Pet Updates 1 | September 2022

Hi all, I'm here to give an update on my pets. I'm going to make at least one more pet updates post because I said so and don't feel like putting everything I want to say in one post. 

Without further ado, it's time for me to talk about my pets! :3

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Thelma

Thelma is my 10 year old little tuxedo cat. She's mine and I love her. <3

I took these pictures back in March one night. And yes, she's on my bed. She likes to sleep on my bed at night and during the day with me. 

She usually has a judgmental look on her face since she likes to judge the dog. Thelma is also still afraid of her, though she has become a little less scared in recent weeks or months. 

By the way, I scrolled through my old posts where I put pictures of her and talked about her. I can't believe I started this blog when she was only 2! She was such a baby back then (omg my heart,, 🥺). 

Actually, the first time I talked about Thelma on here might have been in 2015. Her birthday is in early February, so she could've been 3 at that point. Dang, 2014 and 2015 were so long ago. It's a little hard for me to believe. Same goes for my baby (Thelma) being a decade old now. :')

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Lilly

I took these two pictures of Lilly in mid-April, right before going on the car ride back to college (if I remember correctly). 

The legs and feet in the second pic are my sister's. She was driving me back to college, so she was also leaving Lilly at home with our parents. We doubt Lilly knew we were leaving her for a few weeks. 

Oh yeah, here are basic facts about Lilly since I forgot if I properly introduced her on here: Lilly is my family's (well, technically my sister's since she officially owns her or something like that) new dog. We got her on the last day of May 2021 on the drive home from a vacation where we visited our brother in the city he lives in. She was born March 9, 2021, so she's a year old now. 1 year and *pauses to count the months* 6 months; 18 months. She still behaves very much like a puppy. Oh and she's a black cockapoo. The day we picked her up, we also got to see her parents: a black cocker spaniel mom and a golden mini poodle dad. They were also so cute and lovely dogs. 

So yeah, that's Lilly. I like to call her Silly Lilly and Crazy Lilly as well. It sums her up well. XD

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**Warning: Talking about death for the rest of this post. 

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To those that remember my pets, I used to talk about having another cat. Well, here's the thing (I think you can guess what)...

My family and I call our other cat any of these names: Zoe, Zo, or Mr. Zo. He entered our lives in 2008, so by 2022 he became a very old cat. We never found out his age; we could only guess. He was already an adult cat when he came into our lives (I say that because he was the one who found us; he was found in the garage one day and we kept him ever since). To keep things less messy, I'm going to refer to him as Zoe for the rest of the post. Despite the name, Zoe's male. 

... *takes a deep breath* ... Zoe died in January this year. On January 21, 2022 to be exact. Unlike with Sunshine (my family's old dog) who died while I was in college, I was home when Zoe died. I vividly remember the day and the few days leading up to his death. To this day, I sometimes have my mind reliving the day he died. It was a very rough day for multiple reasons. I might go into more details on why in another post. Maybe, I'm not sure. 

Additionally, shortly before Zoe passed away, my brother told us (the rest of my family) that Yoda (his pet chameleon) died. I liked seeing Yoda; she was so cool. 

Basically, January really sucked. It was a sad month full of pet deaths. :'(

It was also a bad month for other reasons. Let's just say that some days were very cold (single digits Fahrenheit), and the heating system (not the water heater since that was fixed a little earlier) was broken in my house. It was very cold living in the house back then. I don't miss January lmao 

Whatever, I'll explain some of it now. Ok so. The day Zoe died was especially cold. I remember having to keep myself wrapped in my heated blanket and having difficulty moving my hands and fingers since they felt frozen. I was very cold. I also kept Zoe wrapped in blankets and sometimes put the heated blanket on him on the days he was very sick and on his deathbed (he died on one of the couches). This wasn't the only very cold day though; I just remember this particularly day very well. 

On that day, some men came over our house to replace our old furnace (or whatever was broken) with a new one. Anyway, my dad was a little busy taking care of all that stuff. My mom and sister were out of the house that morning for important reasons. *breathes in, breathes out* When Zoe died on the couch, I was alone with him. I was the the only one by his side. 

... I watched him die. One moment I was holding him and he was alive (his dirty paws were becoming really cold, which is one of the first signs of a cat's death; he sometimes let out a soft cry unlike anything he ever said before). Being able to pet him and properly hold him were warnings in themselves since he was known for being touch repulsed (he hated being touched in any way despite how much time he spent time around us up close). Anyway, a little later, I petted him and gently held him again, but this time he let out a different cry than the ones he made for the last few days. This one sounded especially painful and made me begin to feel heartbroken since he was crying out his last cry of pain. The next time I picked him up, his body was limp. A short while later, he died. (I think he went into a coma right before dying; I could still feel his heart beating immediately after finding out his body went limp.)

This happened in the morning. We planned on taking him to the vet to get euthanized later that day, but he didn't make it that long. My sister and I took him to the vet the day before, and he told us that our cat would likely die the next day. Zoe was in a very bad state by that time. Unlike with Sunshine, Zoe became noticeably sick and on his deathbed in the span of a few days (2 or 3 days). 

Despite how rude and obnoxious Zoe was, I really miss him. I cried when he died. I loved him. I think I loved him the most; saw him the least as a burden. He enjoyed spending time on one of the couches (he never noticed the other new couch lmao) and watching TV with us. In the weeks leading up to his death, I have a feeling he spent even more time than usual on the couch with us. I really miss seeing him on the couch during the day and at night. I miss him. </3

This room was also the room that Lilly spent the most time in since we didn't like her going into other rooms without someone supervising her. This resulted in Lilly and Zoe spending lots of time together. Lilly enjoyed bothering him, even trying to hump him quite a few times (😂😭), but I think they became close friends. At this point, Thelma was terrified of Lilly and never hung out with her. 

To end this post, I'll insert pictures of Zoe and Lilly cuddling and sleeping next to each other on the couch in December and January. I love these pictures of them. <3 

*the couch has a cover on it; sometimes Lilly puts her toys on the couch lol

Thanks for reading. 

~ Shan / Shyrah 💖

idk how to title my posts

Hi. I'm back with another post. I haven't planned on making this post about any specific topic, so it's going to be about several.

 I'm reverting back to my past self. Oh god.

So... uh... how's it going? How's it been? 

I've been busy these last several weeks. Oh yeah. I finally got a job. I worked this summer. Earned my own money. I finally did that. 

And now I'm back at college. 😐

Eh, I don't feel like going into details about my job. Maybe I will in another post. I don't know. I have so many ideas, and I quickly drop most of them. 

What else? Well...

It's already been over a year since my Sunshine passed away. The anniversary had such a different mood. The date this year felt so different. Much happier, less stressed, less... pain. It was also on Rosh Hashanah this year.

Yeah, so... that happened.

.......... Now my family has this puppy (old picture of Lilly):

Lilly liked her elephant toy. Look at her wanting me to give it to her. Haha, Silly Lilly. :P

..... Yeah.

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OCs time:

Picrew link: https://picrew.me/image_maker/701767

I know, I know. So many Picrews. So many posts with this. 

I know, okay? God—

I think this was the last time I designed most of my OCs on a Picrew. This was way back in April. Haha, it sure has been a while...

But first, here's the one I made for myself. 

Me :)

[Sorry in advance for any awkward spacings throughout this post.]

And onto my characters:

[top to bottom: Stella, Luna (formerly called her Fauna), Ardere, Brock (finally designed him on a Picrew; his fashion sense is terrible yet wonderful lmao)]

Continuing:

[top to bottom: Dawn, kid Danny (Pre-Fierdan), Fierdan (edgy adult loves the color black), Ryen, kid Jack, Jack (current day in the story universe), Dylan]

They look so cute in this art style. I still love it. <3

I guess that's a refresher for you all on what they look like. Yeah, sure, whatever.

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So... I've been thinking of what mental health diagnoses they could potentially receive. 

The other day, I was thinking back on what I used to say. Anyway, I'm here to make some adjustments. Yes. Again. 

I'm shaking my head at my past self (selves?).

I'm also adding more stuff. Because... screw it, I don't have to give my reasons. 😶

[Warning: mentions of drugs/drug use, trauma/abuse, murder]

Jack: I keep on laughing at my past self for thinking he would only have inattentive type ADHD. Like.. no?? What was I thinking?? Ahem. Anyway, he has combined type ADHD. and Substance Use Disorder. and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

I also finally have something to say about Jack and drugs. So, uh, here:

By the time Jack becomes another main character in the story universe timeline and he's close with Fierdan, he's been to and completed rehab. And by the time he's hanging out with Fierdan, Stella, and the others, the drugs he takes aren't on the same level as addiction as the drugs that led to his drug addictions. It's still a dependency though. Will Jack completely stop taking recreational drugs? I really don't know. In his 20s, I can only really see him having increased periods time without taking any substance (the sobriety periods get longer over time). In context, Jack is 23 when he meets and eventually starts working together with Fierdan, Stella, and the rest of them. I mean, not Ryen and Dylan since they've known Jack longer. I hope you guys know what I mean. Also, this doesn't include any prescribed drug (ADHD medication). He got addicted to certain drugs because he used them as ways to treat his severe ADHD. So, well, he's now on ADHD medication. He might still be on methadone. I don't know any more details on that. 

List of Drugs Jack Became Addicted To: opioids (heroin, morphine, fentanyl); cocaine.

List of Non-Prescription Drugs that I Don't Consider Jack Technically Addicted To: nicotine; marijuana. Basically, he smokes at least sometimes. 

Don't do drugs, kids. 😶

Actually, I'll just include the ones I made changes to. 

Dawn: C-PTSD; Dissociative Amnesia; Derealization-Depersonalization Disorder. 

Stella: Generalized Anxiety Disorder; a Depressive Disorder (unsure of whether or not it would be Major Depressive Disorder (Ryen has that, by the way)); PTSD (yeah, screw it, she has that). And I'm starting to consider that Stella also has ADHD (inattentive type) and Autism Spectrum Disorder. I might be projecting myself there, though. Mm... perhaps. Stella is my character from this story universe that I intentionally created to be most like me (with differences too, of course). 

Dylan: I don't think I ever wrote about his before, so here's something new. Anyway, he might also have Autism Spectrum Disorder. At this point, I know he has Misophonia and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Oh and I have GAD. So... yeah.

Luna: Ok so, this isn't a disorder, but I feel like adding it now anyway. Luna was a Gifted Child. Oh and she might also be autistic. I'm not sure. I am less sure about her than Stella.

And of course, an update to Fierdan's. :}

Fierdan: C-PTSD; Bipolar Disorder (not sure which type); BPD; Derealization-Depersonalization Disorder; Brief Psychotic Disorder. And not technically a disorder, but he has addictive tendencies. At some point, the other characters (especially Jack and Ryen since they have personal experience battling addiction) worry about Fierdan becoming an alcoholic and addict of other drugs. He might just willingly be self-destructive in choosing to not be sober most of the time, but I'm not sure if he ever becomes "addicted" addicted. Anyway, Fierdan definitely has an unhealthy relationship with substances. Fierdan also has traits from all Cluster B Personality Disorders, but after thinking things through, he has the most from BPD, so he could potentially be diagnosed with that. 

I'm a terrible writer, so most of my lines of thinking on all this come from my (fluctuating) desire to rewrite everything to the story I've already written and my ideas for what happens to my characters much later in the overall storyline. Like, in my "updated" version of everything, I keep getting thoughts which tell me Fierdan has bipolar and BPD. And no, they're not the same thing.

I've always known he has depressive episodes, but I want to make it more clear that he also gets manic episodes. Looking back on my old stuff, I feel like maybe I was hinting at him experiencing mania at times but without having the vocabulary and knowledge to get into all that. I know Fierdan doesn't only have depression and PTSD. He has severe mood swings, impulse control issues and lots of risk-taking behaviors, unstable relationships (every type of relationship), and identity distortions (lack of knowing his himself- self-image and disconnect from being grounded in reality). 

And I couldn't perceive Fierdan as not experiencing psychosis. Because he does. Maybe it's part of his disorders (BPD? C-PTSD?). I know he doesn't have schizophrenia. But I felt like adding psychosis separately since it's different from dissociation (which can be found in C-PTSD, BPD, and Derealization-Depersonalization). And maybe that last one is just a few symptoms and not a separate disorder for him.

[Oh god, I might be particularly passionate about the psychological states of my characters and which conditions they have. Maybe as part of a hyper-fixation and/or special interest of mine? My brain,, uhhhhhhh—]

 Note: I'm by no means an expert; I'm just writing all this based on my knowledge that I've collected myself for the most part.  

By the way, everything I wrote for Fierdan also goes for Duke. Since, well, Duke is a part of Fierdan's complete identity. Duke is Fierdan. Duke is basically an alternative consciousness of Fierdan— so extreme that Duke has his own life and is believed by himself and most other characters as being a "complete" person. 

I think that if Duke never physically separated from Fierdan yet Fierdan still did create a separate consciousness based on his own, Duke would pretty much be an alter/headmate of Fierdan's like in DID or OSDD. 

If you don't know what any term I used means, I suggest you look it up. Also, look at my Note above. And of course, this is all fiction in a not-completely-realistic-fiction-story-universe. 

Oh and have these random things I have to say but don't know where to categorize in this post:

Time is weird in Cincernum. It doesn't pass the same way it does here. It doesn't pass the same way it does where Stella and Ardere and all those people are, which isn't any different from how time passes where Ryen and Dylan and all those people are. Cincernum is something else entirely. Cincernum is weird. 

In Cincernum, people and other "living" things aren't dead... nor alive. Everything is in a weird state. Fierdan doesn't age normally (like how he would on Earth... without going into the different timelines created from being in Cincernum). Ryen is always older than Fierdan despite him not spending time in Cincernum. 

Does Fierdan spend months or years or decades in Cincernum? The passage of time there is very distorted,  so it's hard to exactly translate it to how time passes here (Earth). If it did, Fierdan would have to be over 18 since he helped "create" Duke (Duke is 18 when the story events begin); then add all the years before he went to Cincernum (which was when he was between the ages of 15 and 17). Fierdan would have to be so old if time passed normally. But he's not in his 40s or something. When the story events take place (not including flashbacks or whatever), he's 22. 

It's so fucking weird, I know.   

And since Fierdan isn't fully alive in Cincernum (I like to think of him as being in this dormant-like state but able to talk and move— with lots of fatigue so not at the same level of energy as a healthy person), he doesn't need food, drinks, or sunlight. 

After leaving Cincernum, Fierdan has lots of trauma over being stuck there for what probably felt like an eternity to him. Soulless was there with him. Soulless never drifted far from Fierdan until he kills it. And Fierdan killing Soulless is at the end of story 1. Soulless abused Fierdan in various ways ever since he was a child. And it got worse over the years. Oh and Fierdan invalidates his experiences because Soulless isn't human. The character that abused him the most and worst isn't human. Soulless, a demon, abused him physically. Z, his father, who is definitely a child abuser, didn't abuse Fierdan (physically, anyway).

What is Cincernum? I don't feel like going into detail, but it's basically a separate, small realm. Everything's dark. There's black goop covering the floors and walls. Why black goop? I don't know. There just is. Also, no one can access it without Fierdan or Soulless knowing. But since no one knew about it, no one could. Then again, Soulless was controlling Fierdan. That is until Fierdan started successfully planning Soulless's execution and freed himself from being Soulless's puppet (or doll or toy, whichever word you prefer). Honestly, it's such a turning and touching moment when Fierdan goes to the world of the dead (what I used to call "Heaven"), finds Luna (who happens to be Stella's sister) being threatened and harassed by Duke's "human father" (as I refer to him), brings her to Cincernum, and they start working together. They help each other with their goals. It's sweet. 

Anyway, back to the main question— Cincernum is a realm created by Fierdan and Soulless. Just not as consciously as "creating" Duke. It's their world. And it sucks. Cincernum is awful. It's depressing, okay. How did they create it? I don't know the technicalities. All I know is that Fierdan (who is being manipulated by Soulless during all this) becomes extremely homicidal and can't fully control himself. He violently killed Z, and not that long after (months to 2 years later), Soulless, who feeds on violence, wants Fierdan to murder again. Which... he comes very close to doing. He goes to Dawn, the person he's closest with (they have history), and nearly kills her. Then shortly after Dawn realizes this, she gives Fierdan poison, and starts living in isolation (#trust-issues). Every other person Dawn knew (and remembered) damaged her. Violated her. Of course she can't just bring herself to trust new people. Then, after the effects of the poison wore off, Fierdan has a break from being mind-controlled by Soulless. He can't live with the guilt of what he did or nearly did, so he desperately wishes to escape from their current reality. So... he does that. Probably goes into a coma for who knows how long and wakes up in Cincernum. Maybe Fierdan considered suicide, but Soulless had plans for him and gave him an intense will to not die (Soulless wouldn't have anyone; it exists because of Fierdan). And so, Fierdan desperately wanted to escape, Soulless helped make that happen and made Fierdan's wish into his time-distorted prison. 

That's pretty fucked up, if I ask me. I came up with all this. I'm fucked up. :'}

And he's still a teenager during all this. 

Fierdan wasn't even an adult. He was a child. What the fuck. 

Dawn, of course, was even younger. But, god...

......... I love them so, so, so much. 

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The inconsistency in paragraph spacing is intentional. 

If you reached this part of the post and read everything: Congratulations. I (platonically) love you.

~ Shan (aka Cutepups)

Meet Lilly!

 Hi. It's already September.

 Another life change: My family has a puppy. We got her at the end of May on our drive home from a vacation (aka visiting my brother). 

The puppy is a black cockapoo called Lilly. She's adorable and very friendly. 

Ironically, I'm back at college now. Today is my first day of classes. Mine start later. And this is when I decide to write a post about her. Pfft.

Lilly loves people so much. She also loves to give tons of puppy kisses. Like, a lot. 

I call her "Silly Lilly" haha. :P

Picture time! :D

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Those pictures were taken in May and June. Lilly is a lot bigger now. She's a growing girl. 

The ones where she's in a box are from the day we got her. She's in a box during the car ride home.

And now she's too big to fit in that box. :')

Oh and when we got her, she was smaller than our cats. Now she's bigger than both of them. It's crazy how fast she's growing. 

She's turning 6 months old next week. 

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And I took these pictures of her a little before leaving to go back to college. So, on Sunday morning. 

She's so sweet! <3

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So, that's Lilly. I finally made a post about her. :')

Anyway, I'm a little nervous about starting classes again. Heh...

When will I make another post? I have no idea. 

Ok bye. 

Valentine's Day ~

 Hello! It's Valentine's Day. <3

I've been feeling pretty good since Friday. :')

(Online funeral services are especially sad though. Zoom... *sighs*)

Anyway... uh... Picrew time.

💖💓💕💗

(yeah idk)

Oh yeah. They're of me this time. 

Because... yes.

(ignore the stupid spacing that'll probably mess up the post format. thx)

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1. https://picrew.me/image_maker/626602

Frogs and cats.

Cat shirt and flannel. My sense of fashion... and fashion I'd want to wear.

Stars on the face since that's cute.

The colors... hell yeah.

kitties and forgs :3 

I'm a cat aro. Frogs are great too.

me: *holds a tiny cat; a kitten* :)

2. https://picrew.me/image_maker/636737

A little RPG character of myself. 

Love this outfit. And yes, the wings and blue fire are a must. Must have them.

Fantastical elements. Hell yeah.

Look how cool this is.

Yes!!!

Nice. Very nice. 

3. https://picrew.me/image_maker/606067

Pixel art style. 

It looks cute.

Cat shirt. Haha me.

Wings because wings are cool.

Dang, that's me.

Heck yeah!

:)

4. https://picrew.me/image_maker/129580

Love the vibes in this...

... uh, well, "e-thot maker".

(lmao)

hehehehehe me-

yeah ahhhhhh

(idk what else to say-)

HELLO

5. I lost the link. :(

I think this art style is so cute. The colors and line art. 

I love it. <3

Cat ears and wings and peace signs. Heck yeah! 

The energy!! The vibes!! :D

The outfit. Yes, obviously.

The colors... <3

*insert happy screaming here or something*

6. https://picrew.me/image_maker/395214

Asexual flag background this time. 

The face is how I feel a lot of the time.

(yeah... idk what else to say.)

Wings yet again! 

The blue parts. Hehe, I like light blue. :)

Cool.

(lol ok)

7. https://picrew.me/image_maker/29841

Black, gold/beige, and red colors this time. 

Changing things up. ;)

Kitsune. Six-tailed fox. Yes. 

Black gloved hands. Ace card. 

The outfit. The stars and other effects.

Epic. <3

8. https://picrew.me/image_maker/230257

Ah, why yes. Another aromantic flag background. Another Picrew with frogs (aka "Little Guys").

Featuring silly clown doll. :3

Wings! Again.

hehehehehehheheheheheheheheheeee

It's cute. 

Of course it is.

:) ~*~*~*~ :D

9. https://picrew.me/image_maker/215621

The colors in this Picrew can be bright and saturated. 

So many options and features! The background is the aro flag, and the pin is the aromantic-asexual flag. 

This is so freaking cute! I love the vibes here too! :D

The emoji face pin and smiley star. Aww. :3

The black cat is supposed to be Thelma. My cat. <3

"HAVE A GREAT DAY!"

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*tries to not cringe at the messed up format*

Anyway!

Pictures of Thelma and me:

(hehe, so silly!)

Ok so, I took these the day before I left back for college. 

I miss my Thelma baby. :(

Oh yeah. She turned 9 this month! This small cat is now 9 years old! :O

She's my baby, but I'm also her baby. Baby Thelma. Mama Thelma. 

Thelmama. <3 

Yes, she was sitting on top of me, rubbing her face against mine, and purring. She can be very protective, haha how sweet. 

Me: *meows that sound like I'm crying like a kitten in pain*

Thelma: *rushes up to me, purring like I'm her kitten and she's the mama cat*

I love her so much. 

💖💕

~ Shan / Cutepups / whatever name I go by

Maxine With Her Cone + Deer Close To My House

Hi, I have plenty of pictures I should post on this here wreck of a blog. :)

Note: The order of the pictures in this post isn't chronological. A picture I insert first could have been taken after a picture I'll insert later on in the post.

Yes. Anyway, enjoy my photos. ;D

But first, context.

Maxine has to wear a big cone around her head since she got spayed fairly recently. I think she looks funny with it. 

She gets cold very easily since she's thin and has short fur. I thought it was strange at first when I pet Maxine and then Thelma. The cats have longer fur than the dog now. Not like Sunshine at all, haha.

Maxine is a sighthound mix. We think she's part-whippet or part-greyhound and part... who knows what else. 

Also, I love Maxine's ears. Something happened to her left ear. Ah, her past is a mystery to us. 

As for the deer, I took short videos of them as well, but Blogger doesn't like videos. Oh darn, that's a shame. 

At the end of my backyard, there are woods, so that's probably where the deer came from. There's no fence separating the backyard from the woods. My dad is against fences. I don't know. Anyway.

We saw 4 or 5 deer around our house yesterday afternoon. All female deer. They were hanging out like it's girls night or something. I don't know lmao.

There were 2 in the front yard, and 2 or 3 other deer in the backyard. The ones in the front yard were so close to the house. They were so close to the window and front door. 

Uh... deer in the snow,, pretty. ;w; O_O ??

It snowed the other day. Yes...

Ok, now it's picture time. :)

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~ blank space ooooo ~

🐶❄🌨❆🦌

~ Shan 

Then and Now + The Sisters

 Hi, here's another Picrew post. 

(Yes, I have many.)

Well anyway, here's the link: https://picrew.me/image_maker/50700

I only made Jack, Dylan, and Stella and her sister on this design maker. 

....... I especially like the "past" Jack and the "now" Dylan that I designed on this Picrew. 

(yes, yes, yes)

"Past" = Jack and Dylan during their middle school or high school years. "Now" = them in the current day (for the events of story 2). 

Got that? Ok, let's go. 

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Jack:

(oh yeah, the first pic is the "then/past" and the second pic is the "now")

(ignore the huge gaps of blank space. it's such cringe, i know.)

I'm obsessed with the "past" Jack for some reason. Jack's natural hair color is a pale, dusty-like brown. He used to have very messy hair before he cut it much shorter and started dyeing it. He got in lots of fights— school fights when he was still in school, and then street fights when he was new to "living" on the streets and didn't know how to really use his... Power. Though he did use it a few times before. He's been through a lot. He's not a stranger to violence and mentally screwing people over. He wasn't a sweet boy. 

Dylan: 

This is going to be one of the only times I'll designing Dylan pre-coming out and pre-transition. (He's still transitioning when story 2 takes place, but I digress...). "Past" [Dylan] looking uncomfortable and feeling bitter for appearing female, like a girl. I think that long hair design fits him, that he would look like that in middle school. The blue bow looks cute, and I guess it replaces how he dyes his hair when he's older. As for the second pic, it just fits him so well. Black T-shirt, hoodie, cap, determined look in his eyes, arched eyebrows, sly grin... yeah, that's pretty much how I imagine Dylan looking physically. 

And now it's time for the sisters. Stella and her sister. I might name her Luna. 

Stella and Luna. 

Those names for the sisters. Sounds like a pair. Star and Moon. 

They used to be close. Their sisterly relationship is sweet... turned bittersweet. 

Stella is the one with blue hair and the stars. 

Luna (?) is the one with the blonde hair and angel halo. Luna has angel vibes. Because she just does. 

(ok, ok, ok)

~* blank space, baby *~

also......

Tonight was the last day of Hanukkah. 🕎

A few nights ago, I took this pic. ;D

Yes, that's a light-up dreidel. I took videos of it spinning, but Blogger doesn't like or won't let me insert videos I made on my phone's camera into blog posts. Blogger... eww. 

My dad found my frog Beanie Baby and tried giving it to Maxine to play with. 

I didn't like that. She shouldn't play with Beanie Babies.

So I grabbed Smoochy (that's the name of the frog) and took this picture. 

Froggy... 🐸

Smoochy is mine! 😤

About Maxine, my sister supposedly signed the papers and mailed the check. Which means...

My sister officially adopted Maxine! She's ours. Supposedly.

😃☺️😊

And here's a pic of Maxine relaxing in her crate and Mr. Zo lying next to it. They're just chilling. Hanging out. 

I like to think they're friends. :)

See? Friends. 😉

What else? Well, lots of things. 

One thing is...

I've been reading this book called Vicious. It's book 1 of the Villains duology. 

It's hard to stop reading. It's so good. 

I may or may not be obsessed. 

(heh, heh, heh)

~ Shan