April 23rd: Stella’s Birthday

Hi, I’m back. 

Know what today is? It’s April 23rd. Know what I made that date mean? ;)

It’s Stella’s birthday! I made April 23rd be her birthday. :D

(Stella = Twinkle) 

Happy birthday, my blue ice-fire child! <3 

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Anyway, I’ve been working on updating and organizing my original character information sheets. I changed some things. I don’t think I’ve mentioned them on here before. 

I’ve changed my characters’ ages again. Well, Stella’s age. I changed her age from 17 to 18. I think it fits better if she’s already 18 during story 1. To make things easier. That also means that Duke is 18. 

They’re 18 year olds instead of 17 year olds. Ok so yeah.

A few of my game night friends and I have been introducing each other to our oc’s. So that’s what’s been happening lately. Introducing my irl friends to my twisted mind. Uh, I mean my characters. Ha, ha...

Stella’s Intro Info Sheet: 

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Name: Stella L. *(haven’t completely decided on a last name yet)*

Age: 18

Height: 5’4”

Eye color: Blue

Current hair color: Dark blue with the roots and some strands being strawberry blonde (her natural hair color)

Sexuality: Aro-spec Asexual

Assigned sex: Female

Gender: Female or feminine-leaning nonbinary? (gender questioning lol)

Pronouns: She/her

Likes: Listening to music, singing, freedom, reading, poetry, her sister, adventure, blue and silver and black, having a purpose

Dislikes: Her parents, liars, the people who want to harm her and her friends, confinement, math, double standards, being blamed for things which aren’t her fault, anxiety, depression

Personality: Reserved, quiet, nervous and worried a lot, stubborn at times, indecisive 

Fears: Her school bullies, being manipulated, drowning, being harmed, betrayal, guns and gunshots, being forced into life-and-death situations in general

Backstory: Stella’s home life is rather unfortunate. Her parents were either distant or treated her unfairly compared to her younger sister. They always preferred her over Stella. Then one fateful day a few years ago from when the story begins, she and her sister get caught in an accident turned tragedy. Since Stella was the only one out of the two to survive, her parents end up blaming her for her sister’s death. Already having trouble talking to people and making friends, her parents make it even harder by only allowing her to go to school and her bedroom. Add her personality and being deemed unattractive by most of her peers, she doesn’t have friends or any good support system, making her a target of frequent bullying. Fast forward a bit and she is caught in another freak, possibly supernatural, accident, which ends up with her being a hospital patient for a short while. Even at this point, her parents don’t express much love towards her. During her hospital stay, Stella realizes that her body is changing such as the color of her hair. The cause remains a mystery for a while until she discovers that she is developing supernatural, elemental, powers. Towards the end of her hospital stay, she fatefully meets a mysterious and fairly charming classmate who is also staying at the hospital at the same time as her. With his persuasive charm, he connects to Stella’s desire for freedom and to escape, convincing her to go on an adventure they won’t ever be able to forget.

Any extra information: Stella is the main protagonist in my story universe. There are other protagonists, but I view her as the main one. It takes her a while to figure out her Elemental Power, blue ice-fire, due to how complex it is. 

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Bye for now. :’)

— Shan 

7 years of existence (blog anniversary)

Hi, I have returned. And uh......

It is time. Yes. >:)

Today's the anniversary of this weird blog. 

It's been 7 years. I've had this blog for 7 years now. Omg.

Damn...

...... idk what to do...

I feel old lmao.

Well, uh, I quickly drew a crow a few nights ago. Since it was Draw a Bird Day. And yes, that is a thing.

I haven't done art in so long. 

Crows are cool, huh. Corvids. Nice.

Look at this little guy. I think it looks cute.

idk what i'm saying—

(spiritixsw is my name on other online places)

I looked at this picture I took while in the gardens at the Palace of Versailles while I was in France. 

Little crow guy... :>

Yes, it was there. See?

Yeah, I'm showing pictures from summer 2018 now. *shrugs*

That was nearly 3 years ago. What the hell—

Ah, what a place... :')

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Goodbye for now. 

~ 7 years ♥ ~

Gaming Youtuber + Chocolate Factory School Teacher Dream (and other things)

Hi, I have returned. :)

Last Wednesday sure was a day. Haha yeah, it sure was. Geez.

Classes were canceled. I felt sick that morning. I felt terrible. So much pain. 

Big oof. :(

Then I took a nap since I didn't get that much sleep that night. And my dream sure was interesting. 

This is what I still remember from that dream:

I had a popular Youtube channel which connected to my blog (yes, this one). I played games and sang songs on my channel. I remember playing Animal Jam in several of my videos, but it was like a cooler and more competitive game version. I also played other computer games, but I forgot which ones. I had lots of videos and subscribers (wow, Cutepups is so successful and popular in their dreams XD).

About the songs, I also sang songs on this Youtube channel. In the dream, I rewatched a bunch of my own videos, and wow, I really liked my voice. It made me happy. It wasn't high-pitched and squeaky. I remember my voice sounding androgynous, maybe even masculine. And it pleased me. I liked that. My gender was ambiguous because of my voice. Gosh, if only that could also happen in real life.

When all of this was happening, I also dreamed that I worked at a chocolate factory in this chocolate universe. So while I was working there, I looked back at my old Youtube channel from when I was 14-18. I don't know why I quit making videos. It kinda reminded me of when and how I quit making Animal Jam related posts lmao. I could also remember recording my Youtube videos on my bed at home, which I thought was funny since my room was so messy.

I was a school teacher in this chocolate factory/universe. Chocolate school teacher, hehe. ;P

I forgot the rest. I don't remember the other details. Oh darn. 

Now for other topics! 💫

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It's the end of the day. But whatever. It still counts. 

Only my time zone matters, of course. (just kidding lmao)

It's April 3rd. </3

If Sunshine (my dog) was somehow still alive, today would have been her 16th birthday. Her sweet sixteen. 

It made me a bit emotional earlier. :'(

I still miss her so much. 

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I'm out here thinking about these campus cats. I love them. :')

Lots of them remind me of Thelma. Small tuxedo cats. Must be Thelma's long-lost twins, huh.

Look at them. They're so cute!

The cat in the first picture kept following me. To be fair, I also followed it. I was able to pet the cat in the second picture. Such a nice kitty cat. :3

And the last two pictures are of a cat family meeting. The tuxedo cats and black cats are having a meeting. I saw cats and kittens there. I saw at least eight cats that day (I saw the tabby on the same day). 

(We get it. You love cats.)

Of course I do! 

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I've been thinking about my lightning golden boy lately. 

Ardere. I mean that kid. Lightning boy. 

This boy.

Why was I thinking about him? Ha! Like I would reveal my secrets. >:)

(You've revealed so many of your secrets on here, Cutepups.)

Just... shh. Shh. Hush now. 

He has golden eyes. Gold irises. I love my handsome, wholesome boy. :)

I'm thinking about what happens to him, what becomes of him. So many possibilities. 

I'm emotional over my ideas. Damn.

Would it be funny if Duke and Fierdan only assumed [redacted] happened, but it actually didn't? Would I provide further context? Of course not!

Duke/Fierdan. Ah geez, these fools will be the death of me. 

It's just a saying! Ahhhhh—

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Have some songs. Why not. 

I've been playing some of these songs on repeat a lot. >;)

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Lovely~ Lauren Babic and Seraphim (cover)

Nowhere To Run~ Stegosaurus Rex (slowed down)

Brave New World~ Kalandra

Same Old Song~ The Jon Hill Project and Tilian

I See You~ MISSIO

Control~ Zoe Wees

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