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 Hi. December is almost over. 2020 is almost over. 

I don’t think anything good happened this year. 2020 has been horrible for me since January. Since the beginning. 

I’m so done. Idk why I’m still alive. I have nothing to live for. 

Something very bad happened yesterday. I’m still hurt because of what happened. 

Sad. Angry. Upset. 

Idk why I’m still living. Me still being alive is a fucking joke. A fucked up joke. 

I’m so fucking done with 2020. I have absolutely no expectations for 2021. The only good thing I can think of is that I’ll be turning 21, which means it’ll be easier for me to drink alcohol. 21, the legal drinking age. Yeah yeah. 

Oh and just ignore all the posts I made about Maxine. Just forget about it. They don’t matter. Nothing matters.

My family is probably not going to keep Maxine anymore. She did very bad things. 

 I don’t want to talk about it. 

Just forget about her. Forget everything I said about her. 

I really thought something good happened this year. Oh boy was I wrong. 

Everything is bad and wrong. There is nothing good. I like to pretend there is, but there really isn’t. 

Anyway. Yeah. 

Fuck 2020. 

Bye, I’ll try not to die. 

~ Shan