Hi, I'm back again so soon. Wow, look at me go. I have so much to say.
I survived another Monday, so I'll reveal which character I'm currently writing a short story about (that character's backstory). I'm not sure how much of a surprise it'll be. I don't think it's that surprising, to be honest. Or maybe I'm just biased.
I'll do that.. later in the post. Heh.
Before I go off rambling about my characters, have a boring, personal update. Because I said so.
It's too hard for me to fit two appointments into my schedule this week. And my family's since I have to go back home to go to the appointments. It was too stressful, and I couldn't handle it. And so I just rescheduled one of my appointments for a later date. So I'll worry about that later. Oh boy!
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Character's backstory new short story in progress reveal time !!!!1!!!1!!!1
The character is..........
Ardere! :D
My lightning sunshine boy! <3
I'm writing his backstory. About his life before he becomes involved with Stella, Duke, and all the others. By the way, I'm changing a lot of things from the original concept I had for Ardere. He doesn't come from a family who lives outside in the woods (*cough, cough* those Sarepia Forest and Warrior Cats clans vibes... yeah lol, I got rid of all that).
(I'm surprised I remember the name 'Sarepia Forest'— I haven't been on AJ in forever. Does my account still exist? I have no idea lmao)
(My blog name and url is very misleading. Lmao)
I think I always had the idea that Ardere's father was the leader of a group of people. Chieftain or clan leader (based on book series I was obsessed with and ended up shaping my overall personality in middle school 👀). Well anyway, that man's a freaking king. Which makes.. you guessed it.. Ardere technically a prince. Ardere comes from royalty, baby!
Funny to think about, huh? ;D
So yeah. That's what I'm writing about. Ardere's escape from his life of royalty to his fated encounters with Stella and Duke. Well, first Stella. He meets Duke later. And when Ardere is with them, he's like just another kid. Just another ordinary kid.
Oh gosh, I love him. I love him like a parent caring for their child.
Just.... Him! <3
............ oh wait, wrong pic. That's just a little owl. ^-^"
~ blank space oooooo ~
Ardere, my golden-haired and golden-eyed child! 💛
........ if the story takes place in our current day, he would totally have a Nintendo Switch. He would somehow get one. That's just a fact.
~ blank space 2 owo ~
Since I've been talking about Ardere in this post, I don't think talking about Fierdan, Soulless, and Jack now would work. Uhhhhh... adult reasons. Dark and sketchy stuff. They're not good role models. And just, uh.. some other things. Heh.
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It's funny how almost every other character has a dark history full of very messed up stuff. And then there's Ardere. He's too precious.
............... Autumn and Mae are good girls. :)
Ok bye.
Hey Shan! Glad to see you posting again! I'm going to comment on this one since it's the newest post oops, but I'm going to sum up all my points of what I want to address in the past few posts I've read:
ReplyDelete1) Your diagnosis! I'm happy (for a lack of better term) that you got diagnosed, and I hope that you can find the right resources / help you need (since IIRC schools can offer certain accessibility aid?, but I am unsure to what extent it goes to, but I believe additional deadlines and stuff are a major aspect of it). This is actually starting to sound pretty crudely worded. Anyway, masking, I hope that now you have come to realise about your diagnosis + masking, you'll be able to rid yourself of the major worries / burdens of it in a sense of how you might have been confused with things and feeling out of place. Society is not a kind place, unfortunately, so maybe it might take time, but I trust that you will take the next few fateful steps to what would be best for you.
I have read that a lot of people with certain diagnosis have impostor syndrome (?) since they don't match all of the specifications / criteria for the diagnosis, these are but empty words, but I hope that you won't be pressured to doubt yourself or your current diagnosis / symptoms - since everyone experiences them differently.
You worry about your characters being stereotypes of certain diagnosis, but I think you have done quite a fair amount of research and gave it some thought! So long they are not harmful stereotypes, I do not think it is entirely bad - in a sense that some stereotypes have truths in it.
For example someone with ADHD (or is it ADD now?) might have a short attention span, but it's how one choses to portray it is what's important, like not being able to follow a list of verbal instructions since they're too long to follow and to remember rather than "oh look a butterfly!" sort of scenario.
I hope that your next appointment will go well, and perhaps reaffirm your concerns / doubts of your second diagnosis, whether you choose to share your results or not is up to you - I hope this place will continue to be your safe place, and no one would pressure you to do what you don't want.
2) Lilly! She's absolutely adorable - how are the cats dealing with her?
3) Also very adorable owl, did you take that picture yourself? If so, when - what was the special occasion?
Again, this is your safe space, and, as a friend - or a mere acquaintance - I don't want to pressure you to respond to anything you don't want to.
Wow, long comment. Nice. I’ll be replying in a few comments. ^-^”
DeleteHi Rainbow! Thanks~ :)
Yes, I took the owl picture. I went to an aviary earlier this year, in May. I found that little owl adorable.
Lilly is... a handful. The cats still aren’t getting along with her, unfortunately. I think she scares them, especially since she wants to play with them like they’re dogs but they’re not dogs. XD ... and since I was home for a few days last week, I got to see them again. Lilly looks so much bigger compared to the last time I saw her (which was a month before).
Forgot to continue with my replies- oops. Just wanted to say thank you for all you said earlier, Rainbow. I really, really appreciate it.
DeleteGetting in contact with the access services at my school still daunts me after all this time. But now that I hav diagnoses (probably will make a post about that in the future), it seems more.. feasible? since I know they’re strict about this sort of thing. I’ve been going to counseling and had another psychiatrist appointment though (saying as of mid-late October). So, that’s something. Progress? I guess so.
I have so, so, so much imposter syndrome. If I were to make posts like I did years ago when this blog was more like my daily mood journal diary thing now, I would have so many posts where I go on and on about imposter syndrome. It’s so frequent, it’s not even funny.
Oh and ADHD and ADD are the same disorder. ADD is now known as primarily inattentive ADHD.
*have diagnoses. have been diagnosed...
DeleteI’ve come to accept that all of my characters have stereotypes. I can’t deny that or avoid that I made them that way. But I’ve been afraid of crossing the line into making them walking stereotypes despite how much I fleshed them out and think about their personalities and goals and.. etc. I think a lot of it has to do with how I don’t share/reveal every single plan I have involving my characters, so only I know the whole picture. For some reason, I feel like since I talk about their disorders and sexualities so often, it’s the only information I have about them and those are the only things that define them when that’s actually not the case. It’s simply not true. I just want to keep some secrets.