Calliah / C. music playlist

I know this might be an unpopular move, but I did it. Screw it. Lots of songs fit them that I want to organize into a music playlist.

Ahem, hello there. I have returned to post about another new Spotify playlist I made. The characters for this playlist are Calliah and C.

Or should I call it the moms playlist? Eh, eh? ;D

Viewers: *stare at this post with blank expressions*
Me: Ok, ok fine.

*doesn't know how to continue the post- time to insert the link to the playlist*

Calliah / C. music playlist

^^ Yes.

It's called "Books of C." because.. I have my reasons.

....... oh, now you want to know more?

................... fine, fine.

Calliah is Duke's mom. C. is Fierdan's (and Ryen's and Dawn's) mom. "Book" refers to a single character. If the playlist is only for C. (not Calliah), then it would be called "Book of C." but since Calliah is also involved, it's "Books" instead.

Z. is the father of Ryen and Fierdan. Not Dawn- she has a different father.

Anyway, C. and Z. have both written very long, in-depth books. C. wrote a book called "Book of C." and Z. wrote a book called "Book of Z."— each book being something like an autobiography or memoir of certain important events in their lives.

For Z, a large portion of his book is centered around an ambitious goal he has, which he risks anything to achieve (*cough* human lives *cough*). C's book is more complicated. Both parents are extremely complicated characters, but I think C is way harder to understand than Z.

I will say this though: C is a magical human being. She has powers beyond human comprehension. She's somewhat like a goddess.

...... which is ironic because Z likes to believe he's a god, yet he doesn't have any magical/supernatural powers. He never understood what C is capable of.

.............. but they both die. They aren't immortal. We all know how Z dies (Fierdan violently kills him), but how did C die? Oh, you want to know? Huh, huh? Will I tell?

....................... ok fine.

Z ordered for her death. Since Z is pretty much an (unofficial?) leader. Z didn't directly kill her though; he only wanted her dead and planned her death (*laughs awkwardly* ha ha,,).

Anyway...............

The relationships are toxic. Bad relationships. Duke's mom and dad had a toxic relationship. C and Z had a toxic relationship. Lots of fighting, lots of alcohol... heck, they even cause their partner to die.

Don't have a relationship like theirs, folks. Just don't.

To be honest, I have a backstory for Calliah, but I'm hesitant on sharing it. Because.. reasons.

Cursed. Outcast. Different.

She's had it rough.

By the way, the longest Calliah has gone without drinking alcohol is while she's "working with" Taurel and Risak. Back at home, she would drink a lot.

Possible alcoholism in the family? Hmm.. perhaps.

~ Oh, it's Monday. Heck! ~

I want to end this post with pictures, so have these. Yes, enjoy, bye.

C. 

Just kidding, that's it. Bye.

(Un)Loved and (Un)Forgiven

Hi again. I have attempted to do art.

Well, I tried fixing an old art piece.

Will I ever finish a drawing and be satisfied with it? Hmm.. nah. This one still looks like a rough sketch.

So on with it I shall go!

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Loved and Forgiven 
Loved and Forgiven 

No. Never.

Unloved and Unforgiven 

(“Do you love me?” “No.”)

A son lacking a mother’s love. A mother who can not love her son.

Unlovable! Unlovable! Unlovable! 

The words hit like daggers. Blades tearing the child’s heart to shreds.

Unloved! Unloved! Unloved! 

Yet he remains standing.

Years later:

(“Will you forgive me?” “Never.”)

He was put in hell. Multiple times by multiple people. His mother was the first person to put him in hell.

Abuse. Trauma. Pain. Suffering.

LiesLiesLiesLiesLiesLies

If she thinks he will forgive her for everything —all the torment— she put him in, she is sadly mistaken.

He is UNLOVED.
She is UNFORGIVEN.

That is the story of mother and son. Unloved son; unforgiven mother.

[visible in the drawing]

Young Duke, 4 or 5 years old: Do you love me? 

Calliah: No. 

[not visible but is important]

Calliah, near the end of story 1: Will you forgive me? 

Duke: No, I’ll never forgive you. 

The parallels of cursed son and mother being rejected. 

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Ah, the mother-son relationship of Calliah and Duke. 

I missed thinking about them. I missed writing about them.

I definitely have a complicated relationship with myself when it comes to appreciating both of these characters. 

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Lovely Angel Girls

Hi. Here’s another Picrew post.

I can’t find the link to the avatar maker for this one. I looked far for it, but alas, I couldn’t find it.

*sighs* I will have to make do.

I only designed Dawn and Fauna. Because this avatar maker fits them. Not really my other characters.

They’re like angels. Those two. They’re lovely.

I love them.

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Dawn 

I think the brown wings suit her. And what’s with the bloody sword/dagger she’s holding? Ah, it’s a mystery. Maybe Fierdan is involved. Oh hmm. Hmm mmmm....... 

-x-x- 

Fauna 

An angel. I like how I designed her. Beautiful girl. Other worldly. 

I also tried to make the backgrounds fit their characters. 

Yeah, I like it. :) 

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There’s nothing else to say. 

There’s nothing left. 

I’m trying. 

Please believe me when I say I tried. 

beep boop me

hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi

no more dream explanations. shan can’t keep up. so many intense dreams. shan is tired.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

beep boop

me. 

aro rights!! 

it’s me. with a birb. yes.

Picrew link: https://picrew.me/image_maker/273652

yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

good/bye

List of my Recent Dreams

Well then. There sure is anxiety and chaos in the world right now. A lot happened. 

Yesterday was St. Patrick’s Day. The only things that made it feel like it were that I wore a blue-green shirt and had corn beef and cabbage for dinner. But other than that? Not really. 

The parades in the cities and pretty much everywhere else were canceled. All restaurants and bars are closed. 

Ah. Covid-19. This freaking virus... :( 

I also went back to my college campus yesterday. I went up to my dorm and took more things home with me. 

I still have some things in my dorm. I have to get them soon. 

I only have online classes for the rest of the semester. Everyone in my university (well, those who live on campus) have to move out and vacate their rooms (dorms or suites) soon. 

Dang, things escalated quickly. 

I already miss my college friends. I’m going to miss my senior college friends. Not being able to say a proper, in-person goodbye to them... It’s sad; it’s a little heartbreaking. :’( 

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But on a sillier note, I’m going to list my recent dreams. I’m only going to be vague/general in this post, but I’ll try to remember to make a post where I go into more detail. 

These dreams were so ridiculous. XD 

Enjoy!~ 

(These aren’t in any order of occurrence.)

1. The part in my dream that featured a 3-step tutorial on how to turn a pencil into a paper clip. Yeah, so that happened.

2. The dream where an anime character (a teenage girl) became a real person and lived in my house. She was very intimidating. 

3. The dream where I went to a movie theater to see live-action Mulan. In this dream, the movie was terrible. No dragon (I think Mushu is his name..?) and the movie ended before Mulan started to dress up as a man to join the army... and basically the whole plot of the movie never happened. It upset me. 

4. The dream that was about having tickets to a Lorde concert. I think I saw Lorde in concert two times in this dream. The weirdest part had to be how the concerts were in a college lecture hall. Oh and in this dream, Lorde also told everyone to silence their phones or else she would collect everyone’s phones until the concert ended. She collected a lot of phones, including my mom’s. Singer/Teacher Lorde. What a strange concept. 

The mind can conjure such wonderful things! XD 

I just had to share all of this with you guys. :’D 

And I’m very tired. I hope you’re all taking care of yourselves and staying safe. 

*sends platonic virtual hugs* 

Until the next post... Bye. 

hi pi + purring cat

Hi, I have returned. I’ve been home for the past few days. Hope you’re all doing well. And okay. And safe. Uh yes.

It’s still March 14th in my time zone.

3/14. 3.14

Pi Day. Yes.

*is nerdy* lol

..... *spends 10+ minutes looking through my Blogger pictures looking for a picture that I can't find*

Anyway. Guess what happened the other day?

I found my (other) cat purring! He rarely ever purrs! He’s usually a grumpy boy. He is capable of purring! Ahh, how wonderful!! :D

(I doubt these will show up as videos, but at least they will show up as pictures. At least that’s what I expect.)

If these actually show up as videos, I’ll be so happy. He’s purring.. quietly, I guess. I knew he was purring; Thelma wasn’t close by. 

Just in case the videos really work, I recommend raising the volume on the device you’re viewing this post on or wearing earbuds/headphones in order to hear him purring. 

Mr. Zo’s purrs. Aww, my heart! <3 ;w; 

!!!!!!!!!!

He’s a good boy. :’) 

........... ok-

I’m going to check one more time for that old Blogger picture I want to randomly insert into this post. 

-_-_-_-_-_- 

AJ pi day pie graphic! :3 

Haha yes. Classic. 

Take care. Stay safe. 

I have more posts in mind. 

Bye for now. ^-^

peace, i’m out, yeet

Hi!!

I have another Picrew.

yeah yeah yeah !!!

I only designed Twinkle with it. Why? Because I felt like it.

Picrew picky crew pick rue Picrew

https://picrew.me/image_maker/196270

^^^

Twinkle is like “peace out” lol yeah same 

Her hair colors look saturated to me, but I still like it. It looks more like how I picture her hair. 

And yes. My mood is also “peace, i’m out” lol.. because.......

My spring break “officially” starts at the end of this week. 

but but but !!!

Classes are canceled this week, too! 

why why why ???

Corona. Virus. Coronavirus. Covid-19. 

That thing. You know?? 

So I’m hoping to leave campus tomorrow. And I’m like “peace, i’m out, yeet” like the title of this post says. 

(Someone on my campus might have gotten the virus, so they’re in isolation and there’s gonna be tests to see if they have it. A few other students close to that student also went into isolation. Because of this, classes are canceled.)

So yeah. That happened. 

Got the news late last night. 

I would be in class at this time, but I guess not. No class. Ayy.

I spent the past few days reading and studying a lot for my classes. 

And for what? No in-person classes! 

Online work? idk! idk what’s going on, what’s going to happen! 

well, that’s it. 

peace, i’m out, yeet!