Hey guys.
(I have a terrible headache that's killing me right now and my family's mad at me for taking a nap, so... bare with me.)
Okay...
So...
Basic stuff first. Next chapter, there's probably gonna be 2 "Anonymous POV"s that are totally different.
I'm gonna be busy most of tomorrow also because of my dance recital and all that good stuff.
More "complicated" stuff.
*sigh*
I know that it's starting to become pretty obvious that I don't come on here as often as I used to.
Okay...
Well...
One reason I'm not on here as often is because I'm a CIT at this day camp. And yeah. That results in less hours for me to be on here, getting busy with all that hectic stuff... yeah.
And the other reason is... umm...
Okay, I gotta get this off my chest. But first...
I'm serious about this. Please don't be rude or anything like that.
Alright...
Ever since finals' week ended for me, I've been feeling (how to put this?) not as happy. So idk... maybe that's another reason why I'm posting less.
I'm not really sure if it's recognizable to you at all...
Ever since my last final on that Friday, I've been feeling like a complete fail.
I even cried in my house when I came home from school that Friday.
*sigh*
I feel like everybody I know is succeeding and I'm not.
I know it's true, so...
Yeah, I'm always gonna be the failed child in my family, aren't I?
Yeah...
Eh, at least they took my mind off of things by seeing Jurassic World that day (great movie btw).
Bad thoughts, I know...
*sigh*
Oh and one more thing. (Since basically every blogger is saying this already...)
I, too, have lost interest in Animal Jam. I honestly don't care for it anymore.
The only connection I have with it is its lore and legends, and how I'm incorporating them into the story.
And, well, that's it.
I might stop posting update posts altogether... idk.
Have more "personal" kinds of posts... idk.
Sorry for the vent post. :(
Bye guys.
I know how you feel. All the time, to me at least, it feels as if everyone always knows where they are going in life, and me, I haven't the faintest clue. I (as you already know from much of my vents) honestly always feel useless a lot, and it's hard. I always feel sad about that, it almost hurts, you know what I mean? While everyone's doing something, I'm not. It almost feels to me like people think I am one thing, but I am not as great as they see me.
ReplyDeleteWell, aside from the vents, little one, bare with yourself. It's true that now you feel useless, I suppose, but from reading stuff on Tumblr (lol Tumblr, but Tumblr is ok) many adults don't really KNOW how to do THEIR lives, and they are all grown up! Sometimes it takes them a while to figure out what they're going to do. And if you don't, you can keep changing your mind, again, again, again, until you find something that you like. You don't have to do anything immediately, but trust me, I know that feeling very well. Pressure. But you don't have to, little one. You'll always get support + help from the people you love to do WHAT you love.. including me. So don't worry so much. You worried so much about your finals, you worry so much about everything right? And that turned out alright. Most things do. So take a deep breath in, out. It's going to be alright. And no matter what you do, keep in mind I will always be here for you. Do you think I'm succeeding? I'm always so great? A lot of people (including me) may seem like they're succeeding, but they may be struggling to. Everyone may seem calm, but maybe they're panicking in the inside. You're having fun with stuff like blogging, right? Stuff you like? Then you're ok. Absorb the stuff you like. You're still a kid. You're doing alright. Because, if you're doing good in school, you have loved ones/things/people you care about, you're halfway there! And I will always believe in you: you're Cutepups; hilarious, beautiful, wonderful, and always a good friend to me, and if you're ever feeling down, you can talk to me. I'm here; I'm here.
Also, if you ever feel so bored, and like a failure, here's a couple of things that will distract you:
-organize/design your blog(s)/DeviantArt page. I always am distracted for at least a day on this. XD
-draw a super detailed drawing of your characters
-make a new playlist
-thing of things to blog about/put new gadgets in your blog
-write out story ideas/make mini-stories for fun
-ask your friend Gamer (lol ;)) for much more games, anime, websites, to cheer you up. You can always chat w/ her, cos she's online basically all of the day (I need to follow this list myself omg)
-give special attention to your pets
-take a hot shower or curl up in blankets with a book/hot tea
-lol I'll tell u more l8r I'm lzy
<33 Reachie + Gamer + lel ur senpai
;w; ;w; ;w; *hugs* <3
DeleteAhaha, I just took a shower. And aspirin (lol finally found it :u).
Ergh, I dunno. The reason I'm kinda feeling like a fail is because of school things. Like yeah I know I finished finals, but... idk. Everyone I know (family, friends) has/had been going into more higher up (like AP classes) while I'm (as I say) "not good enough for those". And they all get better grades in subjects I suck at. I'm terrified if I failed a class in school. Especially since my family is all into the classes my siblings are going into at their colleges. And then there's me in no special high-ranked classes, feeling stupid and all. This probably sounds stupid... right?
And my family's all like we must be better than most and get good grades and be smart but not TOO much. (Hard to explain. XD).
DeleteAnd I secretly believe that you're way more successful at life (lol) than I am. I dunno... it's just you.. And how you're so great and an incredible friend. Like one of the best. <3
Oh and I know people older than me are uncertain in their place in the world (Omg that sounds deep!). Like for college, if you're uncertain about what to major in, just choose "undecided". I'll pick that one just like my siblings did/are doing. XD But I'm a very stubbornly uncertain person. My catchphrases are "I don't know" and "Shut up"... so yeah sad- ahaha. :c
Ugh, even your vents inspire me... uh wut.
Ahaha, I can set up my story blog now that I finally created it. XD
I love you, friend. <3
~ Cutepups
You're the best. :')
omg, and related to your beginning of the post, a few days ago, I took a nap for 5 hours XD.
Deleteand no, that doesn't sound stupid at all, I feel you. Always, I feel like I could be better, and even though I'm in more advanced classes, I feel stupid too- like I'm less than the people who actually know what they're doing and stuff. Like I don't feel the need to remember that stuff, so I accidentally forget it. XD So I get a lot of bad grades in math. XD You shouldn't compare yourself to others (like I do, lel) because even though they may be good at stuff you suck at, you're probably good at something they're not good at, either. Like take for example me, I'm not good at math, but people in my family are. But some of them aren't as good in Language Arts, etc., while I'm good at that. Everyone has their strong points, and their weak points, and even if you think you have a lot of weak points, you have a lot of strong ones as well that you don't realize yourself. Because often people look at themselves and they're like: "wow, I'm bad at ____" or something bad about themselves, but they never stop to turn around and see the good thing they don't notice, that others may be jealous of. Like me, let's use me as an example again. You see me as a kind, good person, but I see myself worse than that. And me, I see you as a hardworking, kind person, but you only see the bad stuff about yourself. You might see a glimpse, but take the time to see all of you: how good you really are. So hold your head up high. If you think you're dumb, think of all the great scientists. Some of them dropped out of school: even the big inventor people! Some of the parents/people didn't think them smart at all, and they proved them wrong! Just because you're not good at something, doesn't mean you are dumb at all, and trust me, there's lots more important things than passing the standardized tests in school in life. Eventually, when you get older, I don't think, I KNOW, you'll go places, and you'll find something you really love, you just have to believe in yourself a little more.
Even if you're uncertain: you don't need to be afraid of that...I'm pretty uncertain too. I don't know where I'll go either, we just have to plow ahead in life, like bolts of lightning. Always flashing in the best places, and some bad, coming back again, stopping, but always coming back, eventually hitting the best tree. (wow, that sure was a bad metaphor)
But really, you're so great. Don't worry about how others think you should be, or how you think you should be, because as Dr.Seuss says: "the people who matter don't mind, and the people who mind don't matter."
So keep going ahead, Cutepups! Keep living! <3 and thank you for the kind words. :"0 Remember everyone is here for you, and you don't have to be perfectly perfect, you already are <3
Eh, my self-confidence is rather low... ^n^'
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<3
You DO NOT have lower self confidence then me
DeleteOkay, maybe you do
BUT YOU STILL DONT
;o; <3
DeleteCutepups, you can talk to me. I'm not that great at comforting but I'll try my best. I hope you're feeling better and you aren't the "failed" child and you'll never will be. :)
ReplyDelete*hugs* ;w;
DeleteI can't say that I know how you feel, because I truly don't. Out of my two other siblings, I suck up, and try to be the good child. I think it's easy for me because I'm the oldest, and my little sister is brattiest brat you'll ever meet, and my little bro screams too much. But… I don't think you're a "failed child".
ReplyDeleteAnd maybe, you're just -how do I say this?- looking more at other people than yourself. You're succeeding too, maybe in a different way than others, or you just might not notice it.
Sometimes, I feel like I, myself, am just never enough, or too much. In French you have to conjugate verbs in different tenses (it's really confusing), and everybody in my class thought -no, knew- that I was going to win this tournament thing that we were doing. In the first round, I got overstressed and got a zero.
Everybody was so shocked that I -the "best person at verbs"- got a zero and would never shut up about it. They kept bringing it up when I was in the middle of trying to study. Because of this, I did extra studying, and finally won the tournament to polish the other's thoughts that I was going to win.
Earlier in the year, I had a speech competition (as you know, you maybe forgot), and I made it to the second round. I didn't make it. But THEN, they couldn't let one of the grade eights go because she turned out to be in a completely different category, so they got to choose another grade seven. And yet, they still didn't choose me.
In math, everyone expects me to be perfect. Sure, I get A's and everything in it, but when I get something wrong everyone just hangs it above my head. Low enough for them to drop it on me whenever they want, by high enough for me not to reach and take from their thoughts.
Sadly, nobody realizes that I am a terribly forgetful person, and only gets A's because I study. Though, I suck at English. And my worst mark was English writing even though ALL I DO IS WRITING IN ENGLISH.
And right now, I just rather push school aside to work on my writing. Some people don't know how to work their life much either (and it's so hard to explain mine), so you're not alone :D.
*hugs you too* ;u;
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