baby back then (omg my heart,, 🥺). 

Actually, the first time I talked about Thelma on here might have been in 2015. Her birthday is in early February, so she could've been 3 at that point. Dang, 2014 and 2015 were so long ago. It's a little hard for me to believe. Same goes for my baby (Thelma) being a decade old now. :')

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Lilly

I took these two pictures of Lilly in mid-April, right before going on the car ride back to college (if I remember correctly). 

The legs and feet in the second pic are my sister's. She was driving me back to college, so she was also leaving Lilly at home with our parents. We doubt Lilly knew we were leaving her for a few weeks. 

Oh yeah, here are basic facts about Lilly since I forgot if I properly introduced her on here: Lilly is my family's (well, technically my sister's since she officially owns her or something like that) new dog. We got her on the last day of May 2021 on the drive home from a vacation where we visited our brother in the city he lives in. She was born March 9, 2021, so she's a year old now. 1 year and *pauses to count the months* 6 months; 18 months. She still behaves very much like a puppy. Oh and she's a black cockapoo. The day we picked her up, we also got to see her parents: a black cocker spaniel mom and a golden mini poodle dad. They were also so cute and lovely dogs. 

So yeah, that's Lilly. I like to call her Silly Lilly and Crazy Lilly as well. It sums her up well. XD

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**Warning: Talking about death for the rest of this post. 

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To those that remember my pets, I used to talk about having another cat. Well, here's the thing (I think you can guess what)...

My family and I call our other cat any of these names: Zoe, Zo, or Mr. Zo. He entered our lives in 2008, so by 2022 he became a very old cat. We never found out his age; we could only guess. He was already an adult cat when he came into our lives (I say that because he was the one who found us; he was found in the garage one day and we kept him ever since). To keep things less messy, I'm going to refer to him as Zoe for the rest of the post. Despite the name, Zoe's male. 

... *takes a deep breath* ... Zoe died in January this year. On January 21, 2022 to be exact. Unlike with Sunshine (my family's old dog) who died while I was in college, I was home when Zoe died. I vividly remember the day and the few days leading up to his death. To this day, I sometimes have my mind reliving the day he died. It was a very rough day for multiple reasons. I might go into more details on why in another post. Maybe, I'm not sure. 

Additionally, shortly before Zoe passed away, my brother told us (the rest of my family) that Yoda (his pet chameleon) died. I liked seeing Yoda; she was so cool. 

Basically, January really sucked. It was a sad month full of pet deaths. :'(

It was also a bad month for other reasons. Let's just say that some days were very cold (single digits Fahrenheit), and the heating system (not the water heater since that was fixed a little earlier) was broken in my house. It was very cold living in the house back then. I don't miss January lmao 

Whatever, I'll explain some of it now. Ok so. The day Zoe died was especially cold. I remember having to keep myself wrapped in my heated blanket and having difficulty moving my hands and fingers since they felt frozen. I was very cold. I also kept Zoe wrapped in blankets and sometimes put the heated blanket on him on the days he was very sick and on his deathbed (he died on one of the couches). This wasn't the only very cold day though; I just remember this particularly day very well. 

On that day, some men came over our house to replace our old furnace (or whatever was broken) with a new one. Anyway, my dad was a little busy taking care of all that stuff. My mom and sister were out of the house that morning for important reasons. *breathes in, breathes out* When Zoe died on the couch, I was alone with him. I was the the only one by his side. 

... I watched him die. One moment I was holding him and he was alive (his dirty paws were becoming really cold, which is one of the first signs of a cat's death; he sometimes let out a soft cry unlike anything he ever said before). Being able to pet him and properly hold him were warnings in themselves since he was known for being touch repulsed (he hated being touched in any way despite how much time he spent time around us up close). Anyway, a little later, I petted him and gently held him again, but this time he let out a different cry than the ones he made for the last few days. This one sounded especially painful and made me begin to feel heartbroken since he was crying out his last cry of pain. The next time I picked him up, his body was limp. A short while later, he died. (I think he went into a coma right before dying; I could still feel his heart beating immediately after finding out his body went limp.)

This happened in the morning. We planned on taking him to the vet to get euthanized later that day, but he didn't make it that long. My sister and I took him to the vet the day before, and he told us that our cat would likely die the next day. Zoe was in a very bad state by that time. Unlike with Sunshine, Zoe became noticeably sick and on his deathbed in the span of a few days (2 or 3 days). 

Despite how rude and obnoxious Zoe was, I really miss him. I cried when he died. I loved him. I think I loved him the most; saw him the least as a burden. He enjoyed spending time on one of the couches (he never noticed the other new couch lmao) and watching TV with us. In the weeks leading up to his death, I have a feeling he spent even more time than usual on the couch with us. I really miss seeing him on the couch during the day and at night. I miss him. </3

This room was also the room that Lilly spent the most time in since we didn't like her going into other rooms without someone supervising her. This resulted in Lilly and Zoe spending lots of time together. Lilly enjoyed bothering him, even trying to hump him quite a few times (😂😭), but I think they became close friends. At this point, Thelma was terrified of Lilly and never hung out with her. 

To end this post, I'll insert pictures of Zoe and Lilly cuddling and sleeping next to each other on the couch in December and January. I love these pictures of them. <3 

*the couch has a cover on it; sometimes Lilly puts her toys on the couch lol

Thanks for reading. 

~ Shan / Shyrah 💖

testing 1 + blogging news

Hey~

So I'm still getting used to how Blogger works these days after not checking it for months. I've been checking and doing little, mostly behind the scenes, things on my blogs and Blogger account. I've also been a little busy doing things irl. I have to get back into the groove of checking and reading comments and replying in a timely fashion. I know. I'll work on it.

*takes a deep breath* ok-

I'll be testing some things out later in this post, but for now, I want to talk about other things. 

So, first of all, a lot has happened since December. I'm not in college now. I've been searching for jobs (preferably a job related to my degree / what I've been studying in college). Job searching is hard, especially for more "official" work jobs. I applied for a lot of jobs. I got some employers who were interested and a few who I did interviews with, but I got rejected / didn't get the job for all of them so far. So that sucks. Obviously. 

Anyway, I'm trying to earn money. Obviously. Blogging is somewhat related to the field(s) I want to get into for my career. Then I remembered that ads is an option to put on Blogger blogs. Another reason I came back and plan on making all these changes on this blog (such as the name change *cough, cough*) and my story blog is because I thought about starting that AdSense thing that lets ads come on a Blogger blog (and other things; idk that doesn't matter to me lol). I considered it a couple of times a while ago but didn't want to do that.

Well, that was back then. I finally gave in the other day. I made an AdSense account, connected to the site, and put the ads settings for my blogs. I have no idea if I'll be approved, so I'm wondering if updating my blog name and URL will increase the chances..? idk. I'm really hoping I can make some extra money by blogging. If so, that'll be great. 

I know ads are annoying, but like.. I need money. I'm like so old now, you guys. 22 and looking for a new job. hhhhhh so old /says half-jokingly. But yeah. Can't believe I'm 22 now. It's the start of the -ber months in 2022. That's crazy. 

I'm not in the mood to check to see if I'm making any sense. idc, this is my cursed blog!! 😤

I'm trying to make it less cursed. I'm trying here, ok,,,,,,

Oh yeah. I'm also considering starting a new blog. I'm thinking of creating a photography blog. Like, just photography stuff. I have lots of photos that I got compliments over. Lots from the months I was away from here, and lots from way before then that I never shared here before. I have many, many pictures. I'm not sure if creating a new blog and putting AdSense on it will increase my chances of getting ads and viewers clicking on them, resulting in me eventually getting money. If I do that, I'll make another page toward the top of this page linking to that new blog. So basically the same thing I did with my story blog. And both blogs (story blog and potential photography blog) can be found as links on my Blogger profile. 

I don't know. I have a lot to think about. Adulting is hard, ok. Being in the 20s is hard, ok. *sigh* 😔

What else, what else..? Well, I have the idea of making a pet updates post or two. A lot happened since last December. hhhhhhnnfffnfgfnfghhh 

Ok, it's testing time! eeeeee

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Inserting pictures from my Photos app works. Good, good, good. ✅

And yes, I started collecting Squishmallows this year. The strawberry husky is Ryan, and the pear fox is Fifi. I got them on vacation. :3 🍓🍐

And the other photo is strawberry bubble tea I got at the mall this summer. It was good. 👍

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........ inserting pictures from my Google Photos also works. Good, good, good. ✅

And yes, that's a screenshot from the Finch app. I took it a while ago; my Zuzu bird is all grown up and looks very different now. I just found Zuzu's reaction to SpongeBob very funny when I first saw it. *Zuzu is confused.* "What kind of fruit do the unspongy Bobs live in, cheep?" ... New Discovery: *Dislikes Spongebob* 😭💀

Their name is Zuzu because it's such a cool name. Zuzu. That's so cool. (idk what I'm even doing-)

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Here's Precious btw lmao 

(inserting pictures from Blogger works- check, check, check)

Animal Jam funny pics uwu

................. ahhhhhhh asdfghjkl;sksksdksksksk

funny !! 

.... wait, why is my mind fixated on AJ memories if I want to move away from the game on this blog? huh-

*shrugs* 

How do I blog again-

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Ok, one more thing I want to test out tonight. 

~ b l a n k 

s p a c e ~

b / l / a / n / k

s / p / a / c / e

hmm hmm hmm 

ok idk 

good enough 

. . . 

Other Comics To Read List:

• Purple Hyacinth.
• Sweet Tooth. 
• Rain.

Oh wow, my Notes app is properly updated on my computer. I don't remember the last time it did that. Nice. And I was able to copy and paste a part of a note into a post. Very good. This will be useful. Yes, yes. 😈

Those web comics are on my to-read list. I'm still watching the Sweet Tooth Netflix show though. I want to start the comic after I finish watching the show. 

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Alright, those are all the testing stuff I wanted to do. Thanks for sticking around with me till the end of the post. I tried to insert some funny random shananigans in as well. (shananigans is a nickname pun I made online lol; my name being Shan and the word being shenanigans, of course.)

But on a serious note, two things:

1. I'm thinking about creating a photography blog. Does that sound interesting enough? Is it worth it? I'm not sure yet. 

2. All the previous years of this blog's existence, I was thinking "no" to the idea of letting ads be on my blog (this one, here, yeah, this one). After thinking about it recently, I decided to look into it and give it a chance. So far, AdSense is supposedly still reviewing my blog, and so I don't have any ads up yet. I hope I'll be approved so ads can start popping up. I know ads can get annoying fast, but if they do come on my blog, seeing and clicking on them will be a big help. I'll appreciate it greatly. It took me a long time to reach this decision, and I'm still kinda hesitating it. I don't know. I need good things to happen. If it's possible for me to earn any money by blogging, by doing a hobby I enjoy, then I think that's awesome. 

Thanks for reading. <3 

~ Shan / Shyrah / Cutepups / the person writing this 😶

Answers + Explanations

Hi, I'm back again so soon. Wow, look at me go. I have so much to say. 

I survived another Monday, so I'll reveal which character I'm currently writing a short story about (that character's backstory). I'm not sure how much of a surprise it'll be. I don't think it's that surprising, to be honest. Or maybe I'm just biased. 

I'll do that.. later in the post. Heh. 

Before I go off rambling about my characters, have a boring, personal update. Because I said so. 

It's too hard for me to fit two appointments into my schedule this week. And my family's since I have to go back home to go to the appointments. It was too stressful, and I couldn't handle it. And so I just rescheduled one of my appointments for a later date. So I'll worry about that later. Oh boy! 

blergh blegh blargh blah

Character's backstory new short story in progress reveal time !!!!1!!!1!!!1

The character is..........

Ardere! :D

My lightning sunshine boy! <3

I'm writing his backstory. About his life before he becomes involved with Stella, Duke, and all the others. By the way, I'm changing a lot of things from the original concept I had for Ardere. He doesn't come from a family who lives outside in the woods (*cough, cough* those Sarepia Forest and Warrior Cats clans vibes... yeah lol, I got rid of all that). 

(I'm surprised I remember the name 'Sarepia Forest'— I haven't been on AJ in forever. Does my account still exist? I have no idea lmao)

(My blog name and url is very misleading. Lmao)

I think I always had the idea that Ardere's father was the leader of a group of people. Chieftain or clan leader (based on book series I was obsessed with and ended up shaping my overall personality in middle school 👀). Well anyway, that man's a freaking king. Which makes.. you guessed it.. Ardere technically a prince. Ardere comes from royalty, baby! 

Funny to think about, huh? ;D

So yeah. That's what I'm writing about. Ardere's escape from his life of royalty to his fated encounters with Stella and Duke. Well, first Stella. He meets Duke later. And when Ardere is with them, he's like just another kid. Just another ordinary kid. 

Oh gosh, I love him. I love him like a parent caring for their child. 

Just.... Him! <3

............ oh wait, wrong pic. That's just a little owl. ^-^"

~ blank space oooooo ~

Ardere, my golden-haired and golden-eyed child! 💛

........ if the story takes place in our current day, he would totally have a Nintendo Switch. He would somehow get one. That's just a fact.

~ blank space 2 owo ~

Since I've been talking about Ardere in this post, I don't think talking about Fierdan, Soulless, and Jack now would work. Uhhhhh... adult reasons. Dark and sketchy stuff. They're not good role models. And just, uh.. some other things. Heh.

💬 👁👄👁 💬

It's funny how almost every other character has a dark history full of very messed up stuff. And then there's Ardere. He's too precious. 

............... Autumn and Mae are good girls. :)

Ok bye. 

Meet Lilly!

 Hi. It's already September.

 Another life change: My family has a puppy. We got her at the end of May on our drive home from a vacation (aka visiting my brother). 

The puppy is a black cockapoo called Lilly. She's adorable and very friendly. 

Ironically, I'm back at college now. Today is my first day of classes. Mine start later. And this is when I decide to write a post about her. Pfft.

Lilly loves people so much. She also loves to give tons of puppy kisses. Like, a lot. 

I call her "Silly Lilly" haha. :P

Picture time! :D

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Those pictures were taken in May and June. Lilly is a lot bigger now. She's a growing girl. 

The ones where she's in a box are from the day we got her. She's in a box during the car ride home.

And now she's too big to fit in that box. :')

Oh and when we got her, she was smaller than our cats. Now she's bigger than both of them. It's crazy how fast she's growing. 

She's turning 6 months old next week. 

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And I took these pictures of her a little before leaving to go back to college. So, on Sunday morning. 

She's so sweet! <3

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So, that's Lilly. I finally made a post about her. :')

Anyway, I'm a little nervous about starting classes again. Heh...

When will I make another post? I have no idea. 

Ok bye. 

7 years of existence (blog anniversary)

Hi, I have returned. And uh......

It is time. Yes. >:)

Today's the anniversary of this weird blog. 

It's been 7 years. I've had this blog for 7 years now. Omg.

Damn...

...... idk what to do...

I feel old lmao.

Well, uh, I quickly drew a crow a few nights ago. Since it was Draw a Bird Day. And yes, that is a thing.

I haven't done art in so long. 

Crows are cool, huh. Corvids. Nice.

Look at this little guy. I think it looks cute.

idk what i'm saying—

(spiritixsw is my name on other online places)

I looked at this picture I took while in the gardens at the Palace of Versailles while I was in France. 

Little crow guy... :>

Yes, it was there. See?

Yeah, I'm showing pictures from summer 2018 now. *shrugs*

That was nearly 3 years ago. What the hell—

Ah, what a place... :')

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Goodbye for now. 

~ 7 years ♥ ~

Gaming Youtuber + Chocolate Factory School Teacher Dream (and other things)

Hi, I have returned. :)

Last Wednesday sure was a day. Haha yeah, it sure was. Geez.

Classes were canceled. I felt sick that morning. I felt terrible. So much pain. 

Big oof. :(

Then I took a nap since I didn't get that much sleep that night. And my dream sure was interesting. 

This is what I still remember from that dream:

I had a popular Youtube channel which connected to my blog (yes, this one). I played games and sang songs on my channel. I remember playing Animal Jam in several of my videos, but it was like a cooler and more competitive game version. I also played other computer games, but I forgot which ones. I had lots of videos and subscribers (wow, Cutepups is so successful and popular in their dreams XD).

About the songs, I also sang songs on this Youtube channel. In the dream, I rewatched a bunch of my own videos, and wow, I really liked my voice. It made me happy. It wasn't high-pitched and squeaky. I remember my voice sounding androgynous, maybe even masculine. And it pleased me. I liked that. My gender was ambiguous because of my voice. Gosh, if only that could also happen in real life.

When all of this was happening, I also dreamed that I worked at a chocolate factory in this chocolate universe. So while I was working there, I looked back at my old Youtube channel from when I was 14-18. I don't know why I quit making videos. It kinda reminded me of when and how I quit making Animal Jam related posts lmao. I could also remember recording my Youtube videos on my bed at home, which I thought was funny since my room was so messy.

I was a school teacher in this chocolate factory/universe. Chocolate school teacher, hehe. ;P

I forgot the rest. I don't remember the other details. Oh darn. 

Now for other topics! 💫

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It's the end of the day. But whatever. It still counts. 

Only my time zone matters, of course. (just kidding lmao)

It's April 3rd. </3

If Sunshine (my dog) was somehow still alive, today would have been her 16th birthday. Her sweet sixteen. 

It made me a bit emotional earlier. :'(

I still miss her so much. 

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I'm out here thinking about these campus cats. I love them. :')

Lots of them remind me of Thelma. Small tuxedo cats. Must be Thelma's long-lost twins, huh.

Look at them. They're so cute!

The cat in the first picture kept following me. To be fair, I also followed it. I was able to pet the cat in the second picture. Such a nice kitty cat. :3

And the last two pictures are of a cat family meeting. The tuxedo cats and black cats are having a meeting. I saw cats and kittens there. I saw at least eight cats that day (I saw the tabby on the same day). 

(We get it. You love cats.)

Of course I do! 

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I've been thinking about my lightning golden boy lately. 

Ardere. I mean that kid. Lightning boy. 

This boy.

Why was I thinking about him? Ha! Like I would reveal my secrets. >:)

(You've revealed so many of your secrets on here, Cutepups.)

Just... shh. Shh. Hush now. 

He has golden eyes. Gold irises. I love my handsome, wholesome boy. :)

I'm thinking about what happens to him, what becomes of him. So many possibilities. 

I'm emotional over my ideas. Damn.

Would it be funny if Duke and Fierdan only assumed [redacted] happened, but it actually didn't? Would I provide further context? Of course not!

Duke/Fierdan. Ah geez, these fools will be the death of me. 

It's just a saying! Ahhhhh—

♦♦♦

Have some songs. Why not. 

I've been playing some of these songs on repeat a lot. >;)

🎵🎵🎵🎵

Lovely~ Lauren Babic and Seraphim (cover)

Nowhere To Run~ Stegosaurus Rex (slowed down)

Brave New World~ Kalandra

Same Old Song~ The Jon Hill Project and Tilian

I See You~ MISSIO

Control~ Zoe Wees

♥♥♥

Some Random Pics: Picrew, Cats, and More!

idk what to title my posts anymore—

Hi again. It's been yet another week. 

I feel dead or that I'm being killed, but I... that's just a sad excuse of a metaphor. 

College... ugh. So much work. So much stress. And I'm falling behind in most of my classes. 

Yeah haha, I'm totally thriving! /*sweats sarcasm*

idk what to say here anymore—

Ahem, ahem. Have some random pics, I guess.

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Link 1: https://picrew.me/image_maker/684058

It's supposed to be me with short hair and space makeup (the stars and moons look cute).

Jack looking cheerful. The lines under his eyes are the closest thing I could find to his small "x" tattoos on the lower outer corner next to his eyes. And yes, he is blushing. uwu

Fierdan... wait, he actually looks pretty normal? wow. Black and red suit him well. What do you think? Yeah uh, he's just there. 

Ryen is also just standing there. Sometimes I imagine him wearing an oversized white or beige coat. That blue-gray shirt also reminds me of him for some reason. The color does, I mean. He looks less annoyed in this Picrew. Good for him.

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(moon barrier- ha!)

Link 2: https://picrew.me/image_maker/140200

I designed Dylan and Jack here. Dylan is a bitter, short-tempered boy. He has no time for bs. Here, he's annoyed with Jack. That height difference though. It's more exaggerated in this Picrew, I'll admit. And look, the background is water. Heh, heh... nice.

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Link 3: https://picrew.me/image_maker/603740

First of all, this Picrew is adorable! I love it. I designed myself wearing a cat hat and a clown outfit while holding a frog toy and thinking of frogs. cats + frogs + clowns = what's on my mind. hehe :3

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Link 4: https://picrew.me/image_maker/598865

I also really like the style of this Picrew. It's cute and funny. I like the clueless and lost vibes in some of the Picrews. It kinda reminds me of the meme where the anime boy doesn't know what a butterfly is. The blank look in the eyes staring at nothing, the smile, the hand position. Haha yes. Where am I? Well, I guess I'm in the sky. There are both clouds and glowing stars. Hmm, that's interesting. 

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That's enough with Picrew for now. 

So now it's cat time! ;D

Ok so last Monday, I found this cats spot on my college campus. And me, being a cat lover, was thrilled to see all the cats. They're small cats and some are tuxedo cats, so they remind me of Thelma (my tuxedo cat). 

Seeing cats gives me serotonin that I desperately need. Haha... oof.

Here are some of the cat pics I took over the past week. I visited the cats spot a few times. :3

Look at them relaxing in the sun. The weather has been warm and sunny lately. Not now though. It's currently windy and raining. 

There's a gazebo with a few benches as well as a small pond and little stream in this place. It's so peaceful. It's such a nice spot. Then add cats and it's even better. I love it.

These tuxedo cats were relaxing on the bench opposite of where I was sitting. They remind me of my Thelma. They're so cute. :')

<3 <3

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Now it's time for the ??? Miscellaneous part of the post. >;)

With pictures of course. Will there be context? Eh, who knows? 

Ok, let's get on with it. 

☾☾☾

Screenshots from a story on Episode called "The Darkness Within" which I played in November. 

I kept forgetting to put them in a post, so I'm doing that now. Sure.

Danielle = female Fierdan (Daniel). 

These screenshots remind me of when Fierdan (going by Danny at the time) starts to become vulnerable with Jack and confides in him. The start of their close friendship which eventually becomes their romantic and sexual relationship as well later on. But they stay as good friends for a long while before all that. 

Fierdan has lots of nightmares and flashbacks as a result of his PTSD (his own trauma and Duke's). So he doesn't like sleeping alone. 

So then Jack lets Fierdan hang out at night in his room. And that's what they do: hang out. Sometimes they watch movies. It's pretty cute. Then Fierdan starts staying the night there, so he won't sleep alone. He has someone by his side. It supposedly helps with his nightmares and abandonment issues. *shrugs*

By the way, "Jack" is another one of his "J" nicknames. He really likes using Jack because of its connotations (jack of all trades, the jack cards in a deck of cards). He's kind of like a Joker. A fool, a jester... and he has the ability to be evil like the Joker villain. Hehe, he has a dark side. 

ja boi !!

The screenshots:

My heart... ;~;

Don't mind me imagining ja boi with purple contacts and purple hair. I can totally picture him appearing like that at some point. 

Jack is also very twisted. Fierdan isn't the only one who's twisted and sinister. Jack also did some pretty screwed up stuff. He ain't a saint.

~ all the hair dye, tattoos, and piercings to separate himself from his past. moving on from his old self. ja boi, you're having an identity crisis. i know you are. ~

What else..?

I miss writing skits. I haven't made one in ages. 

I don't know where to begin. How to start again.

I miss seeing my characters interact with each other. They all seem stagnant without any new skits. What are they up to? I don't know.

To me, they're alive. They live in my mind. They have their own thoughts and lives. 

Hahahahahaha fuu—

I still add songs to their Spotify playlists. Because... music... yes. Music, my beloved. (the meme- yes).

Ok, I'm too tired to continue this post. I'll end it here.

Bye, bye. 

~ Shan / Cutepups