Lights in the Dark (poem)

Well, here is the poem I referred to in the last post. It’s a hopeful poem about creativity. Hope you enjoy it. Something positive~ <3 

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Lights in the Dark

Ideas emerge like random sparks of light

in the abyss of my creative soul.

The void— the emptiness, the darkness stretching for what seemed like infinity— felt like home to me;

that it was all I would and ever be.

Yet brief flashes of light have recently returned,

shining brightly in the dark.

Inspiration, motivation, creativity— I thought these lights burned out long ago,

never to flicker on again.

And somehow, the lights are turning on again.

Brief flashes at first, random sparks in the dark, 

slowly gaining confidence and glowing brightly for longer as the days pass by. 

I don’t know for certain, but I think it is possible 

for my heart to feel less heavy,

and for my soul to light again. 

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Alrighty! That’s my new poem. :D 

~ Shan/Shyrah 

Already October 20-something

Dang. It’s already October 20-something. Huh.

Well, I’ve been busy. Preoccupied with other things, anyhow. Been working on my Etsy shop. Created new items, came up with new ideas, packed and shipped my first few orders (to family members), etc. I also started a new in-person job this month. Started working there at the beginning of the month, so it’s been a few weeks now. I’m not as anxious about work as I used to be, though the anxiety hasn’t fully gone away and I doubt it ever will. It just be like that. So yeah. Life stuff. Trying to earn money. Takes a while. So, that’s what’s up in my life lately. 

Hmm, what else… 

Oh, right. I plan on adding the links to my Etsy shop and the Instagram account I made for it to the Contact Me page. I forgot to update it sooner. I’ll get to it. 

(I’ve been more active on my personal Instagram account this year. I don’t feel like sharing it publicly since it’s my personal, real-life account. All that stuff. But if we’ve been online friends for several years at this point, then I don’t really care if we become friends/mutuals/followers on there too. I’m fine with that. It’s chill.) 

What else, what else…

Well, my family and I went on a short weekend vacation earlier this month. The second weekend in October. I have lots of cool and spooky pictures I could share. Lots and lots of pumpkins. The pumpkin carvers are very talented. 

About pumpkins, I’m currently in the process of making my own pumpkin clay pins. Yeah. I learned how to make clay pins. I got the materials for them. So far, I finished making clay pins of ghosts and skulls. I think they’re a little cute and spooky. They’re decent for my first time doing this thing. 

About creativity, I recently wrote a poem about it. It might be a shock to read, but it’s true— I have lots of art ideas. I have things I want to draw. I want to try to design my first zine. Like, I’m pretty excited about everything. I’m inspired and motivated to work on art. I’m not used to feeling like this. This is new. 

I’ll make a post with the new poem later. Not now. Later. Some time in the distant future. Ok, ok. 

*hesitates on whether to write about something else* hmm, hmm, hhhhhhh mmmmmm 

……. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ok, I just have to say. Since early this month, I’ve been having quite a number (several in fact) of dreams that have Fierdan in them. Yes, him, he’s back in my dreams. And of course, they’re not all pleasant. I’ve also had a few dreams with Duke, Ryen, Jack, and Dylan in them this month. It’s October, and the boys are back. 

(Ok but really. It can’t be that surprising that Fierdan is on my mind again. Come on now.) 

I don’t remember the details in the majority of these dreams, as unfortunate as that may be. (Some of the dreams were disturbing, so maybe that’s fortunate. idk lmao) 

:-) he— 

Well, I’m getting sleepy but probably won’t sleep for another hour or so. Good night. Good timezone to us all. 

~ Shan / Shyrah / the fool in the cat’s pajamas (it’s really me!)