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Hi it is I.

Ummmm...........

I was gonna post about how no one was insulting Duke and my past-writings. But then I got a comment on the post.

Yes, thank you so much. ily

I finally got new earbuds. Finally at long last I can listen to music and stuff with buds for my ears. Ear buds. Oh yes.

Anyway, I'm annoyed. So I go and try to type up a post on my computer, right? Yeah mhmm. But then it wouldn't let me upload any images to my posts. Ok it was annoying.

I was watching some pretty funny AJ YouTube videos because I have no life idk. But like. They were good quality content.

I don't even play AJ that much lol. But I still actively view AJ videos and blogs. Because I'm me.

That AJ studio artist who makes YouTube videos. Her name is Artymis AJ or something like that. Now her art videos are some very good quality content. Very good. Go watch the speedpaints. Just go. I love watching the speedpaints.

Omg ok. So guys, lol, I have a Google Plus and YouTube account I created at the same time I created my Blogger account. I don't post or use both of those accounts in any way though. So I just checked them. And, um, I changed the name back to my real name. Because people irl used to tease me about me having it named "Blue Cutepups" instead of *insert my real life name here*. Well, here's the thing. Under this Google Plus and YouTube account, I subscribed to a bunch of AJ bloggers who were also YouTubers. So it might be so obvious that some people might as well possibly know my real name (first name at least).

Hint: My name starts with the letter, S. My name has the word, no, in it. Maybe that's why I love saying "no" so much. But I don't like rejection though. Haha, personal info alert. Run.

(baby) don't hurt me. no more.

I actually have more serious news. But I gotta go now.

*finger guns as walks out of room*

wip

Steven Universe season 3 fan-art. Wip means work in progress. 

I'm so un-creative I drew this scene. From that episode.

"It's Over, Isn't It?" 

 Look at my crappy tux Pearl sketch. 

I don't know why or how, but the week that episode came out. I started singing the song. And it reminded me of family drama I was in somehow. So I was all like "heck yes must draw Pearl :0". 

My thoughts.. ew gross.

And so this happened.

Yay.

.............

I love this episode. 

Yeah ok bye. 

look at this buffoon

Hi, hi, hello! I have returned back home to my trashcan room. I was in the middle of leaving the hotel room when I was typing that previous post. I made this typo that said "I'm the Olympics". So yes. I am now the Olympics. I have no mobile data for now and had no wifi for a few hours, so I had to stare helplessly at the freaking typo. 

So anyway, I like making myself suffer. Ah yes. So last night I decided to read my mcfreaking Twinkle's Story from chapter 34 to chapter 51. 

It.. was.. wow. Reading all that made me cringe. But then again. My writing skills have gone worse since back then. Like, they're bad. Really bad. 

I might lowkey want to write more chapters. But at the same time, ew no. So then I felt like drawing several Dukes and Fierdans. Then I read chapter 46 and was like "ah heck yes my son". 

So I basically drew a horrible drawing of Duke being his violent, emo, conflicted self. I drew it so badly omg it's my best drawing of him ever. Like yeah I totally redrew the same Duke scene thing from several months ago. But that drawing was way better. Then I vented too much, and wow, that drawing is a destroyed mess now. 

It's his red pants, I swear. I can't draw fire wings for my life. Omg wait.. this was the chapter where Duke became a lowkey vampire. We get it, Duke, you like blood. Omg ok. 

And then he almost killed someone. Wow, look at this character. 

*incoherent screaming and crying* 

Let's all insult and make fun of Duke together. Here, I'll start. (mm yes) 

> What is wrong with you, you arsehole?! Wtf man! <

Ok. But like. Yes. 

Here look at this wonderful drawing of crap. It's him in Chapter 46. It's when he's like.. um. 

"Ah heck to the yes, I love punching my paw hand through shattered glass. I love blood. Mm, my blood tastes like good. But look how swag my black wings are. I can kill people. Wow, wow.. please get these away from me. My pants look like blood. ????" (Duke)

Yeah, just. Look at this buffoon. 

I swear if I get comments saying stuff like "omg your art is so cute and amazing".. stop it. Just stop. This is a crap drawing of Duke. 

Much talent shiz frick. Ah yes indeed. 

Look how I drew that heart flame. It's so good. Lol jk it like looks like crap. 

I don't know what to do. I want to write more chapters now. But I don't have time for that. And I don't like drawing much. 

Anyway, bye. Sorry for my sins this mcfreaking story has. So much sin. 

Ok not really. But still. It's gross ew no.

Maybe I'll draw more crappy Dukes and Fierdans. I don't know for sure. 

I am so inconsistent. Some days I'm like "I'm definitely gonna continue this story", and other days I'm like "This story is over now completely; it's a thing of the past". 

*incoherent screaming and crying*

And this is Chapter 46 if anyone is wondering. (lmao Duke's POV is what I read way too many times; I just skip the other POVs) http://thejamaamist.blogspot.com/2015/08/twinkles-story-chapter-46.html

I used to always start the chapters by writing in bright colors and italics. I don't even know why I made it so colorful. Wtf me! 

Let's insult my past writing together. 

Insult past-me please. Please do. I do it every minute of every day. (now that's dedication!) 

Oh, that reminds me. I was reading my drama and sad posts from last December. And omg wow. Look at all that cringe. So much cringe; I hate myself. 

I'm trying to be more chill. I know I'm obviously failing. But I'm trying. 

Eh whatever. 

See you guys later. 

Yeah bye lol. 

blogging idea..?

Hi. I can't stay here blogging much longer. Which means this will be a short post.

The hotel I'm at is pretty cool. The doors are cool, ok lol.

Anyway, I'm thinking of adding a new page to the blog. Which isn't a cringeworthy page either. It'll be more of a help/support page. I've been thinking of adding the page for a while now. And I decided I'm going to. But I'll do that when I'm back home later today.

The Olympics is the only sporting event thing I'm excited about watching. In two different towns close to where I live, there are two people who are in the Olympics.

Gotta go now. See you. <3

Cat Pic Edits + Pastels

Hello and welcome back to this trashy blog!

So I was bored and decided to edit some photos of my cats, Zo and Thelma.

Thelma's eyes have no pupils while Zo's pupils are always dilated lol.

But yeah, using the photo editing tools is kinda fun.

I'll upload the pictures at the end of this post.

But anyway, I'll be away this weekend. I'm not sure if I'll be posting or not. Not like I have any posting plans at all.. pfft no.

Um.. what else? Well, pastel sky pictures calm me down and make me feel better. They're just gorgeous.

I'm annoyed that I can't draw skies like that though. Oh, what a shame.

Oh, that's right. I have a pastel sky picture I can upload here. Not like I own it or anything.. nope, not a thing.

I also recently got cotton candy ice cream that's pastel blue and pink. And it looks so pretty with the swirls and those candy bits.

Light blue + pink (especially pastel colors) = ♡ { <3 }

Mint green and light purple are other pastel colors I adore too.

My family doesn't really like how I chose the pink and blue cotton candy ice cream though. Heh.

Ok, guess that's it.

Until next post, everyone.

~☆~

Outside Noises (audio links)

Hi it is I. Ah yes, Cutepups is back at it posting at midnight. Oh yay.

So a few posts back, I mentioned how I was hearing these noises when I was walking Sunshine (she's my pup dog) at night. And I'm pretty sure the noises are basically a combination of crickets and birds. The sounds are coming from high above, I mean.

So to make sure I'm not losing my mind or something, I decided to record these noises using my phone's voice recorder app. No, I didn't speak in these audio link clips I'm going to post later in this post. However, my footsteps can be heard.. (what, I was walking outside at night ok).

There was also this loud "aaaahhh" (like "aah" as in "at") sound mixed in with the other noises, but my stupid phone didn't catch that sound.

I'm really pretty sure it's just crickets and birds. But the sounds combined just sound pretty creepy to me. Yeah and walking outside in the dark with my dog. Paranoid thoughts are irrelevant probably, but do they go away? Nope.

Ok guys, I swear the sounds in these audio clips I'm about to link to aren't footsteps or some obvious thing like that. The sounds were coming from above, probably from the trees nearby.

But I do hear my awkward footsteps for a second or two in the audio clips.

Ok what the heck. Go have a listen. If you're fine with doing that, I mean.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(shrug guy is best guy, me and him identify very well, maybe we're meant to be)

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http://vocaroo.com/i/s0nt5MLc913K

http://vocaroo.com/i/s176H4d4HCly

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I might just be overreacting again like I always do. Oops.

Anyway, on a totally different note now. I remembered that around this time last year I made a funny irl (kinda?) skit. And I would randomly laugh at random times just thinking about it. I made myself laugh.. wow lol what a nerd freak I am.

But like I miss those days when I could actually be a funny and somewhat entertaining blogger buddy ol' pal. Nowadays, I don't really know how to be that funny anymore. I'm like a sad blogger now. Oh no, what a terrible fate.

I don't know. Have any funny posting ideas I could do? Comment them below. I want to give myself a good laugh again like back in the good old days which were like a year or two ago. But nothing's funny in life. For me at least.

I like staring at my blog. Ok.. ok yeah I don't really have a life.

Sad being in this cruel world. ✌️

lol why me

Hello, I'm back.... with no capital letters in the post title!

I, this terrible blog's pathetic author known as Cutepups, am here to ramble about things at midnight. (cutepups rambling at midnight is owned by cutepups who is neither cute or a puppy)

Anyway.. let's start! ;D

*dies a little inside*

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Last year I noticed I called my personal life themed posts "Cutepups Life Crud: ____________". Now all my posts are basically about my personal life because I love oversharing information to strangers only to get anxious thoughts about it later.

I've been tired ever since I woke up yesterday morning. Tired 24/7 ftw.

My back-to-school day is on a later date than it usually is. Yay, I have more time to myself to waste my life away. Oh and to work on my summer assignments (*cough* *swear* *cough*).

I don't know why I feel sad. I just do. Sorry I'm a mess.. ha, ha.

I feel like I'm lying/not being honest with myself when I post. But I am. I think? I'm trying to be open and truthful. Can't trust myself either it seems.

What is identity? I don't know mine all that well. I keep on losing interest in things only to gain them back and lose them again. I take that myers-briggs personality test thing and sometimes I get isfj and sometimes I get infp. Like, they're different letter combinations. Do I even have a personality? I don't even know. Labels can get to be hella confusing. I'm getting apathetic. I'm also a pathetic person. Whelp.

I hate myself. A lot. And nothing's gonna change that. (did autocorrect seriously just switch the word "change" with "vaccionage"? wow smh)

I'm making this post depressing, aren't I?

What's there to look forward to? For myself? Something happy? I forgot again oops.

I think it's pretty funny how during a single car ride I can get flooded with writing and drawing ideas and more productivity jazz, and then get all hopeless and dead inside again.

Puberty sucks. Ok. It. Sucks.

I never seem to take care of my hair good enough. Like, ok, hair is annoying. It's always against me. Some people compliment my hair, but I'm like, "??? nah my hair.. gross eww". I never seem to comb good enough. I like hiding behind my hair, but at the same time I think of just having short(er) hair. Because, y'know, that means less poofiness and combing and hair shiz. Ugh, hair is a hassle. Frick.

Yeah idk man.

Moodswings suck. They suck. Hell.

My dreams last night weren't that violent. But they still were interesting and intense. I forgot what happened in them for the most part though. So whatever.

I sometimes feel like drawing Animal Jam animals in the Animal Jam style. But at the same time, no.

At least that Steven Universe show is active nowadays. Guess that's something good.

I cringe thinking about my past self at every given moment. *eye twitches, tears fall out of other eye*

I'm scared of a lot of things. One being life. Haha.. unfunny joke.

I'm very tired now, so....