Etsy Shop and related accounts added

Hey, I'm here just to say I finally added the links to my Etsy shop and the social media accounts I created for it (trying to do some promoting lol ahh-) to my Contact Me page. 

Now they're all on one place on this here blog. Yay! :)

And of course, here is the link to the page: https://shyrahwritingspace.blogspot.com/p/contact-me.html 

Ok so yeah. There it is. 

I'll end this post with some pictures from my shop to make it more interesting or whatever. I'm selling these items. Yes, yes. :D

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** All products listed here belong to me (Shan, Shyrah, @spiritixswart). **

Lights in the Dark (poem)

Well, here is the poem I referred to in the last post. It’s a hopeful poem about creativity. Hope you enjoy it. Something positive~ <3 

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Lights in the Dark

Ideas emerge like random sparks of light

in the abyss of my creative soul.

The void— the emptiness, the darkness stretching for what seemed like infinity— felt like home to me;

that it was all I would and ever be.

Yet brief flashes of light have recently returned,

shining brightly in the dark.

Inspiration, motivation, creativity— I thought these lights burned out long ago,

never to flicker on again.

And somehow, the lights are turning on again.

Brief flashes at first, random sparks in the dark, 

slowly gaining confidence and glowing brightly for longer as the days pass by. 

I don’t know for certain, but I think it is possible 

for my heart to feel less heavy,

and for my soul to light again. 

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Alrighty! That’s my new poem. :D 

~ Shan/Shyrah 

Already October 20-something

Dang. It’s already October 20-something. Huh.

Well, I’ve been busy. Preoccupied with other things, anyhow. Been working on my Etsy shop. Created new items, came up with new ideas, packed and shipped my first few orders (to family members), etc. I also started a new in-person job this month. Started working there at the beginning of the month, so it’s been a few weeks now. I’m not as anxious about work as I used to be, though the anxiety hasn’t fully gone away and I doubt it ever will. It just be like that. So yeah. Life stuff. Trying to earn money. Takes a while. So, that’s what’s up in my life lately. 

Hmm, what else… 

Oh, right. I plan on adding the links to my Etsy shop and the Instagram account I made for it to the Contact Me page. I forgot to update it sooner. I’ll get to it. 

(I’ve been more active on my personal Instagram account this year. I don’t feel like sharing it publicly since it’s my personal, real-life account. All that stuff. But if we’ve been online friends for several years at this point, then I don’t really care if we become friends/mutuals/followers on there too. I’m fine with that. It’s chill.) 

What else, what else…

Well, my family and I went on a short weekend vacation earlier this month. The second weekend in October. I have lots of cool and spooky pictures I could share. Lots and lots of pumpkins. The pumpkin carvers are very talented. 

About pumpkins, I’m currently in the process of making my own pumpkin clay pins. Yeah. I learned how to make clay pins. I got the materials for them. So far, I finished making clay pins of ghosts and skulls. I think they’re a little cute and spooky. They’re decent for my first time doing this thing. 

About creativity, I recently wrote a poem about it. It might be a shock to read, but it’s true— I have lots of art ideas. I have things I want to draw. I want to try to design my first zine. Like, I’m pretty excited about everything. I’m inspired and motivated to work on art. I’m not used to feeling like this. This is new. 

I’ll make a post with the new poem later. Not now. Later. Some time in the distant future. Ok, ok. 

*hesitates on whether to write about something else* hmm, hmm, hhhhhhh mmmmmm 

……. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ok, I just have to say. Since early this month, I’ve been having quite a number (several in fact) of dreams that have Fierdan in them. Yes, him, he’s back in my dreams. And of course, they’re not all pleasant. I’ve also had a few dreams with Duke, Ryen, Jack, and Dylan in them this month. It’s October, and the boys are back. 

(Ok but really. It can’t be that surprising that Fierdan is on my mind again. Come on now.) 

I don’t remember the details in the majority of these dreams, as unfortunate as that may be. (Some of the dreams were disturbing, so maybe that’s fortunate. idk lmao) 

:-) he— 

Well, I’m getting sleepy but probably won’t sleep for another hour or so. Good night. Good timezone to us all. 

~ Shan / Shyrah / the fool in the cat’s pajamas (it’s really me!) 

My New Etsy Shop !!

Hi, I'm back. I haven't been checking here as much since my last post. I've been busy with other things, such as...

... making my Etsy shop public and making my first few shop listings.

(I did it! Yay! :D)

Here is the link: https://www.etsy.com/shop/SpiritixswArt

Please check it out. I am Knowable. I am Known. I Exist. Please look. Thanks so much. 

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Well, I have to leave now. But first, here is the picture I made for my shop profile. I think my handwriting looks decent. I made it using my Copic markers and a Sharpie. 

~ Shan/Shyrah 

<3 <3 <3

Not-Pet Updates

Hi, I’m back with another post. I won’t be talking about my pets this time, I’m too tired to come up with a better name for this post, so it’s this. Eh, it’s fine. Whatever. 

Anyway. 2 things I want to say: 

1. I had a job interview this afternoon. It went well. So, uh, I might have a new job. It’s part-time and only a few days a week. But it’s fine. It’s something. Finally good news. I’m happy about that. Happy about finally having a new job. Yay. :)

2. The stickers and pins I plan on selling online arrived yesterday. I got to see them. I really like them. It’s so cool seeing my art and photography on stickers and pins. Makes them seem more physical and real. (Psst, you can get physical forms of them. They no longer only exist online. heh heh heh 😏)

I just have to finish setting up my Etsy shop. I might also put some stuff up on my Redbubble. Maybe. I don’t know yet. 

I bought lots of things for my Etsy shop. Products for packaging/shipping and products for helping me make other items. Gotta try stuff out. I’ve been hyperfixating on small-sized DIY projects for a few months now, decided I want to try some DIYs with my own stuff (art, photography, writing) and try to earn money off them, so here I am now. My fingers are crossed that all of this is worth it. 

It would be so cool if fans of my blog wanted to buy items from me. That sounds pretty epic. (No need to if you don’t want to buy anything from me or can’t; I totally understand; I’m just dumping my thoughts out here lol … I hope I can do international shipping, hmm…)

I have several button pin designs of photography I took while in France in 2018. I really like some of these photos and feel like sharing them with the world. Hehe, pretty pictures :3 

…… idk what to really say lol 

I also designed stickers saying my favorite story quote. I don’t know why I like it so much. But sometimes I think it’s stupid. Eh, I like it for the most part. I just find it so deep and meaningful. But also simple. It’s one of the few things from my 14 year old self that doesn’t make me cringe. 

The quote: “There’s a part in all of us that wants to be free” 

I made stickers with that quote now. I think my 14 year old self would be freaking out over this. Haha.. yeah. It’s making me feel an emotion or a mix of emotions that I can’t remember the name(s) of. 

I also have other designs on stickers and pins. I’ll probably show pictures and link my shop in my Contact Me page once it’s officially launched. (Then I’ll be Known TM. I’m a Real Life person. omg no way 😳 asdfghjkl)

I’m very excited about all of this. Makes life seem a little more worth it. It’s helping me not drown in my depression. I’m grateful for that. :’) 

Clarification: I ordered my stickers on Sticker App. I bought custom vinyl stickers. I ordered my button pins on Sticker Mule. They’re round button pins. 

(Since idk how to make my own stickers and pins.. yet.)

Excited excited excited aaaaaaaaaa—

Ok bye for now. ✌️ 

~ Shan/Shyrah 

Pet Updates 1 | September 2022

Hi all, I'm here to give an update on my pets. I'm going to make at least one more pet updates post because I said so and don't feel like putting everything I want to say in one post. 

Without further ado, it's time for me to talk about my pets! :3

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Thelma

Thelma is my 10 year old little tuxedo cat. She's mine and I love her. <3

I took these pictures back in March one night. And yes, she's on my bed. She likes to sleep on my bed at night and during the day with me. 

She usually has a judgmental look on her face since she likes to judge the dog. Thelma is also still afraid of her, though she has become a little less scared in recent weeks or months. 

By the way, I scrolled through my old posts where I put pictures of her and talked about her. I can't believe I started this blog when she was only 2! She was such a baby back then (omg my heart,, 🥺). 

Actually, the first time I talked about Thelma on here might have been in 2015. Her birthday is in early February, so she could've been 3 at that point. Dang, 2014 and 2015 were so long ago. It's a little hard for me to believe. Same goes for my baby (Thelma) being a decade old now. :')

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Lilly

I took these two pictures of Lilly in mid-April, right before going on the car ride back to college (if I remember correctly). 

The legs and feet in the second pic are my sister's. She was driving me back to college, so she was also leaving Lilly at home with our parents. We doubt Lilly knew we were leaving her for a few weeks. 

Oh yeah, here are basic facts about Lilly since I forgot if I properly introduced her on here: Lilly is my family's (well, technically my sister's since she officially owns her or something like that) new dog. We got her on the last day of May 2021 on the drive home from a vacation where we visited our brother in the city he lives in. She was born March 9, 2021, so she's a year old now. 1 year and *pauses to count the months* 6 months; 18 months. She still behaves very much like a puppy. Oh and she's a black cockapoo. The day we picked her up, we also got to see her parents: a black cocker spaniel mom and a golden mini poodle dad. They were also so cute and lovely dogs. 

So yeah, that's Lilly. I like to call her Silly Lilly and Crazy Lilly as well. It sums her up well. XD

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**Warning: Talking about death for the rest of this post. 

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To those that remember my pets, I used to talk about having another cat. Well, here's the thing (I think you can guess what)...

My family and I call our other cat any of these names: Zoe, Zo, or Mr. Zo. He entered our lives in 2008, so by 2022 he became a very old cat. We never found out his age; we could only guess. He was already an adult cat when he came into our lives (I say that because he was the one who found us; he was found in the garage one day and we kept him ever since). To keep things less messy, I'm going to refer to him as Zoe for the rest of the post. Despite the name, Zoe's male. 

... *takes a deep breath* ... Zoe died in January this year. On January 21, 2022 to be exact. Unlike with Sunshine (my family's old dog) who died while I was in college, I was home when Zoe died. I vividly remember the day and the few days leading up to his death. To this day, I sometimes have my mind reliving the day he died. It was a very rough day for multiple reasons. I might go into more details on why in another post. Maybe, I'm not sure. 

Additionally, shortly before Zoe passed away, my brother told us (the rest of my family) that Yoda (his pet chameleon) died. I liked seeing Yoda; she was so cool. 

Basically, January really sucked. It was a sad month full of pet deaths. :'(

It was also a bad month for other reasons. Let's just say that some days were very cold (single digits Fahrenheit), and the heating system (not the water heater since that was fixed a little earlier) was broken in my house. It was very cold living in the house back then. I don't miss January lmao 

Whatever, I'll explain some of it now. Ok so. The day Zoe died was especially cold. I remember having to keep myself wrapped in my heated blanket and having difficulty moving my hands and fingers since they felt frozen. I was very cold. I also kept Zoe wrapped in blankets and sometimes put the heated blanket on him on the days he was very sick and on his deathbed (he died on one of the couches). This wasn't the only very cold day though; I just remember this particularly day very well. 

On that day, some men came over our house to replace our old furnace (or whatever was broken) with a new one. Anyway, my dad was a little busy taking care of all that stuff. My mom and sister were out of the house that morning for important reasons. *breathes in, breathes out* When Zoe died on the couch, I was alone with him. I was the the only one by his side. 

... I watched him die. One moment I was holding him and he was alive (his dirty paws were becoming really cold, which is one of the first signs of a cat's death; he sometimes let out a soft cry unlike anything he ever said before). Being able to pet him and properly hold him were warnings in themselves since he was known for being touch repulsed (he hated being touched in any way despite how much time he spent time around us up close). Anyway, a little later, I petted him and gently held him again, but this time he let out a different cry than the ones he made for the last few days. This one sounded especially painful and made me begin to feel heartbroken since he was crying out his last cry of pain. The next time I picked him up, his body was limp. A short while later, he died. (I think he went into a coma right before dying; I could still feel his heart beating immediately after finding out his body went limp.)

This happened in the morning. We planned on taking him to the vet to get euthanized later that day, but he didn't make it that long. My sister and I took him to the vet the day before, and he told us that our cat would likely die the next day. Zoe was in a very bad state by that time. Unlike with Sunshine, Zoe became noticeably sick and on his deathbed in the span of a few days (2 or 3 days). 

Despite how rude and obnoxious Zoe was, I really miss him. I cried when he died. I loved him. I think I loved him the most; saw him the least as a burden. He enjoyed spending time on one of the couches (he never noticed the other new couch lmao) and watching TV with us. In the weeks leading up to his death, I have a feeling he spent even more time than usual on the couch with us. I really miss seeing him on the couch during the day and at night. I miss him. </3

This room was also the room that Lilly spent the most time in since we didn't like her going into other rooms without someone supervising her. This resulted in Lilly and Zoe spending lots of time together. Lilly enjoyed bothering him, even trying to hump him quite a few times (😂😭), but I think they became close friends. At this point, Thelma was terrified of Lilly and never hung out with her. 

To end this post, I'll insert pictures of Zoe and Lilly cuddling and sleeping next to each other on the couch in December and January. I love these pictures of them. <3 

*the couch has a cover on it; sometimes Lilly puts her toys on the couch lol

Thanks for reading. 

~ Shan / Shyrah 💖

Starting Something New

Hi all, welcome back to another short and right-to-the-point post from me since I don’t have the energy to write about anything else right now. :’)

So anyway, I have news. I’m starting something new. Well, in the somewhat distant future. Hopefully, not too far in the future. 

I’m planning on starting an online shop soon. Eventually. At some point. I started getting prepared, ordering and buying things I need for my shop. For the things I plan on selling. That kind of thing. Yeah.

I’ll probably link it somewhere on the blog when I have the shop up and ready. I’m thinking of selling on Etsy. I’ve been doing some research on being an Etsy seller. Hmm, lots of thoughts… 

(I am very fatigued and my head feels bad, if it’s somehow not obvious. lol) 

I also bought quite a number of items on Etsy from several Etsy sellers this summer. Got lots of cool and cute stuff. Really nice. Yes. 

So, what do I plan on selling as of now? Well, stickers and pins. Maybe other things; I’m not sure yet. More specifically, stickers and pins of some of my art and photography. I really like some of my photography, so.. yeah, that’s basically all I have to say on that. lol

I think this is a good idea I started having this week. Something productive and to keep me busy. And because money. Because.. money. Yeah. 

Oh! I’m also planning on making purchasable items based on my poetry and story. My quotes and character stuff. Because.. screw it, why not? Funny. Heh, heh, heh.. yeh. >:) 

Hell yeah! 

Ok, that’s it for tonight’s post. Be excited! Hyped! I have ideas! 

Nice. :) 

~ Shan, Shyrah, whatever name you want to call me lol