Last Day of 2019 / the Decade

Well then. Hi guys. 

It’s the last day of 2019. It’s the last day of the decade. 

Oh damn. 

I’ve been feeling a little sick. I don’t have plans for tonight. Also because I’m lonely. :( 

It’s gonna be 2020 in a few hours. Oh geez.

I’m referring to my time zone. Of course. As always. 

Time to kill another year! Yeet! It’s almost time to throw out 2019. And the 2010’s in general. 

blah blah blah .......

Bye- for now! ;D 

~ Cutepups

Dani Soot

Who? 

Well uh. Hi guys. I’m back. Sorry for being so inactive lately! 

I’ve been very tired all day. Well, from last night to a few hours ago. I slept a lot today. 

In the most recent dream I had, I was thinking of a man called Dani Soot. Yep, spelled like that. I don’t know why he’s called that. The dream was weird and somewhat frightening. I’ve been having bad dreams again lately. Anyway, I only know that Dani Soot is tall and has long blond hair. 

That’s all I’ve got. XD 

........ just kidding. 🤪 -insert silly face emoji here-

Well. Life happened. On December 28th, my mood fell real low. My genuine happiness streak ended. Which hurt. A lot. 

I felt emotionally hurt and was in physical pain. 

For the past few days, I couldn’t really breathe through my nose. Even though I was taking medicine on top of doing other things that supposedly work to make my nose hurt less, none of the things worked. It hurt a lot. 

Now skip to a few hours ago, and I feel like I can finally breathe again. My head was starting to hurt a lot too. 

December 28th was a busy morning for me. First, I went with my family to a restaurant for breakfast. Food,, so good,, yum. Then I had my eye exam. Which was.. not so great. 

I found out my eyesight got a lot worse. I know my eyes not working right doesn’t define me as a person, but I felt so awkward and embarrassed for not being able to read all the letters. And I don’t just mean the teeny tiny last row of letters either. There were lots of lines of letters I had to read. 

I was also planning on getting contacts. But that didn’t work so well either. I had trouble opening my eyes wide enough or whatever, I got shamed for being hesitant on touching my eyeballs, I tried so many times to get it right that my eyes and myself started getting irritable and they hurt.. and yeah, it was a disaster. 

Me and my poor eyesight. :( 

Tomorrow is New Year’s Eve. It’s almost 2020. Yikes. 2 days. Big yikes. O_O 

What a decade. Things sure did happen. That was weird. 

Ok yeah bye. 

~ Cutepups :P

merry xmas

Hi! <3 

I know I haven’t been as active on here (or other blogs) lately. I guess I’ve forgotten to.. well.. blog. 

But I’m here now. I’m here. :) 

It’s Christmas. Well, it still is in my time zone. 

Hanukkah started a few nights ago. On Sunday, I think. 

And like. Wow. Just. Wow. 

Today’s been a good day. For the past few days, I can honestly say I’ve been happy. :’) 

Guys, here’s the thing. I genuinely feel happy. I don’t remember the last time I actually felt happy on Christmas Day. 

And yeah, I don’t really celebrate Christmas. And yes, I went to my aunt’s house to celebrate Christmas Eve. And.. well, yeah. 

But.. idk how to put this. I didn’t feel miserable this year. This time around. 

I don’t feel trapped or drowning in guilt/shame. Yeah, I made mistakes this semester I just finished. But I don’t feel like it’s the end of the world. 

I don’t. It’s okay. It’s going to be okay. 

And.. and... For the first time in years, I haven’t constantly been thinking of how I “should” die in December. 

I feel... free. 

So.. ahem, not to get too emotional.. here’s a list of what I got for Christmas: 

• Visa gift card

• Visa gift card 

That’s it. XD 

I got Hanukkah gifts though. 

I’ll talk about them in another post. 

Less than a week left of 2019. Less than a week left of the decade. 

Oh gosh. What a decade. That changed me. It changed all of us. 

I’m not sure what else to say, so bye for now. 

~ Cutepups 

DF- it’s his birthday

Oh yeah. I came home yesterday. I finished my finals yesterday and am home for winter break now. Yay. 

My posting schedule is so irregular now. I’ve been busy. 

But now the semester is over! Woohoo! 

My grades though.... heck. 

Welp, I tried. 

Anyway............

It’s December 19th yet again! Know what that means? 

df is this? 

DF,, it’s,,,,,,,,

Duke’s / Fierdan’s birthday! *throws confetti* 

Wow, I feel like I haven’t made a post about them in forever. 

Don’t worry, they’re still alive in my heart. <3 

I was planning on making a few posts about J___ during the semester, but I didn’t have time. Sorry. 

It’s swag master fire man df’s bday! XD :3 

I have no new art of Fierdan or Duke. Oh darn. 

I lost track of how old I imagine Duke and Fierdan turning this year. All I know is I imagine both of them being older than me. 

Well, I’m not sure what else to say. Until my next post- whenever that will be! ;D 

~ Cutepups 

Instructions On How To Smile: Instruction Manual Prose Poem

Hi everyone. Today was my last day of my poetry class. Here I'll be showing my latest version of the instructional prose poem I wrote for the class.

*Note: It's supposed to be written like an instruction manual. It is supposed to be instructions on something we shouldn't need instructions for. The subject is on any innate human ability. Satire is also included in this type of prose poem.

Enjoy! ;)

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Instructions On How To Smile

            First, remember that you are alive. Think of something, anything, that motivates you to keep on living. When you have thought of something, write it down on a piece of paper. Get some tape and stick it onto your bathroom mirror. Reread what you wrote.

            Look at yourself. Watch your reflection staring back at you. Don’t disappoint the person on the other side of the glass. That is not recommended. In order to smile, stretch your lips horizontally. Do not stretch vertically. Imagine that what you wrote down is happening right now. Feel it through all your senses. Live it to the best of your ability. 

            If you are unable to feel joy, fake it till you make it. Despite popular belief, brains aren’t that smart. Using your facial muscles in an attempt to form a smile will trick your brain into feeling better. If you’re still having trouble, have a sense of humor. Remember that life is a joke. Laugh, then smile. Your cheeks and mouth may begin to hurt. Relax your muscles, and most importantly, be kind to yourself.  

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And that's my prose poem with instructions on how to smile. :)

Bye for now. <3 

ohoho yes

.... what are titles again?

I mean- hi.

Here is a short post. Enjoy.

Enjoy it.

Or else.

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So I literally just found out that my cousins whose dog recently died (</3 ouch, my heart!) have a new puppy.

Puppy,, pupper,, cute pup!! yeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!

But anyway. A few weeks ago, I went to this mental health workshop thing for my frat. And uh. Uh.......

Fun things like these were handed out.

(yeehaw!!)

I made a pipe cleaner bracelet. I can wear it on my wrist. #fashion-icon. what a look! damn.

Look look look !!!

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

:D !!!!!

Dollar store play dough was also handed out. 

Wait. No. 

The pipe cleaners were handed out. The play dough was already at our seats when we got there. 

ehehehehehe

I showed my parents this picture, and they thought it was orange Italian ices. 

Forbidden orange snack,,,,, 

That was fun! 

*collapses after finishing this old post* 

(except for the puppy info. that’s new.) 

Oh yeah. It’s early-mid December. The time of death. 

.... it’s finals season. and i am dying. 

........ and my earbuds broke (like, physically broke) in my backpack. t H A n K s 

I haven’t made update posts on here in a while. geez. 

Ok lol so uh-

bye bye.