Impulsively did this because I missed them

Full title: I impulsively did this last night because I missed posting about them.

Hi. If you don't know what this is referring to, then.. come on!

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Another Picrew I used! XD

This one!: https://picrew.me/image_maker/139707

Now let's start! Yeehaw!

J___! This is how I designed ja boi. I had a hard time deciding between making his hair be white or this light blue gray-ish color. I went with the latter as you can see because I like that color more. Haha yeah. Ok. 

Long-haired Twinkle! In a ponytail! Wow, that's exciting! Ok.

Short-haired Twinkle! Less blush, more anger. She's sad too. Ok.

Long-haired Duke/Fierdan! What emotion is on his face? I can't tell! Bitter-happy? Cynical? He looks a little too happy to be pressing a gun to his head. Well then. Ok.

Short-haired Duke/Fierdan! I wanted to do a 180 in emotions. 180 degrees.. yeah ok. He's still smiling though. Now he looks less impulsive and excited to shoot himself in the head.. but he still wants to. I'll admit that. Aww, fiery disaster man! Please live,, your life will get better at some point! And he's crying. Ouch. Ok.

Ryen! He kinda looks like.. baby. Look how cute he is! He looks so lost and confused. Probably because he's not wearing his glasses. Haha. I didn't like the glasses option on this Picrew to put on Ryen, so I didn't use them. Ok.

Dawn! She has darker brown hair than this, but this was the only brown hair option. Yes, I used the same skin tone for her as I did on Duke/Fierdan and Ryen. What of it. So yeah, that's it. Ok.

I wanted to make an Ardere avatar, but none of the hair color options were anywhere close to his hair color. Oh darn. What a shame. :(

I kept on intending to make a few posts about J___ so you guys can know him better, but I never did that. He's more than just a happy all the time, funny-man kind of guy. He's been through some dark times. 

Gosh, I love him. I love all of them. 

Alright! Now I shall do some reading and studying. 

hi again, have some pics

Hi guys, it’s been a while. I haven’t been going on here for around a week.

I’ve been using the app, Habitica. I feel a little more productive now, haha. I feel the most productive I’ve been in a long time.

(Well, except when it comes to posting on here. ha, ha, ha,,)

I don’t have any classes tomorrow. All my professors canceled class. Yay.

Happy Rosh Hashanah! :)

Oh yeah. This weekend was parents/family weekend at my college. So my parents came to visit me.

We went to the same restaurant we went to last year. And we went to this bakery.

We got cookies and a few Halloween-themed cupcakes.

This is the cupcake I picked out for myself. :3

Cute witch cupcake! I’m still obsessed with it! (I ate it though..)

Then in the morning we traveled to visit the place where my sister is currently living. We went to a very nice restaurant by the water for brunch/lunch.

It was so nice. Much better than the food on campus, that’s for sure.

Here’s a picture of the view we had. :’)

<3 

And today I was walking back from an event with a few friends, and we saw one of the cats on campus. The cats are kinda famous on campus, haha. 

I finally saw one this semester! 

Cute, grumpy boy. <3 (... or girl.)

So that’s it for the pictures update. I’ll be back soon. I swear. 

heheheheheheeee byeee ~~~~~ 

~ Cutepups 

(Wow, I didn’t type that for a while. Anyway yeah. Bye for now!)

good day thursday

Oh shoot, it’s almost midnight. Gotta make this fast. 

Hi, it’s Cutepups / Shan / whatever you call me, idc. 

And honestly? You know what? Today has been a good day. This is a nice Thursday. 

(Apart from having a nosebleed in the morning. But whatever.) 

The weather’s nice. I took a quiz. It was pretty easy. I didn’t blank out in my other class like I did last week. That class was interesting this time, haha. 

I actually feel pretty mentally stable today. I’m strangely in a good mood. I feel.. happy? I feel like I can actually get things done. 

Ok so, I downloaded this app called Habitica. I think I put it somewhere under my Support pages..? Anyway yeah, I’m using that app now. 

Oh and I’ve been having these intense dreams lately. They’re not exactly nightmare content, but they are intense alright. I might make a post about everything I can remember from the recent dreams I had. 

[EDIT: Apparently, having intense/vivid/‘realistic’ dreams more often can happen as a result of taking the medication I’m now on, so uh.. there’s that. And yes, the dreams I’m referring to were vivid and had quite a ‘realistic’ (but also not really) quality to them.]

I hope all of you had/have a good day.. or at least a decent one. 

And that’s it for this post. 

Bye, bye. 

what else is up

Oh hey, what else is up? 

Updates! 

(ye yeah. ok-!)

I had my first papers due on Monday and Tuesday (yesterday and today) for my English classes. 

Welp.. haha.. hope I didn’t completely fail......

No paper due Wednesday. Yay. 

Anyway, I haven’t been posting as often. It’s not necessarily because I’m busy. Like most of the time if I’m not getting food, in class, doing coursework or whatever, or.. idk, sleeping I guess? I’m probably on tumblr, maybe deviantart as well but I haven’t been checking on there as much either, or watching YouTube or Netflix... or watching MDZS / The Untamed (such a good show,,). Or I’m at some event for the Greek org I’m in. So... yeah. That’s it basically.

So what else happened these past few days? Well, uh... 

The fire alarms in my residential building went off two nights in a row (if I remember correctly). It was very annoying. The first time was at 2:20-something, I think, and the next one was just before 3 in the morning. On Monday morning. That was fun! :-} /s. 

(note: “/s” means sarcasm) 

Oh oh oh- 

I didn’t blank out while in my last class (the one on Tuesdays and Thursdays). I feel proud of myself. :) 

(Last Thursday, I had such a hard time understanding what was going on and concentrating for long. Yeah haha, I was a wreck.) 

Time: becomes midnight 

Me: ok. fine. 

I think I’m getting out of that weird, bad funk, that all ~ getting used to taking new meds ~ thing. I mean, I really hope I am?? lol. 

I don’t experience brain fog as much now compared to the past few weeks. My mind doesn’t blank out as much, and I don’t suddenly forget what I was thinking/doing. So that’s good. 

I’ve also been able to experience hunger again. And my sleeping has somewhat improved. So.. yeah, that’s good too. 

What else? What else? 

Oh yeah. That drawing of J___ I posted around a month ago? I finally outlined it and started to color it. 

Yeah idk, I feel slightly less anxious, on-edge, and irritable (for no actual reason) now. It feels.. nice. I still get annoyed (*cough* fire alarm going off at 3 am), but it’s not all the time. Because I used to get irritable a lot, pretty much every day,, upsetting my family.... yeah, it was bad. 

I’m still adding songs to my characters’ music playlists. I like doing that. 

Not sure what else to say. I’m gonna end it here. 

Take care. Stay safe. Bye. 

~ Cutepups 

Friday the 13th :)

Hi hi hi hi hi hiiii 

(uh.. hi?) 

Hi. :) 

Today’s Friday the 13th. :) 

See? I’m good with dates. I know numbers. 

Here are two updates I feel like sharing with you guys: 

1. Yesterday in my Spanish class, my professor decided to start the class by teaching us how to swear in Spanish. I thought this was hilarious. 

And I just checked one of the phrases on a translation website, and the pronunciation of it (and the English translation) is making me laugh. Haha, it’s great. 

asdfghjkl

..... and #2: 

2. A few hours ago, my roommate moved out, so now I have the dorm to myself. 

(There are details that I’m too lazy to get into.) 

Having a room all to myself is making me happy.

 My asocial ass has privacy. Muahahahahaha! >:3 

......... no wtf, i’m not high. 

Friday the 13th. What a day. Wow.

Also, my music playlist for Duke and Fierdan is over 40 hours long. It’s so long omg,, gotta love that. :’D 

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the pronunciation has the word, “fuck” in it. hahaha.

“fuck” •

Bye bye bye ~ 

9+10=19

Haha, that’s the date. 9/10/19. 

(Or 10/9/19 if you’re not American, I guess.) 

9 + 10 = 19

I know math. Yes. 

............ that’s the post. ok bye lol

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I don’t know what else to say. I’m now on my second week of classes. Back at college. 

hehehehhhh,,

meh :T 

idk lol sorry 

Bye for now, I guess. 

~ Cutepups / Shan / ??? 

*shrugs*

Things Avoided

Things Avoided [in the Story]. 

I originally had this post idea in early-to-mid August. So it’s been a few weeks. Sorry for the delay. 

... oh right lol- what’s this all about? 

It’s a list. 

I’ve been going over the aspects of the story that I’ve been avoiding going into detail about. It mainly has to do with the fact that I still just.. don’t know enough information to write about some of these things. I’m stuck on what to say and how to explain some important details to the story. 

I also don’t really have experience of dealing with that kind of stuff. Ahem.. ^-^” 

So yeah. I know I haven’t been mentioning these things in regards to the story. 

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The list:

• Jobs. The jobs the characters have. Especially starting in story 2 when they’re all together.. well, for the most part. What job does Ryen have? What about the others? What work do they do? Is it the same or different from something involving their Elemental Powers? 

• Elemental Powers. The main characters have special abilities that I call “Elemental Powers” but I haven’t talked about them in ages. What can each character do with theirs? What is the purpose of having it in the first place? How do the characters benefit from using them? 

(Examples: Fierdan and fire. Stella (Twinkle) and ice-fire. Dawn and earth. Ardere and lightning. etc.)

• Medications. The majority of the protagonists gang is mentally ill and traumatized in some way. Fierdan, Ryen, and Dawn are the first characters to come to my mind. But so does J___. What medications would they take for their.. disorders? From PTSD to depression to ADHD? I just.. don’t know enough. 

• Details of Abuse. I’ve said that Ryen, Dawn, and Duke were abused in various ways during their childhoods. However, I never went into explicit detail on what those ‘abuses’ consisted of. What abusive behavior did they fall victim to? Going into detail haunts me a little. The same could be said for Fierdan when he’s a teenager, and then how that resulted in affecting Dawn. 

• The Main World. (aka- the world outside story 1). How does it work? What are the different sections of it? Different towns or cities? Different ways of life? Social classes? How does education work? Actually, about that- Ryen and J___ had vey different schooling when growing up. How did that affect them? How did the different social classes they grew up in affect the type of person they each become? 

That’s it. Yeah. I said what I said. 

I’m done. Bye. 

bad bad bad

I moved into college yesterday. The title is how I’ve been doing since then. :-} 

Anyway, I ended up waking up early yesterday morning. And would you look at that? I woke up even earlier today! I woke up before 5:30 in the morning! And my body won’t let me fall back asleep! Life’s great, I tell you! :):):( 

I had at least one anxiety attack yesterday too. So yeah. I thought my anxiety was starting to become less severe, well then.. I guess I was wrong. Was I somehow faking feeling better without even knowing I was faking? I don’t even know. 

I had trouble opening doors at first. Later on in the day, I could open them. So it’s ok. 

I couldn’t even open the bathroom door, let alone the door to my dorm. Pfft. I’m so pathetic. 

My arms also hurt. 

(I keep on waking up at 5 or 6 in the morning. I hate this! :( .)

I feel like if I get out of bed, others will think I’m a freak. That makes no sense. 

I still blank out sometimes. I think it’s called ‘brain fog’ ?? idk. 

Sometimes I would be doing something, then completely forget what I was doing (or planning to do), and have to try to remember what it was which takes around a minute at least. 

Gosh, I’m such a wreck. 

How tf am I going to be able to start my classes if I’m like this? Side effects suck, my dudes. :( 

I’m also planning on getting a job this semester. If I end up not being able to work. I will cry. At the very least. 

I don’t want to get all into that on here though. It’s a long story. 

I contacted them and told them my preferred hours. I got interviewed for it and got it. Oh god, I hope I can work. But my body and mental state still feel so off. 

I don’t know what to do! :’( 

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Bye for now. 

~ Shan