Happy Halloween!

Welp, I forgot to make posts. Oops. 

Well then. Uh...

Happy Halloween! 

It’s already October 31st somehow. Wow. 

I’ve been busy recently. This past weekend has been busy. Not all in a bad way though. Saturday was amazing. 

More on that later. 

I was also busy with studying and writing papers. I got another midterm tomorrow. (boo..)

And last week, I got a new roommate. So I don’t have the dorm all to myself now. Oh darn. 

List of posts to expect. Coming soon... 

• About last Saturday 

• About last Sunday

• “We Are The Broken” Picrew 

• New flooring

• .... let’s see how this weekend will go with this new dose I’m finally starting— 

.............. yeah. 

*obnoxious beeping noise serves as the background noise* ... rude. 

It’s been raining nearly all week. So much rain. *sighs* 

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“I’m willing to wait for it.” 

Beach Clean-Up

Hi guys!

Today (Saturday), I went to a nearby beach to do a beach clean-up with my Greek org. And yes, it was a little chilly out. It wasn’t that bad though.

It was pretty fun, to be honest. :)

My friend was picking up some shells, and she gave me these.

(pretty,,,)

<3 ~ :D ~ <3 

This is what my group and I found on the beach. (Not a complete list): 

• Bottle caps (mostly water and beer)

• Clear plastic bags 

• Juul pods 

• One (size 12?) shoe 

• One outdoor chair you take to the beach or children soccer games (idk lol) with the bag too 

• A big dead crab 

• A dead fish head 

....... uhhhhhh yeah. 

Interesting objects, huh? Strange and interesting objects. 

And then we all lowkey tried to look for dead bodies in the sand because something-something about a serial killer in the area (... 10 years ago, apparently?? lol). 

Anyway, that’s college. 

I hope I’ll return with a new post soon. 

Dreams (barely)

Hi guys, I’m back with another post! 

I feel like I haven’t been updating my blog as much. Where have I been? Where am I? Heck, I don’t know! 

Anyway, I keep on remembering that I said I was going to make a post about my dreams. 

Right. Ok. 

But like.. here’s the thing... 

It’s hard for me to remember them now. It’s truly difficult. As soon as I wake up, everything that happened in the dreams I had while I was asleep vanish. 

(I also found out that having more difficulty remembering dreams can be a result of taking the medication I now take. So there’s that.) 

[Fun Game: count how many times I’ve typed ‘remember’ or ‘remembering’ already in this post. comment a number below. let’s have some fun!] 

....... anyway. I’m suffering. 

Monday was bad. That day was so bad. Man.. 

Today wasn’t as bad. I have a lot of reading and some studying to do though. I got exams on Thursday. 

*sigh* ~~ 

Here’s a list of all I can remember from my recent dreams (aka barely anything): 

1) • I’m in my dorm. Except it’s nothing like my actual dorm. In the dream, I’m in a triple (which means I have two roommates). The two girls who I share the room with are.. very girly. So is everyone else on the floor (which means all the neighboring rooms). 

• In the dream, I’m sleeping. I’m not sure if I’m remembering it right, but I think there was a fish bowl on of the desks. It might have been mine. 

• Then very late in the night, I’m awakened by my roommates entering our dorm. And then in the morning, I can’t find my medication. Later on, one of my roommates tell me they put my medication in the bathtub. There are no bathtubs in the restrooms where I am, by the way. The last thing I can remember is rushing to the bathtub in the public restroom in a panic, and picking up my bottle of medication. 

2) • I had a dream last night/this morning. It was very intense and a lot must have happened. But all I can recall from it is something about a very cheesy omelette being made in a horrifying way. 

3) • A few weeks ago, I had a dream about teeth. Not about my teeth falling out. It was something weirder than that. All I can remember from it now is being in a small room in a circle of either people my age or young teenagers, and a few (or maybe it was just one person?) people had brown teeth. It looked disgusting. The people with brown teeth said it happened because they went to the dentist and/or the oral surgeon. It was scary. 

4) • My dad is very upset at me because I don’t have a job. That’s true, but the dream was still weird. He told me to get a job at Wawa. But every time he told me we were going to Wawa, we ended up being in a supermarket called Brick. This repeated over and over. Only I noticed we were in a supermarket, not Wawa. And it was called Brick. What kind of name is that? Brick. The last thing I remember from this dream is seeing a car mechanic shop next door to the Brick supermarket. 

What do these dreams mean? I don’t know, man. 

Hmm,, strange,,, strange indeed,,,,,, 

[Fun Game 2: count how many times I’ve typed ‘medication’ and ‘dream’ in this post. comment a number below. let’s have some fun!] 

*screeches and proceeds to cry* 

I mean: 

Until next time! Bye! 

~ Cutepups 

part two with these two

*inserts bad title again* hi.

I’m back at college. I came back yesterday. I took the bus and trains back this time. Wow. Yes.

Anyway, I used the same avatar maker from the last post. https://picrew.me/image_maker/10948

Cool, cool. Now let’s get on with the program!

Here’s J___. He always looks so fashionable, huh? He didn’t get a haircut in a while in this one. I also let him start to grow facial hair. That beard.. yeah, it looks good on you, ja boi. It makes him look a little less capable of being mistaken as a girl. Because these Picrews I’ve used make him look so girly. Or maybe that’s just me. Oh and this is the closest to his natural hair color. Maybe he dyed it gray and that’s fading. He also has part of his hair that’s still dyed purple. He’s wearing sunglasses to look cool. He’s so cool. Haha ok. 

Here’s Fauna. She looks happy and sweet. That’s cute. This hair option reminded me of her. Not sure why. And yes, I used the same front hair option on Twinkle. They’re sisters. Uh yes ok. 

And that’s the post. Yay. 

look at these punks

....... ok idk what to title this. will this have a part 2? idk man.

I forgot to make other posts. Oops, my bad.

I didn't finish designing all of the characters I wanted.

uhh.......ok

https://picrew.me/image_maker/10948

I used this one. Got that? Ok.

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Fierdan- story 1 and story 2+. I like this back head hair option. That sounds weird. Oh well. Messy hair boy,, mm hhmmffhgh. 

Duke (story 1) // (integrated) Fierdan (story 2+). I don't know how to type. My glasses are dirty. My nose is a pain in the a-- nose*. He's a blushing boy. Hhhh. Heck.

Ryen. He's smiling this time! Well, kinda. He looks smug here. What are you looking at, dude? There's no gray eyes option for this one, so I let them bros have the same eye color. How shocking. Haha just kidding, I doubt anyone cares about that. 

Twinkle. Stella. She looks like a boy here. Nice. This is when she has short hair but it's starting to grow out. And her hair is messy. I think messy hair fits her style. Do you really think she cares a lot about her hair? No fam, that's not how she rolls. 

Dawn. The more I look at this, the more I dislike it. Oh well! I tried. Meh.

That's it, fam. 

Metaphor for Starting Recovery

When you first entered the forest, you were scared.
Shivering in fear, you didn’t know where to turn.
That child from long ago had so much to learn—
maybe the kids at school called you weird,
and maybe that’s the first thing that brought you here.
Hidden monsters made you afraid of the dark,
but today, greeting them is a walk in the park.
What happened to all of the fear?
I know, you replaced it with apathy.
You’ve been in the dark for so long
that the monsters now live in your head.
Believe me when I tell you they’re wrong.
Your friends don’t pity you. They’re giving you sympathy.
Take one step: Try to not spend all day in bed.

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Hi everyone, I'm finally back with some new poetry! 

I'm not that sure on the title, but I submitted it as this. Oh yeah. I'm taking a poetry class at school, and this was the most recent poem I wrote for it. It's a Petrarchan sonnet (though we had some flexibility when it came to the syllables, so it didn't have to be ten per line).

I didn't really write poetry during the summer, and I feel like I'm a little rusty. (... maybe?)

Haha, I feel like I can only write poems about (my) mental health. So, uh, this one is more hopeful than a depressing old vent. I've been thinking about healing and recovery a lot lately. I want to be better. And yes, this poem is me @ me.

Bye. <3

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Copied the text I wrote on my deviantart. Read the same poem here.

I'm home now since I have a break from classes.

I'll create more posts later today. Hopefully.

It’s October 3rd

Which means it’s Mean Girls and Fullmetal Alchemist Day! Haha yeet! 

XD lol haha ,,,,,,,

...... anyway. 

It’s already October! Wow! 

I’m so tired. oof-

It was so hot out yesterday. 90 something degrees. It’s fall now, this shouldn’t be happening. 

The heat made me so tired when I finished all my classes for the day. I hate it. 

I still have so much work to do for the assignments I have due today. 

Ugh, another short paper. Ughhhhh-

So, uh, what I did. (yeah idk, just roll with it)

In two of my Monday and Wednesday classes, I’m learning about poetry and people’s poetry. Because, like, that’s what the class is about. And it’s the topic we’re currently discussing in the other class.

So vague. I know. I’m tired.

I got a good grade on my Spanish quiz. That’s good, I guess. 

Kinda sorta idk-how-to-explain-it reading Shakespeare for another class. 

I had a test in psychology yesterday. It was.. ok. Sure. It was pretty straightforward. I don’t know what else to say on that. 

I have fall break starting this weekend, so I’m going home then. I get to see my pets. I can be with my Thelma,, yes,, very good. 

We’re getting a new couch and flooring for one of the rooms in the house. That’s exciting. Something new. That’s like unheard of regarding anything in the house. This is different. Wow huh. 

blah bleh meh 

ok idk lol bye