humor is a coping mechanism

Hey. I went on AJ. :)

Omg look how cute this baby phantom is! 

This goat looks so smug.

Woo! Another diamond!

What kind of item is this lmao?

Here is Dustypaw, the pet hyena. He is an anxious boy.

Look at this item lol.

Oh deer god Precious why! 

The Mysterious Cloak is a Fierdan clothing item. 

Here are two llama friends. The red one is a shy boy who has feelings for the white llama boy. Yes, they definitely are in love. 

These animals are taking a selfie. It's pretty obvious.

I was energetic when I was on AJ because I ate chocolate. Now I'm not as energetic. Humor is a coping mechanism. Feelings, what are those? How about I just laugh at random things online instead? Humor is great. This post sounded funnier in my head.

Oh and I feel so accomplished. I didn't even research it. Apparently, what I wrote in the story is accurate information. 

In Chapter 59, Ardere was recalling how Duke cried a single tear out of his left eye in Chapter 56. I just looked up what crying out of your left eye first means. According to Google, crying out of your left eye first means pain. 

He was in pain during that scene. I didn't really explain it. But he was. I used the correct eye. That makes me so happy. 

Nice lol.

I'll make another post after this. 

anyway

Hi. Thanks again for the recent comments. <3

Haha, look at me. Telling the truth about my personal life. Wow huh look at that.

Why am I so paranoid (sorry in advance if I'm using the wrong word) about it? It's like, um, I think that you don't believe me.

Uh.. stupid brain.

Honestly, the funeral in 2014 was more sad for me. This one was sad too of course. But not as sad. Probably due to close family reasons. But, you know, whatever. Everyone dies; death is inevitable.

Well, now that's over with.

Ever have thoughts out of nowhere, and then you're like, "gosh okay you're being edgy edgelord today, brain"?

Yeah mmhm that would be me.

Uh, what else?

If I know you and you're a blogger, there's a chance I had at least one dream with you in it.

You, of course, were better than me because I'm inadequate lol.

My dreams are kinda realistic. Sometimes they're disturbing, yeah, but not all the time.

I could have easily died from the one I just had this morning. But I didn't. Ooh, what a thrill.

To summarize it, here's a summary. :)

I went to Dairy Queen on this cruise ship (there wasn't a DQ on the cruise ship I was on though so what the heck). I wanted to get this blizzard called "Valentine Vint" whatever that means. They didn't have this blizzard, which frustrated me. Then someone found out the DQ people working there were doing serious illegal business. I think it had something to do with important online documents. Then when they were going to be arrested, they revealed to everyone in the shop and the security people that they were nazis. Then the DQ people held us hostage. Then one of them took out a big gun and started shooting everywhere. I somehow ran away and escaped all that without dying. Then on the weird elevator ride up (the elevator turned what the heck), I met someone who screamed, "OCD!" and then I left.

What a dream lol.

On that drawing I just posted, I kept on changing the way I drew the eyes because I was so indecisive.

I have some ideas for Chapter 60. Heh, heh, heh.

Gotta go now. I'll try and post again later.

Sad Hearts

Hello. 

Can't believe it. Going to the funeral soon.

Sad now.

I have to make this very quick. 

I drew this in a class the other day because we weren't doing anything.

I call it "Sad Hearts" because why not. Look at how gloomy it is. 

Shall be missed.

Bye for now. <3 

creepy and unsettling

Hello. I'll be discussing personal irl news again.

Ok so here's the thing. There are a few coincidences that are going on. I find all of this pretty creepy.

It's a sign. Bad sign.

So remember how last post I talked about my teacher that also had a relative at the hospital? Well, my class found out our teacher's relative died.

Geez. Creepily similar to what happened to my relative. Happened on the same day or a day apart. At hospitals. Died.

Whelp, this is unsettling. But that's not all.

Valentine's Day is gonna bring us bad memories from now on. *insert a sarcastic yay* :/

I was thinking about the two brothers (Danny and *insert name here*) in my Twinkle's Story series a lot recently. And how they're in different worlds.

This also relates because of brothers. Now both my parents have dead brothers. Two worlds are kinda like being alive or being dead. Well, I think it's a slight resemblance.

I may or may not be freaking out about this.

Can't believe we won't be able to hear his voice again.

I'm wearing the sweatshirt, the last Christmas gift I got from him. It's so soft.

Oh god here come the feels.

Honestly, I don't feel that sad. I'm just so confused and a little empty.

7 stages of grief. In that denial stage.

About my family, my grandma (from the other side of the family) is going to India.

Wow lol nice.

So yeah. That's family news from Cutepups.

Love you all, friends. <3

I'll be okay. ^-^'

~ Cutepups

unfortunate

It's Valentine's Day. The holiday of love.

Or chocolate. That was the only good thing today.

There was this couple holding a giant teddy bear at school. Just casually holding it. Walking to class. Um wow ok.

Then there are people at school with their balloons, candies and chocolate, toys, teddy bears, love.

Heh. I'm a loner. No heart here. No romance in here. Not enough empathy here either. I'm a wreck lol.

So I was impatient and annoyed at school.

Happiness is gone now. But hey. I'm sad for a reason this time.

We're all sad and thinking about death over here where Cutepups is. Woo yay nice kill me school sucks.

I probably won't make a Valentine's Day skit until next week. It's hard being caught up in the stress of...:

1. Tests and quizzes
2. College and The Future
3. Picking classes for next year
4. The SAT
5. Living past the age of 18
6. Being a human being
7. My uncle suddenly dying yesterday
8. Funeral stuff
9. Life is crap
10. Existing

Lol yeah : ) ha ha aaaaaa

You guys deserve a well quality trashy skit of swag. I can't do that right now.

I'm an inconvenience who doesn't care enough or have enough empathy. Life is misery, kiddos.

Anyway.

That post yesterday? Yeah man, it was about.. someone died. Who died? He died.

Dang it. Hospitals. Geez man idk what even happened. I wasn't there. My mom sure loves going into details. Haha ok mom.

*hugs tho*

I'm typing this and it reminds me of when in 2014 I posted about someone else in my family's death. I won't make this as dramatic and sad though.

But yeah. Sudden death. Celebrating birthdays a little over a week ago.

Gonna be away on Thursday. Probably.

Oh shoot wait. Want to know something crazy?

Yesterday, one of my teachers told my class that his relative was sick at the hospital and she could die. Hours after I came home from school, my dad told me that our relative was in the hospital and that he died there.

Relatable or what? Creepy, huh? Better make a conspiracy theory about this.

Life sucks lol.

Reminder

Hey.

I know there may be conflicts between you and your family right now.

I know you disagree on a bunch of things.

I know you might even say you "hate" each other.

But remember that at the end of the day, another day has passed.

If you haven't spoken to a (loving, kind) family member in a while, then do it.

Call them, visit them, do anything.

If you love someone, tell them.

If you don't, then you could regret it.

You could regret it if you are too late.

Because at the end of the day, another 24 hours have gone.

Change can happen very quickly.

A lot can change in less than a week.

They might be fine then, but a lot can change in so little time.

A lot can happen, and now they're not fine.

See them, tell them, be with them.

Before it's too late.

Before it's goodbye.

Before you can't do that again.

Before they're dead.

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Personal. Writing piece.

lol ha ha /

Hello. I'm back here. Posting. 

Today, school wasn't that bad. Yeah, that was good. It's still school though. Meh. 

Anyway, my point is this. (um.. heh) 

I was going to post this Valentine's Day skit with the Twinkle's Story characters (+ Brock and Cashier Girl No Lady), but now I'm not sure if I'll actually do that today.

My family and I got some bad news today. We didn't know. Today. 

Well, that's life crap saying "lol no" to me. 

Freaking hell man. 

I was in a good mood these past few days. I was actually happy. I liked life. 

Now say bye to that. 

Personal crap. 

Damn it. Life gotta do its crap. 

Can't be genuinely happy and positive for a week. 

:/ 

.......

However, I found a bright side. I was looking at my spring 2015 posts, and I found this gem. 

I'm going to state it exactly. 

(lol oh god this makes me cry) 

" Fierdan's REAL Tips on How To Be Swag:

1. PUT THOSE SHADES ONNNN

2. Kill everybody who does not approve.

3. PUT THOSE SHADES ONNNN

4. Be swag.

The end. " 

I should go back to my old posts full of swag to cheer me up more often. 

That, guys, was my swag phase. 

I love Fierdan. My angsty OC son. 

Thinking about Dawn's parents is painful. I have two very different ideas in mind. I'm not sure which one to use. I might combine them. 

Gosh, it hurts. 

Well, why not. Guess I'll say it now. (please see this lol)

I appreciate you guys. Those comments on Chapter 59 made me smile. Thank you. 

<3 <3 <3 

~ Cutepups ~