April ‘23 random character thoughts

Hi. It’s April 23rd. Almost the end of the day for me but whatever. It’s fine. 

I’ll go into why I’m saying that in a bit. First I have to clarify that this isn’t a skit post. This is just another post where I list random thoughts about my characters and skits in no particular order. Haha.. yes, that again. 

And so, let’s begin. Yippee… *sneezes* I keep sneezing today. I hate allergies. Grr— 

I can’t find any relevant old post with the date, so I’m not completely sure if it is the correct date. I think it is though. Whatever. 

Huh? What? 

It’s this: I planned on making Stella’s birthday be April 23rd. 

It’s April 23rd. I think this is the first time that I remembered her birthday on the actual date— and made a post on that day. This is a first, I feel like. 

I’ve also been thinking about my skits pre-2020 (or any skit story arcs that ended in 2019.. I think? years are confusing; too much is happening). What I mean is when I wrote my characters in my skits as aging in our modern age (current times, you know? that). For so long, I wrote my skits where Stella (called her Twinkle back then, of course) was my age. Anyway, if I continued all that, Stella would be 23 now. That’s crazy to think about. 

It’s less than a month till my birthday. I’m turning 23. I hate this. I’m getting old, and I feel like a fake adult since I missed lots of typical adult (and teenage too ngl) milestones. Ugh, I hate the passage of time. Boo. 

Ahahahahahaaaaa— Enough of that, onto something else. 

I start planning the next part of the skit story (Confessions right now) very soon after I publish the skit part (started planning part 2 right after finishing part 1, same goes for part 3 right after finishing part 2.. you get it). 

I need there to be a few hours break between the end of Confessions 2 and (the majority of) Confessions 3. It’s been a few weeks since I started planning it, and one of the first ideas for the break was to have a character (Fierdan or Stella) take a shower. Anyway, I think it’s funny because on the day I wrote and posted Confessions 2, it was so hot out and I really needed to take a shower by the time I finished writing the skit. 

I didn’t mean for Fierdan’s last sentences in the skit to have me projecting, but it came off that way. I planned on having there be a shower break for days before I posted the skit, but alas.. idk, a coincidence? Is it? No idea. I just thought it was funny. 

I don’t think anyone cares. Oh well. I’m just writing into the void. I’m writing all of these for myself at this point. It’s fine, this is fine. Aaaaaaaaaa— 

About what I said before, since I start planning the next skit part very soon after finishing one, my brain plays it like this: Those “coming soon” clips on what to expect in the next episode of a TV show. It’s like that but with my Confessions skits (and my March 2023 skits). I find it entertaining at first, but it replays in my head a lot and gets repetitive quickly. I swear, my brain plays my skits as TV episodes. Yeah ok, whatever, heck. 

I should clarify that I don’t plan every single character line in the skits beforehand. I plan some of them, but others just happen spontaneously as I’m writing the skit. I think I said this before. I kinda feel deja-vu right now. Uh.. anyway! Moving on now. 

I have so many thoughts I want to dump out in my Confessions skits. It’s a lot. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to include everything I planned on including in Confessions 3 into that skit part. I might have to put some of it into a part 4. I don’t know how many Confessions skits there will be in total. More than three. I know that much. 

Confessions 3 especially is gonna be a lot. So much happens. Personally, Confessions 1 and 2 are pretty boring. Not much actually happens. But Confessions 3? Shit goes down, things are talked about, characters confess things to each other. Like.. you have no idea. 

I’m a little scared of messing things up, so I’m kinda hesitant on posting it. Because.. Because.. I can’t even say except it’s a lot. 

Before I forget, let me say this: Compared to my first draft ideas of the events that happen in what I called “Twinkle’s Story” (aka story 1), the ages I have for Stella (Twinkle) and Duke are 18. I mean, it wouldn’t be that bad for them to be 17 either, but having them not be minors puts my mind at ease a little. Lessens my anxiety. So.. uh.. yeah. They’re young adults. Ok.. ok. 

Dawn is also an adult. Of course. Just putting it out there. I just can’t see the three of them as children (because teens are children). I just can’t. That’s just.. nope, no, can’t and won’t do it. 

Ok !! :-} 

Confessions 3 will of course have strong language since all my characters swear a lot (especially Fierdan as always, ugh). It’ll also feature characters talking about ~love~, including romantic stuff and uh.. well.. mentions of sexual content. A little different than my recent skits and for a longer amount of the skit length, but nothing explicit or too detailed, I promise. Just.. I have to let my characters talk about certain things. It’s part of the whole confessions thing. It’s relevant.

I need to dump out my thoughts about my characters in an entertaining way where the characters themselves dump out the thoughts. 

I need to, okay? I’m normal (/lies). 

This is definitely not related at all to what will happen in Confessions 3 (/lies): I’m currently reading the book Loveless. The book about that girl discovering she’s aroace. That one. Yeah. It’s totally not affecting things. 

But seriously though. I’ve been viewing and planning on Stella discovering she’s not straight for a few years now. It’s been in my mind archives for a while. Yeah so uh.. Stella isn’t cishet. But it’s also.. different? Like, well, compared to some other characters. It’s hard to explain without spoiling anything. I’m projecting onto her but also not really. We have different experiences and feelings. But there are some similarities. I’ll say that. 

Oh and Dawn isn’t straight either. Straight people don’t do what she does. ~is intentionally vague~ 

I still have straight characters, haha. But lots of them are queer. Well, at least the ones I think about the most. 

I’ve also been thinking about Dylan a lot lately. He’s in Confessions 3. I platonically love him so much. He calls that shit out. Hhhhhhhh just thank him. We need him. Ok, I’m normal, totally normal aaaaaaaaa—

Psst, guys, idk if you know this but Fierdan is an asshole. He’s problematic. He has flaws. But omg is he an asshole! He’s not a good person. Don’t forget!!

The way he’s been acting in recent skits.. I know it’s messy and makes me cringe at times, but it’s on purpose. I swear I’m doing this shit on purpose. 

Also, like, I know parts of the conversations with the three in recent skits (Fierdan, Dawn, Stella) are very awkward and don’t make much sense. I know, it’s supposed to be weird. That shit isn’t normal. They’re all weird. I know! 

I like thinking about Dylan calling them out. It’s funny in a strange way to me. 

I also enjoy thinking about the drama and hatred between Dylan and Fierdan. They’re not compatible, haha, they’re like opposites. 

Oh and I like thinking about Dylan and Jack and then Dylan and Stella hanging out together, talking about stuff. Fierdan is intentionally excluded. Dylan and Jack, Dylan and Stella.. hhhhh yes! No, I don’t ship them. It’s more like a friendship thing. Maybe not just that. Heh, heh.. that’s spoiler territory. 

Pretty much every character besides Fierdan, Dawn, Stella, and sometimes Jack lack common sense, I swear. I need my other characters, such as Dylan, to knock it into them. Like jfc, why do they act so weird! Be normal, dammit! *smh*

An example from the last skit lmao: 

Fierdan: *suddenly becomes an asshole to Stella and Dawn*

Stella: How dare you say that to Dawn!! *somehow slaps Fierdan across the face while he’s pissed off and doesn’t want to be touched* 

Fierdan: *gets even more angry out of nowhere, like 0 to 100*

Stella: No, I’m not going to fight you. (I know he’s just having one of his moments/episodes.) *after she slapped him* 

Fierdan: *passes out or something like that, idk* 

Stella: *does stuff and makes it seem like Fierdan is skinny and weighs nothing, idk* 

Fierdan: *becomes calm again as quickly as he got pissed off* 

… lmao what. hello ?? 

Weird. They’re weird! And that’s just from Confessions 2. God!! 

Dylan addresses this in Confessions 3. hehehheeee

I have so much pressure about that skit part. Why did I put this pressure on myself? What the heck. Is anyone even reading my posts? I don’t know!!

Dang, I’m so tired right now. I’m gonna sleep right after I finish this post. It’s not even midnight yet, but I don’t care. I want to sleep. Ok, ok! 

… ok. 

Happy birthday, Stella, my blue-orange haired ice-fire legend! Happy birthday, Stella! <3 

//I’m not normal either.//

Confessions, confessions… 

~ Shan/Shyrah (names, whatever, it’s me.)