Unorganized Jumble of Thoughts

Hi, I haven’t posted in a while. At least that’s what I think. I can’t perceive time anymore. 

Anyway, I want to inform you all on what I’ve been doing these past few days. Ok uh, sure. 

I started listening to The Magnus Archives podcast. It’s good. I’m starting to get used to listening to podcasts. The episodes in this podcast are interesting. It’s.. it’s like, you know.. horror. I like it. >:) 

I finished reading Crooked Kingdom yesterday. No, I’m still not over this duology. My heart... ;; 

I also started reading the first book in The Raven Cycle book series today. I’m only in the very beginning, so I don’t really have an opinion on it. I hope I’ll like the rest of the book. I’ve wanted to read this book series for a while. It better make my cursed brain satisfied. 

I’m finally returning to my bookworm self. I’m reading for fun. Haha, beat that, depression! I’m not too depressed to not read a book this summer. Look at me go! I’m reading! :’D 

I’ve also been playing Episode (that weird story game app) a lot lately. It’s fun and I’m bored, okay? Let me be. Some Episode stories are good. XD 

So yeah. That’s what I’ve been doing. :) 

About dreams, I feel like I dream too much. I don’t know what it’s like to sleep and not end up dreaming about something. I miss the times when I didn’t dream. I just want my brain to rest and to have a peaceful sleep. 

*sighs* :( 

Anyway, it’s time for me to talk about my characters. Because I control my posts, and I’m a reckless driver, driving my blog.. recklessly. 

That makes no sense. Ugh whatever. :/ 

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Main characters’ sexualities and genders:

• Duke and Fierdan: bisexual. biromantic. cis male. 

• Ryen: aromantic. asexual. cis male. 

• J___: gay. cis male. 

• Twinkle (who I usually call Stella nowadays but ok): heteromantic or greyromantic. asexual. female, later on questions if she’s a demigirl or agender. still uses she/her pronouns. (yes, Stella is most like my self-insert but only vaguely. ahem-)

• Dawn: doesn’t really label her sexuality but she’s probably pansexual. panromantic. cis female. 

• Ardere: straight. cis male. 

• Fauna (or whatever I change her name to be): unknown, assumed to be straight though. cis female.

I can just totally see Stella being a demigirl. I do what I want, I decide what I want, I am god. 

...... uh what— *cough, cough, cough* *stares blankly at my phone screen on which I’m typing this post* 

Stella never really had any crushes, but she eventually accepts Duke’s proclaimed love for her and ends up loving him back. Duke is her first romantic lover. And for some reason, she really gives me greyromantic vibes. 

All of the characters I listed (except for J___ but he’s a mystery) haven’t had many crushes. They haven’t had many romantic relationships. 

Oh wait, yeah, Ryen is aro. He’s so aro. There’s no romance in his body. He pushes away romance when it involves him. If you think he has any romantic or sexual attraction in his body, you are mistaken. Maybe his brother stole his attractions. Just kidding. Haha heck. 

And here are some possible ideas regarding the sexualities and genders of characters I haven’t come close to naming because I’m absolutely terrible at naming my characters. They first appear in story 2, anyway. Ahem, here:

• Character with water Elemental Power (yes, that’s still a thing..): bisexual. biromantic or aromantic. trans male. 

• Character with metal Elemental Power: pansexual. panromantic. nonbinary, probably genderfluid. uses they/them pronouns. 

• Character with telepathy Elemental Power: lesbian. cis female. 

• Character with telekinesis Elemental Power: lesbian. cis female. possibly the character with the power of telepathy’s twin sister. 

If you don’t know what any of these terms mean, you can search them up yourself. 

Hahaha. Yes. >:) 

DukeXTwinkle might be a male/female couple, but they’re both not straight, so it’s not your ordinary hetero relationship. ;) 

...... Should I shut up? Yes? No? 

Oh great, I don’t know what else to say. :/ 

I’ll save mentioning all that stuff about J___ for another post. 

He’s had it rough. He’s done some questionable things. I still love him a lot. Despite how cold the world was to him and how he wasn’t.. well, he wasn’t always a ray of sunshine, he grows up to become a main character with one of the biggest hearts. 

Metaphorical. As in, there’s a lot of love in the Ja boi. The love he has for Fierdan? Dang, that’s true love right there. 

His past consists of: Being bullied. Lots of death and rape threats. Problems in school academically and not only socially. Failing. Dropping out of school. Lots of fights. Disappointed and unaccepting family. Lots of people hate him for lots of reasons. Being homeless. Living on the streets. Trying drugs. Being a drug addict. Body modifications in piercings, tattoos, and frequently dyeing his hair. Using his Elemental Power (which is something along the lines of illusion) to get what he wants such as revenge on certain people and getting amounts of the drug he’s addicted to. And then later on comes drug rehab. Then comes treatment for his ADHD: therapy and proper medication instead of self-medicating with an illegal drug and frequent smoking.. and other risk-taking behaviors of his. 

Yeah, so that happened. Ah heck, oh geez. 

That’s all I’ll say for now. 

hehehehehehe >:3 

Bye, bye. <3 

~ Shan