ok so aj something

Ok so. Hi again. 

Blog updates: I got rid of the poll because I don't want it up anymore. I added my dA to the contact me box that probably no one uses/finds useful. 

I'm tired. It's 1 am. 

At 10 something or 11, I went on AJ again. I didn't take any pictures this time around. 

I went off AJ at a quarter to 1. It's 1:00 right now as I'm typing this sentence. 

I've just been so curious about the yellow penguin ducks. So I went on AJ again. And I found a few videos about them. 

... I spent a while laughing about the whole thing. (like.. bruh.. i'm.. i can't.. LOL) 

Thank god not all of the yellow penguin ducks are misogynists and/or anti-BLM like a few I saw while I was on earlier. 

So I was like, "alright ok, I'll hear what they have to say" and then I ended up being on AJ for at least another hour. (lmao) 

Apparently, the penguin ducks (they call themselves ducks, idk) are that color because it's pee yellow or piss yellow or something like that. 

The "no pants" has something to do with nonmembers on club penguin having no pants..? Yeah, I don't get it either. 

About club penguin, I have a friend who played it a few months ago. yeah ikr that's wild lol. 

Oh and apparently, AJ's chat system is awful nowadays. Like.. it's gotten worse. A lot worse. I hate it. 

I tried saying "." and "yeet" and "quack" and it wouldn't let me say those things. None of them show up red in the chat bar. So I.. I just don't get it. 

Dang, why is restrictive chat so restrictive? That sucks, man. :( :/

Anyway, I basically heard the penguin ducks protesting ("raiding") about AJ membership and they want to shut down AJ if membership doesn't get abolished. 

I just thought it was so funny, I'm sorry. 

I wanted to have a civilized and educational discussion, but I can't say pretty much anything in the game nowadays. Which sucks lmao AJ what are you doing? 

Umm.. companies/businesses (eh whatever, same thing). They need money. They'll always want more money. Uh.. something something marketing something something economics. 

Kids can be evil pieces of trash. I know from experience lol. But like come on. Don't blame AJ for having a membership feature as being the reason why kids cyberbully others. Kids just gotta learn to respect others and be kind. 

Geez ok idk why I'm posting this. I don't care that much about AJ at all. But like. Here I am. Posting this. 

Capitalism and businesses as a whole are flawed. But like.. like.. T-posing on AJ? What is that gonna really accomplish? I mean you do you, fellas, you do your own thing. 

AJ has been going a lot more downhill lately. I gotta say that. It's been a lot more boring.

Literally boring. Like besides the penguin ducks, I haven't seen anyone say anything interesting on AJ in the past few times I've been on recently.

There are less parties being advertised in people's dens. There are less Adventures being asked for people to join. There is very little to zero roleplaying. There even is less trading. Well, from what I've seen on AJ lately. 

idk it makes me kinda sad tbh.. 

The next posts are gonna be totally different topics than this, that's for sure. 

Haha ok. Bye. 

welp that's aj ??

Ok so I went on AJ around an hour ago. 

Today's Jamaaliday Gift is......

Jamaaliday Racing Jacket 

Then.. uh.. well.. 

........... lol wtf 

Yellow penguins are being banned?

I crossed out their usernames in this picture but not the others? I don't know why either. Anyway, all these penguins are frozen in that position. 

Uh, what is going on? (bb gun)

what the heck hack

*hits enter to say it in game*

"Your message was blocked because it may not be appropriate." ... those drama masks behind the chat bubble though. 

what is this lmao aj wtf 

I've been logged into AJ for around an hour and I've got to say... 

What the heck. 

A few minutes ago, I felt like bothering the yellow penguin ducks by only saying questions in the bubble chat. 

Me: What? Why? What? Why? What? Why? What? Why?

Someone: blahblahblahblah something something cutepups522

Me: *goes to another tab, goes back to my AJ one, sees "cutepups522" in the chat history, thinks* oh shit they said my name lmao 

This is so ridiculous omg. 

Now I see them chanting a bad song and complaining about having no pants. 

Before I saw a few saying misogynistic and racist phrases. Eww.

???????? 

I guess these are weird chats. 

I.. I don't understand. 

I also saw a few of them talk about capitalism, communism, Vietnam, and North Korea. 

Oh and shutting down AJ.

(ok sure jan)

welp, that's aj. 

huh. 

i'm so bored lol

I didn't come up with an idea for a post today, but I wanted to post something. Because it's 12/20. Sounds nice. 

(yeah whatever idk lol heck)

There were these small cats on my house deck thing. I was all like, "ahh aww cute!! :0" and one of them climbed all the steps and walked closer to the glass door thing. 

A cat friend has arrived!! 

Hell yeah. 

Anyway since I'm bored and lowkey sad, I hit up AJ. 

... ... ... 

Today's Jamaaliday Gift is another Masterpiece Token? Are you for real, AJ? Seriously? I come online for this? This?! AJ!! 

I wanted to observe any weird chats happening in Sarepia Forest, but no one is there. No one is roleplaying. Even in Aldan. 

... lol fuck.

Everything is boring. Everyone is boring. I get it. Life sucks and we're all unhappy. Life fucking sucks! I get it, I get it, I get it! 

See? This is so boring! I want to read some interesting chats, dang it! >:U 

Screw it, I'm just gonna watch something on Netflix. 

it's the 19th!

Hi, it's December 19th! 

Do you know what that means? 

It means I took my last final exam the day before, and I came home earlier today! I got to see my pets again! :D 

Oh yeah. My family too. 

I guess I survived my first college semester. It's over now. I'm done. 

Hello, winter break. It's a longer break than in previous years. :)

......................

It's also the birthdays of my tragic disaster fire boys. I made December 19th be Duke and Fierdan's birthdays. And would you look at that? That's today's date. 

Happy birthday, my fire boys. My impulsive tragic disasters. My puppets of melancholy. My pretty problematic (and gorgeous) characters whom I love so much. 

They've grown. Look at them go. My lovely boys. :') 

I'm not including a skit in this post. But I have an idea for one that takes place a few days ago. 

From today on in the skits, Duke would be 19 years old and Fierdan would be 21 years old. 

(tbh, i've been thinking of changing dawn and fierdan's ages in the skits. but hey, i'm lazy and that's complicated.) 

.... gotta go. see ya.

Songs and My Characters :)

Viewers: Oh. It's you again. 

Me: Hi. 

I'm in the mood to post YouTube videos of songs and relate them to my characters. 

But this time I want to pick songs (that I don't think I posted before) that I can vaguely imagine my characters singing. 

So I'm going to put in some videos and discuss which one of my characters I imagine singing them. For some it's more than one character. I'm putting in a little background situation thing too. 

I have many thoughts about my characters. I think about them way too much for my own good.

Will I ever stop? I don't know if that's possible.

Oh yeah. I have one more final to take tomorrow. Then I'm free!~

Viewers: What is this?

Me: Oh shoot, wrong post idea I had since *checks calendar* five months ago. This is a bird. Bird boi. French bird boi. Yes.

(I keep on forgetting to post my beautiful pictures from my trip to France. Sorry for the extremely long wait!) 

Anyway, onto the songs! 

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Infinity x Infinity~ Dead by April

I imagine Duke and Twinkle singing this together. Even though Dawn, Fierdan, and Ryen can relate to some of the lyrics, I can't really imagine them singing it. 

I can just see Duke and Twinkle feeling connected by the fact that their parents suck and were behaving terribly toward them for years.. and their deep hatred for Admiral (whose name I will change eventually). So I see them singing this song and thinking of those people in their lives who did them wrong. 

Read my recent posts to understand the reasons why for Duke. As for Twinkle, she was severely bullied in school (one of her bullies was Admiral) and her parents treated her unfairly compared to her sister (and were borderline emotionally abusive to her). 

Wow, these lines though (hmm..): "At night I'm thinking of sweet revenge / I feel the anger, anger / I'm redefining the meaning of evil / Inside I'm bleeding, bleeding from all the beatings, beatings / Let them pay, Let them pay for the things that they've done, Let them suffer- infinity times infinity"

Just.. yes. But only Duke can relate to the 'bleedings' and 'beatings' line. The other ones can relate to both of them. And now I'm thinking of Duke and Twinkle emotionally singing the "Let them pay" parts together, and I love it. 

-x-x-x- 

Nothing Worth Saving~ Dangerkids

For my characters singing this, I imagine it being Duke and Fierdan (feat. Twinkle). I imagine Duke and Fierdan singing the majority of the song, and Twinkle singing a part of it (close to the end?).

I'm thinking about the flaws they see in themselves, their 'scars' (physical or not), what they think about themselves (the negative aspects), how they're 'broken', and how they do have that line of thinking that they're "not worth saving" which is basically the song. 

-x-x-x- 

World Away~ Tonight Alive 

I imagine Twinkle singing this. Just her, by herself.

I'm thinking about Twinkle's recovery where she learns she doesn't have to be ashamed for her emotions and she gains some actual self-esteem without needing other people in order to (*cough* Duke.. or even Dawn). 

This line <3: "I know I will survive this, I'll be the strongest person I know" that's beautiful and powerful and I love it. 

-x-x-x- 

Empty~ PVRIS 

I imagine Twinkle singing this. Only her again. 

But this time, it's a whole different mood. It's full of despair and it's sung like a list of confessions. 

It makes my heart ache. </3 

Because like.. Twinkle doesn't enjoy life and being alive. She feels empty (especially starting in the 60s arc and into the 70s arc that's out so far). She used to think that Duke saved her (that they saved each other), but later on they realize they're still as, possibly more, broken as they were from the start. They said they loved each other, but was it real love? Then she gets frustrated that she didn't really change much at all, and she believes that people like Duke and her parents are trying to force her to change who she is. 

-x-x-x- 

Caught In The Storm~ Our Last Night 

As for my characters singing, I imagine it being Duke (feat. Finny). Duke singing most of it; Finny singing only a part of the song. 

They're singing about how they were friends and how they miss each other. They're nostalgic, really. 

Duke thinks Finny never changed, that he's still a good friend. And yeah, he does have a special place in his heart for Finny (like he did help push Duke out of his suffering.. well, kind of). 

It's sweet. 

-x-x-x- 

Tongue Tied~ Our Last Night 

I imagine Finny singing this. Though he thinks about Duke when he sings this, Duke doesn't sing it with him. 

I'm thinking of Finny when he's 'working' under Taurel. One word out of line, and he gets punished. When Finny spoke up against Taurel and Risak's plans, basically saying "it's wrong, you've gone too far" and they've basically manipulated him into thinking Duke isn't his friend.. oh and then Risak either hits Finny or throws him against a wall (maybe both? I forgot). 

Finny also is speaking for Duke in some of the lyrics. Finny has to watch what he says, or they'll go against him like they've gone against Duke. They're trying to make Finny feel guilt, and the same goes for Duke but obviously with more threats and violence.

-x-x-x- 

Hard Feelings~ Palisades 

I imagine Duke and Fierdan singing this together. 

They have feelings, that's for sure. Some of which that are very bitter about each other.

Ooh, there's some tension! 

But it's also the feelings about things they have the same views on. 

Yeah sure. 

-x-x-x- 

Feel free to tell me your thoughts or whatever you want.

(Spambots, that doesn't mean you.)

Just.. feel free. 

felt like drawing it

Friday really did kill me. I died.

Then Saturday evening rolled around. I went to the movie theater with two friends. We saw that Into the Spider Verse movie. Dang, that's some great animation right there.

So now I'm not as dead. Ha, ha.. 

Tomorrow's Monday. Eww. 

Then comes 4 am today. I'm in bed and my cursed brain comes up with a skit idea. 

And I was like, "No." 

If you think the last Duke skit was sad and disturbing, then this 4 am skit idea is way worse. 

I am not going down that road. Stop it, 4 am thoughts. 

That's too much for me. That idea is too painful. No. Just no. 

Then after that, I had the urge to draw.. to draw it. 

(No, not that.) 

wip is wip. rough sketch is rough sketch. quick doodle is quick doodle. 

How does one draw cute/sad/happy-looking little kids? How does one draw women? 

Well, I for one don't know. 

(It's 4 or 5 year old Duke and Calliah.)

Oh, them.. :'( 

[EDIT: Huh. I don't like how I draw Fierdan looking more like a woman than Calliah who actually is a woman. She's supposed to look somewhat feminine. *smh*] 

Ugh. Why do I lowkey want to write that sudden skit idea I got at 4 in the morning? It's so painful. I have to stop thinking of making Duke go through so much pain. It hurts me.

Me? Posting again? I must be stopped. I need to be stopped. Stop me now. 

Don't worry. I'm not going to post the skit idea. Well, for now anyways. 

I'm going back to studying bio. I honestly haven't studied that much. That's probably a bad idea. I have terrible time management skills. How is it already 7:20? 

Haha yeah, I should study more. 

Ok. Bye.

stupid texting skit

Forgot to post this other skit I wrote a few days ago. Here, have more trash from yours truly (aka me). 

I'm calling it, "stupid texting skit" lmao. 

While the Duke and Fierdan disaster was happening... 

[The dialogue is through text, not speech.] 

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[The time is 10 at night. Brock grabs his phone and creates a text group chat with Finny, Sparkle, Twinkle, and Dawn. Every line of dialogue here is a text message.]

Brock: Hi

Brock: Finals SUCK 

Finny: You made a group chat just to say that? 

Brock: Gosh, I am sorry. I miss you guys. 

Finny: You're right

Brock: Huh? 

Finny: It's late, I've been studying all day. I could use a break. 

Brock: Oh ok. Cool 

Sparkle: You think you're stressed? I have to work on my final project.

Finny: What's your project on?

Sparkle: It's a fashion project. I go to fashion school. Did I ever tell you that?

Twinkle: Let me think. No. 

Brock: So, Sparkle, you aren't taking any actual classes

Sparkle: I am taking classes! I bet fashion school is a lot harder than whatever classes you're taking! 

Brock: Do you even have exams? 

Sparkle: Yes! I had to take exams throughout the semester, but my final is this huge project!

Dawn: Good luck with it! 

Sparkle: Thank you, Dawn! :D 

Finny: It's only the first semester, and I had to do so many presentations for my business class. I have to dress up for them too which is ridiculous since it's a 9 am class. 

Twinkle: Ah geez, that's awful. 

Finny: ikr 

Sparkle: My goal for my clothes line is to make it lesbian friendly 

Dawn: What 

Dawn: What does that even mean?

Brock: Omg Sparkle you can't just say that

Sparkle: What? 

Twinkle: Pretend I'm giving you the Look. Except I actually am. 

Dawn: The Look?

Twinkle: yes 

Sparkle: No need to be rude

Twinkle: I'm not being rude. There's just no reason to say "lesbian friendly" like wtf do you even mean by that? 

Dawn: Yeah, adding on from what Twinkle said,

Dawn: Are you trying to say you're designing and creating flannels? Rainbow apparel? Gender neutral clothes? Femme? Also what about butch? Or do you, or should you, refer to the entire LGBTQIA community? Or at least those wanting to present and dress feminine? 

Sparkle: I'm trying to be inclusive :/

Dawn: Ok then make sure you are 

Twinkle: Girls, you gotta chill. Fashion is fashion. Does it even matter? I'll just wear whatever the fuck I want. 

Finny: Umm....

Brock: I'm laughing over here 

Finny: ...... k 

[Some time later.]

Brock: Does anyone else think it's weird that we haven't heard anything from Duke or Fierdan in like a month? 

Sparkle: Yeah, we can finally live in peace! 

Twinkle: idk what's going on 

Dawn: It's suspicious 

Sparkle: That's because they were both acting strange in that group chat we were all in. 

Finny: Hmm...

Finny: I tried texting Duke's phone several times, but the texts wouldn't send. 

Brock: Yes! My phone says there's something wrong with the "connection" lol wtf 

Finny: I get that message too!

Twinkle: Ok I'll admit it. So did I. The same thing happened with me. 

Finny: What about Sparkle and Dawn? 

Sparkle: They should've sent me some dumb thing by now

Finny: Fierdan sends you dumb things?

Sparkle: Lol no, I was thinking about Duke

Brock: Fierdan sending Sparkle cryptid memes XD 

Twinkle: ok that is funny 

Finny: Dawn? 

Dawn: Oh right, same as what everyone else said. I'm getting worried about them tbh 

Brock: Same :( 

Finny: Wait a sec

Finny: Does anyone have Fierdan's number? 

Dawn: I do. Got that same "no connection" or "message failed to send" on my phone. 

Finny: Oh 

Twinkle: It's so weird. What is going on with them?

[A shorter time later this time.] 

Finny: wtf is wrong with me lmao 

Dawn: what is it?

Finny: I suddenly remembered that one time 

Finny: Sorry, I'm laughing so much 

Twinkle: Are you ok, Finn?

Finny: Yes I just 

Brock: lol what's so funny 

Finny: ok ok so like 

Sparkle: Just tell us already! 

Finny: Remember that time Duke took a bath at like 3 in the afternoon? and how he. How he made fire come out of the faucet? 

Sparkle: Ugh yeah >:/ he burned the bathroom door 

Brock: oh yeah lmao 

Sparkle: It's not funny! 

Finny: Anyway so like 

Finny: I was mad at Duke so I 

Twinkle: Omg just type what you wanted to say 

Finny: Sorry I type slowly 

Dawn: it's ok, Finny 

Finny: I told Duke "fuck you" a few times 

Finny: and he was like "I only have a towel on ;)" 

Finny: That conversation is hilarious to me now like wtf Duke 

Sparkle: Duke's mind is dirty and cursed, what else is new? 

Twinkle: Nothing is new 

Twinkle: Except that Brock is right. Finals suck!

Brock: Fuck yeah! Got that right! 

Twinkle: uh? yeah 

Finny: And that's not the end of it. I was clearly frustrated at Duke when I was saying "fuck you" to him. But how does he respond? Basically like "ok Ok Finny, my dude, my boy. my friend. You keep on saying 'fuck you' to me, and I'm naked right now. so I get your message. if you get what I mean" idfk then he winks ;) ? "fuck you? then do it" lmao wtf is with this guy 

Sparkle: Are you trying to kill me? 

Finny: No, I just think that time was hilarious. Stupid too.

Sparkle: This whole chat is stupid.

Twinkle: True, true. 

[... idk]

Brock: I agree with Dawn. I'm actually worried about Duke. 

Brock: Don't laugh 

Sparkle: lol 

Brock: ...

Sparkle: oops 

Brock: That time we met over fall break, and then during the group chat on our laptops

Brock: I just

Finny: No, I understand. 

Brock: Duke clearly isn't doing okay. Fall break- he pretended to be high 

Sparkle: Exactly! Who does that? :/

Finny: He only did that because he couldn't stand himself.. not being high? or drunk? tbh idk 

Brock: Isn't that disturbing? Sad? 

Dawn: That he feels more comfortable under the influence of drugs? Hell yeah 

Brock: And then how he enters the group chat late. 

Twinkle: Duke was making all of us uncomfortable. But you're right. I am concerned. 

Brock: He wasn't pretending to be high then. He really was. Right?

Dawn: Yes, Brock. 

Finny: Don't forget how Fierdan was behaving. He was acting strange too 

Twinkle: The Duke-Soulless-Fierdan thing still confuses me. 

Sparkle: for real 

Twinkle: yeah ?

Sparkle: I don't get it either lol

Twinkle: oh ok 

Brock: I don't even want to know what Duke was doing or where he was right before entering our group chat. Being high, wearing lingerie, the chance he was in an adults-only place... I don't want to know what shit he got into 

Twinkle: None of us do. 

Brock: I think by "dance" he didn't really mean that. 

Finny: He wanted to off himself.

Brock: oh right, that too.

Finny: then what are you talking about? 

Brock: I was thinking that he was referring to something.. something uh.. sexual when he said that. And what the hell was he wearing? 

Sparkle: Thanks a lot, Brock. Now stfu 

Finny: That whole thing was wild. 

Finny: But yeah, to me it feels like he's punishing himself now more than ever. People did terrible things to him. Uh..

Dawn: Yeah 

Finny: idk where I was going with this 

Dawn: that's ok 

[... huh]

Sparkle: Can we stop thinking about them? For once? 

Brock: Ok

Finny: Sure 

Sparkle: Ok. We're all stressed college kids, and life is shit for all of us right now. But hey, it's almost winter break. The holidays! New year's! Oh yeah! 

Twinkle: I can't wait for finals to be over. I'm sick of living this dorm life. 

Sparkle: ikr! 

Finny: can't wait, then I can finally relax. but for now, I'm stressed out of my mind D: 

Dawn: You guys know I'm not in college yet? 

Twinkle: Oh shit, that's right! 

Dawn: I sent out all my college apps at the beginning of the month

Sparkle: Good luck :) 

Dawn: haha thanks 

Brock: Is college even worth it though? It's just lectures and a dozen 3+ page essays due in 4 months 

Twinkle: I'm not the only one who had to write that many papers? Thank you, Brock! We're not alone! 

Finny: I don't think I had to write that many essays, but I definitely wrote a lot more these past three or four months than I had to write in high school in the same amount of time. 

Brock: Yeah, college is a lot of work! :( 

Dawn: D': 

Dawn: Good luck! I believe in you! 

Sparkle: Thanks again! 

Twinkle: Thanks :')

Finny: Thanks!

Brock: thank u 

[The End.]

Probably a more "normal" skit than the other ones. 

There you go. Yay. 

gtg bye