So… it’s December. The winter/summer solstice happened. It’s officially winter now. Wow.
It’s been yet another hot minute since I stepped in here. Made a post. So, uh, I’ll say “hi” to the void. Hi, void. Hello, world.
I’ve gone through lots of changes lately. It’s almost 2023. That’s crazy. I have a part-time job, and I’ll be starting a Real Job (that’s also remote which I like) pretty soon. It might be the closest thing I ever had to a “dream job” I have to admit.
I feel like we’ve all grown up. I never really counted myself as part of that, but yeah, I really have grown up. I’m starting, slowly but surely, to feel more like an actual adult. Barely, but now it’s way more than 1%.
I’ve also been working on my Etsy shop. I put up two new listings a few hours ago. So… that’s something.
I think it’s crazy that I keep remembering December 19th as being Duke’s/Fierdan’s birthdays. I swear, it’s become a date I just randomly remember, like how I remember the birthdays of the friends I lost or my former classmates that I haven’t been in contact with for years. Anyway, December 19th was a few days ago. It wasn’t a good day for me, if I’m being honest. Not all bad but… well, I had lots of frustrations and inconveniences that day. December 20th was much better. And today (December 21st) was just “meh”.
About Fierdan, I remember I kept saying that I see him as a 22 year old but that he’s also always gonna be a few years older than me. And now it’s 2022 which means I’m 22, and… this all sounds so crazy. In my head, of course; this is probably irrelevant to anyone else. But recently, I started visualizing Fierdan as being my peer, my same age or very close to it, and… it doesn’t feel weird or creepy anymore. It just… is.
Know what’s also crazy? I haven’t been obsessing over him or my other characters for a while now. As in a long time. I’m a bit afraid that I’ll forget them and everything I created involving them. It’s a pretty scary thought. Like, what if all of this is a phase and it’s ending soon? Yeah, uh, sorry about that. I’m not making sense, am I?
What else, what else? … It’s Hanukkah. I sometimes daydream about Ryen saying “Happy Hanukkah” which feels absurd yet comforting to me. Don’t ask why; I don’t know.
*rapidly changes topics again* Oh and I’m autistic. It’s a totally unsurprising confirmation of a surprise if I say so myself. Can’t understand that last sentence? Exactly. That’s the point.
I’m not sure if I ever actually said it on the blog since I got my diagnosis, so there it is, out in the open. I feel like it probably explains a lot of my behavior and my obsessions in my blog posts over the years. Like, geez, no neurotypical blogger would blog like this (*gestures vaguely at my whole blog lmao*).
Also, confession time: I lost the number of times that I felt scared of checking anything having to do with this blog. Another unsurprising surprise. I can’t believe I felt so much shame, embarrassment, and fear over this very small corner of the internet that I created for myself. And for what? Why did I let this happen and not do anything about it for so long?
To anyone who commented anywhere on this blog in 2021 and 2022 and never received any acknowledgment from me… I’m sorry. I kept running and hiding away from here. I refused to see you. But now I do. I see you.
… I have no idea what I’m even writing tbh; just go with it.
This has to be both and equally the best and worst thing I’ve ever created. What exactly? All of this. Everything.
Hey, I'm here just to say I finally added the links to my Etsy shop and the social media accounts I created for it (trying to do some promoting lol ahh-) to my Contact Me page.
Now they're all on one place on this here blog. Yay! :)
And of course, here is the link to the page: https://shyrahwritingspace.blogspot.com/p/contact-me.html
Ok so yeah. There it is.
I'll end this post with some pictures from my shop to make it more interesting or whatever. I'm selling these items. Yes, yes. :D
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** All products listed here belong to me (Shan, Shyrah, @spiritixswart). **
Well, here is the poem I referred to in the last post. It’s a hopeful poem about creativity. Hope you enjoy it. Something positive~ <3
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Lights in the Dark
Ideas emerge like random sparks of light
in the abyss of my creative soul.
The void— the emptiness, the darkness stretching for what seemed like infinity— felt like home to me;
that it was all I would and ever be.
Yet brief flashes of light have recently returned,
shining brightly in the dark.
Inspiration, motivation, creativity— I thought these lights burned out long ago,
never to flicker on again.
And somehow, the lights are turning on again.
Brief flashes at first, random sparks in the dark,
slowly gaining confidence and glowing brightly for longer as the days pass by.
I don’t know for certain, but I think it is possible
for my heart to feel less heavy,
and for my soul to light again.
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Alrighty! That’s my new poem. :D
~ Shan/Shyrah
Dang. It’s already October 20-something. Huh.
Well, I’ve been busy. Preoccupied with other things, anyhow. Been working on my Etsy shop. Created new items, came up with new ideas, packed and shipped my first few orders (to family members), etc. I also started a new in-person job this month. Started working there at the beginning of the month, so it’s been a few weeks now. I’m not as anxious about work as I used to be, though the anxiety hasn’t fully gone away and I doubt it ever will. It just be like that. So yeah. Life stuff. Trying to earn money. Takes a while. So, that’s what’s up in my life lately.
Hmm, what else…
Oh, right. I plan on adding the links to my Etsy shop and the Instagram account I made for it to the Contact Me page. I forgot to update it sooner. I’ll get to it.
(I’ve been more active on my personal Instagram account this year. I don’t feel like sharing it publicly since it’s my personal, real-life account. All that stuff. But if we’ve been online friends for several years at this point, then I don’t really care if we become friends/mutuals/followers on there too. I’m fine with that. It’s chill.)
What else, what else…
Well, my family and I went on a short weekend vacation earlier this month. The second weekend in October. I have lots of cool and spooky pictures I could share. Lots and lots of pumpkins. The pumpkin carvers are very talented.
About pumpkins, I’m currently in the process of making my own pumpkin clay pins. Yeah. I learned how to make clay pins. I got the materials for them. So far, I finished making clay pins of ghosts and skulls. I think they’re a little cute and spooky. They’re decent for my first time doing this thing.
About creativity, I recently wrote a poem about it. It might be a shock to read, but it’s true— I have lots of art ideas. I have things I want to draw. I want to try to design my first zine. Like, I’m pretty excited about everything. I’m inspired and motivated to work on art. I’m not used to feeling like this. This is new.
I’ll make a post with the new poem later. Not now. Later. Some time in the distant future. Ok, ok.
*hesitates on whether to write about something else* hmm, hmm, hhhhhhh mmmmmm
……. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ok, I just have to say. Since early this month, I’ve been having quite a number (several in fact) of dreams that have Fierdan in them. Yes, him, he’s back in my dreams. And of course, they’re not all pleasant. I’ve also had a few dreams with Duke, Ryen, Jack, and Dylan in them this month. It’s October, and the boys are back.
(Ok but really. It can’t be that surprising that Fierdan is on my mind again. Come on now.)
I don’t remember the details in the majority of these dreams, as unfortunate as that may be. (Some of the dreams were disturbing, so maybe that’s fortunate. idk lmao)
:-) he—
Well, I’m getting sleepy but probably won’t sleep for another hour or so. Good night. Good timezone to us all.
~ Shan / Shyrah / the fool in the cat’s pajamas (it’s really me!)
Hi, I'm back. I haven't been checking here as much since my last post. I've been busy with other things, such as...
... making my Etsy shop public and making my first few shop listings.
(I did it! Yay! :D)
Here is the link: https://www.etsy.com/shop/SpiritixswArt
Please check it out. I am Knowable. I am Known. I Exist. Please look. Thanks so much.
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Well, I have to leave now. But first, here is the picture I made for my shop profile. I think my handwriting looks decent. I made it using my Copic markers and a Sharpie.
~ Shan/Shyrah
<3 <3 <3
Hi, I’m back with another post. I won’t be talking about my pets this time, I’m too tired to come up with a better name for this post, so it’s this. Eh, it’s fine. Whatever.
Anyway. 2 things I want to say:
1. I had a job interview this afternoon. It went well. So, uh, I might have a new job. It’s part-time and only a few days a week. But it’s fine. It’s something. Finally good news. I’m happy about that. Happy about finally having a new job. Yay. :)
2. The stickers and pins I plan on selling online arrived yesterday. I got to see them. I really like them. It’s so cool seeing my art and photography on stickers and pins. Makes them seem more physical and real. (Psst, you can get physical forms of them. They no longer only exist online. heh heh heh 😏)
I just have to finish setting up my Etsy shop. I might also put some stuff up on my Redbubble. Maybe. I don’t know yet.
I bought lots of things for my Etsy shop. Products for packaging/shipping and products for helping me make other items. Gotta try stuff out. I’ve been hyperfixating on small-sized DIY projects for a few months now, decided I want to try some DIYs with my own stuff (art, photography, writing) and try to earn money off them, so here I am now. My fingers are crossed that all of this is worth it.
It would be so cool if fans of my blog wanted to buy items from me. That sounds pretty epic. (No need to if you don’t want to buy anything from me or can’t; I totally understand; I’m just dumping my thoughts out here lol … I hope I can do international shipping, hmm…)
I have several button pin designs of photography I took while in France in 2018. I really like some of these photos and feel like sharing them with the world. Hehe, pretty pictures :3
…… idk what to really say lol
I also designed stickers saying my favorite story quote. I don’t know why I like it so much. But sometimes I think it’s stupid. Eh, I like it for the most part. I just find it so deep and meaningful. But also simple. It’s one of the few things from my 14 year old self that doesn’t make me cringe.
The quote: “There’s a part in all of us that wants to be free”
I made stickers with that quote now. I think my 14 year old self would be freaking out over this. Haha.. yeah. It’s making me feel an emotion or a mix of emotions that I can’t remember the name(s) of.
I also have other designs on stickers and pins. I’ll probably show pictures and link my shop in my Contact Me page once it’s officially launched. (Then I’ll be Known TM. I’m a Real Life person. omg no way 😳 asdfghjkl)
I’m very excited about all of this. Makes life seem a little more worth it. It’s helping me not drown in my depression. I’m grateful for that. :’)
Clarification: I ordered my stickers on Sticker App. I bought custom vinyl stickers. I ordered my button pins on Sticker Mule. They’re round button pins.
(Since idk how to make my own stickers and pins.. yet.)
Excited excited excited aaaaaaaaaa—
Ok bye for now. ✌️
~ Shan/Shyrah
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To those that remember my pets, I used to talk about having another cat. Well, here's the thing (I think you can guess what)...
My family and I call our other cat any of these names: Zoe, Zo, or Mr. Zo. He entered our lives in 2008, so by 2022 he became a very old cat. We never found out his age; we could only guess. He was already an adult cat when he came into our lives (I say that because he was the one who found us; he was found in the garage one day and we kept him ever since). To keep things less messy, I'm going to refer to him as Zoe for the rest of the post. Despite the name, Zoe's male.
... *takes a deep breath* ... Zoe died in January this year. On January 21, 2022 to be exact. Unlike with Sunshine (my family's old dog) who died while I was in college, I was home when Zoe died. I vividly remember the day and the few days leading up to his death. To this day, I sometimes have my mind reliving the day he died. It was a very rough day for multiple reasons. I might go into more details on why in another post. Maybe, I'm not sure.
Additionally, shortly before Zoe passed away, my brother told us (the rest of my family) that Yoda (his pet chameleon) died. I liked seeing Yoda; she was so cool.
Basically, January really sucked. It was a sad month full of pet deaths. :'(
It was also a bad month for other reasons. Let's just say that some days were very cold (single digits Fahrenheit), and the heating system (not the water heater since that was fixed a little earlier) was broken in my house. It was very cold living in the house back then. I don't miss January lmao
Whatever, I'll explain some of it now. Ok so. The day Zoe died was especially cold. I remember having to keep myself wrapped in my heated blanket and having difficulty moving my hands and fingers since they felt frozen. I was very cold. I also kept Zoe wrapped in blankets and sometimes put the heated blanket on him on the days he was very sick and on his deathbed (he died on one of the couches). This wasn't the only very cold day though; I just remember this particularly day very well.
On that day, some men came over our house to replace our old furnace (or whatever was broken) with a new one. Anyway, my dad was a little busy taking care of all that stuff. My mom and sister were out of the house that morning for important reasons. *breathes in, breathes out* When Zoe died on the couch, I was alone with him. I was the the only one by his side.
... I watched him die. One moment I was holding him and he was alive (his dirty paws were becoming really cold, which is one of the first signs of a cat's death; he sometimes let out a soft cry unlike anything he ever said before). Being able to pet him and properly hold him were warnings in themselves since he was known for being touch repulsed (he hated being touched in any way despite how much time he spent time around us up close). Anyway, a little later, I petted him and gently held him again, but this time he let out a different cry than the ones he made for the last few days. This one sounded especially painful and made me begin to feel heartbroken since he was crying out his last cry of pain. The next time I picked him up, his body was limp. A short while later, he died. (I think he went into a coma right before dying; I could still feel his heart beating immediately after finding out his body went limp.)
This happened in the morning. We planned on taking him to the vet to get euthanized later that day, but he didn't make it that long. My sister and I took him to the vet the day before, and he told us that our cat would likely die the next day. Zoe was in a very bad state by that time. Unlike with Sunshine, Zoe became noticeably sick and on his deathbed in the span of a few days (2 or 3 days).
Despite how rude and obnoxious Zoe was, I really miss him. I cried when he died. I loved him. I think I loved him the most; saw him the least as a burden. He enjoyed spending time on one of the couches (he never noticed the other new couch lmao) and watching TV with us. In the weeks leading up to his death, I have a feeling he spent even more time than usual on the couch with us. I really miss seeing him on the couch during the day and at night. I miss him. </3
This room was also the room that Lilly spent the most time in since we didn't like her going into other rooms without someone supervising her. This resulted in Lilly and Zoe spending lots of time together. Lilly enjoyed bothering him, even trying to hump him quite a few times (😂😭), but I think they became close friends. At this point, Thelma was terrified of Lilly and never hung out with her.
To end this post, I'll insert pictures of Zoe and Lilly cuddling and sleeping next to each other on the couch in December and January. I love these pictures of them. <3
*the couch has a cover on it; sometimes Lilly puts her toys on the couch lol
Thanks for reading.
~ Shan / Shyrah 💖
Hi, I’m just popping in here for a very short post.
So, changes I have made to the blog have been successfully implemented. I’m happy about that. Yay for success! :)
I changed the blog URL. That one should be noticeable already lol, just saying. I’m satisfied with it now. Feels more.. me and less like I’m deceiving people without really meaning to. Yeah, about that…
Uh anyway. I also got an ads website thing for publishers (bloggers in my case) to work on my blog.
This one! Here! It worked! Woo!
In other words, I got ads to show up on the blog. And they’re not obnoxious, in-your-face kind of ads either. I think that makes my whole ~viewing my blog~ experience less.. obtrusive? intrusive? in the way? eh.. you get what I mean. I think. idk lol, I’m not a mind reader.
I have more ideas for posts now. Hope they’ll be interesting. I’ve been busy thinking about lots of things. heheheheheheheh yeh
Be back soon, see ya~
Yeah. I don’t know. I’m trying.
Trying to figure this stuff out. Trying to not be too pessimistic.
I’m not as optimistic as I was earlier about this whole ~putting ads on my blogs~ thing. I’m a pessimistic person. I doubt it’ll actually work. I’m tired.
Man, this whole process is complicated. I feel like I have some ~violations~ or ~restrictions~ because.. uh.. *gestures to my blog*. And like. Some things about this whole thing confuse me. It says to insert a code, I did that, yadayadayada. Other people talking about the same thing (AdSense) say to not manually insert the code yourself if you’re applying through the Earnings tab on Blogger. I don’t know. I’m dumb and confused.
I edited the HTML code for this blog when doing that, and it ended up messing up the mobile format of the blog. I don’t know how to change it back. It won’t let me or something. Same thing happened with my other blog. I really don’t like this. It got rid of the background colors and the different colored text, so now it’s just a plain white background and black text in a boring font. Well, at least it didn’t ruin how the blogs look on the website/computer version. *sighs*
I found another website where ads can potentially be put on blogs. I think I’ll finish that whole signing up process after I change the blog link and all that jazz. I have a lot of work ahead of me.
Blogging work, I mean. I still don’t have an Official Job TM. I might have gotten a referral from my cousin who works at a job for a company I might want to work for (same career field and all that). So, hopefully good news..? idk, I’m pretty much a pessimist. It’s hard for me to feel optimistic about anything.
I’m also trying to find my blogging personality again. I know it can’t be the same as before, but.. idk. I’ve been struggling with identity and personality stuff for a while. For different reasons unlike my 15 and 16 year old self this time around. A lot has happened. But also, not much has happened. I don’t know what to think.
I also came back here because my mind wouldn’t let me leave permanently. Thoughts of blogging again kept plaguing my mind for months. I even had a few dreams about blogging and about my story and characters while on that long break. And so, I’m back. Yay.
Oh and… I also left for so long because I lost one of my online friends, and that person kinda reminds me of this blog and still does to some extent. So.. blogging feels weird somehow. Friendships end and the memories that keep replaying in my head f— messed me up. A lot.
Well, it’s been over a year since then. I’d like to think I’m doing much better now than back then in the early days. But alas, I do not know. How about I just insert a shrug emoji and move on? Ok? Ok.
What even are my plans for this blog? Posting some pictures here, possibly making a photography blog, writing some updates about all the life crap that happened in the past 10 months or so (I lost count and I’m bad at counting), attempting to write poetry and skits again..? I guess.
Is this good enough? Am I worthy enough? Am I worth anything? Is any of this worth it? I don’t know.
I just wish I could be me. I wish I could be myself unapologetically. I’m tired of constantly having to hide and suppress myself. I want to be loved and cared for unconditionally. I’m tired of not being listened to and understood by the people in my life who should be the closest to me. I just want to be accepted and feel like I belong in my [family; life].
Lots of crap happened this year. So much. Too much.
It’s been a long day. Thursday was better.
You all can still call me Shan btw lol
Shyrah is just something a little more personal and meaningful to me.
Better posts coming soon. Hopefully. Maybe. Probably.
Hey~
So I'm still getting used to how Blogger works these days after not checking it for months. I've been checking and doing little, mostly behind the scenes, things on my blogs and Blogger account. I've also been a little busy doing things irl. I have to get back into the groove of checking and reading comments and replying in a timely fashion. I know. I'll work on it.
*takes a deep breath* ok-
I'll be testing some things out later in this post, but for now, I want to talk about other things.
So, first of all, a lot has happened since December. I'm not in college now. I've been searching for jobs (preferably a job related to my degree / what I've been studying in college). Job searching is hard, especially for more "official" work jobs. I applied for a lot of jobs. I got some employers who were interested and a few who I did interviews with, but I got rejected / didn't get the job for all of them so far. So that sucks. Obviously.
Anyway, I'm trying to earn money. Obviously. Blogging is somewhat related to the field(s) I want to get into for my career. Then I remembered that ads is an option to put on Blogger blogs. Another reason I came back and plan on making all these changes on this blog (such as the name change *cough, cough*) and my story blog is because I thought about starting that AdSense thing that lets ads come on a Blogger blog (and other things; idk that doesn't matter to me lol). I considered it a couple of times a while ago but didn't want to do that.
Well, that was back then. I finally gave in the other day. I made an AdSense account, connected to the site, and put the ads settings for my blogs. I have no idea if I'll be approved, so I'm wondering if updating my blog name and URL will increase the chances..? idk. I'm really hoping I can make some extra money by blogging. If so, that'll be great.
I know ads are annoying, but like.. I need money. I'm like so old now, you guys. 22 and looking for a new job. hhhhhh so old /says half-jokingly. But yeah. Can't believe I'm 22 now. It's the start of the -ber months in 2022. That's crazy.
I'm not in the mood to check to see if I'm making any sense. idc, this is my cursed blog!! 😤
I'm trying to make it less cursed. I'm trying here, ok,,,,,,
Oh yeah. I'm also considering starting a new blog. I'm thinking of creating a photography blog. Like, just photography stuff. I have lots of photos that I got compliments over. Lots from the months I was away from here, and lots from way before then that I never shared here before. I have many, many pictures. I'm not sure if creating a new blog and putting AdSense on it will increase my chances of getting ads and viewers clicking on them, resulting in me eventually getting money. If I do that, I'll make another page toward the top of this page linking to that new blog. So basically the same thing I did with my story blog. And both blogs (story blog and potential photography blog) can be found as links on my Blogger profile.
I don't know. I have a lot to think about. Adulting is hard, ok. Being in the 20s is hard, ok. *sigh* 😔
What else, what else..? Well, I have the idea of making a pet updates post or two. A lot happened since last December. hhhhhhnnfffnfgfnfghhh
Ok, it's testing time! eeeeee
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Inserting pictures from my Photos app works. Good, good, good. ✅
And yes, I started collecting Squishmallows this year. The strawberry husky is Ryan, and the pear fox is Fifi. I got them on vacation. :3 🍓🍐
And the other photo is strawberry bubble tea I got at the mall this summer. It was good. 👍
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........ inserting pictures from my Google Photos also works. Good, good, good. ✅
And yes, that's a screenshot from the Finch app. I took it a while ago; my Zuzu bird is all grown up and looks very different now. I just found Zuzu's reaction to SpongeBob very funny when I first saw it. *Zuzu is confused.* "What kind of fruit do the unspongy Bobs live in, cheep?" ... New Discovery: *Dislikes Spongebob* 😭💀
Their name is Zuzu because it's such a cool name. Zuzu. That's so cool. (idk what I'm even doing-)
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Here's Precious btw lmao
(inserting pictures from Blogger works- check, check, check)
Animal Jam funny pics uwu
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funny !!
.... wait, why is my mind fixated on AJ memories if I want to move away from the game on this blog? huh-
*shrugs*
How do I blog again-
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Ok, one more thing I want to test out tonight.
~ b l a n k
s p a c e ~
b / l / a / n / k
s / p / a / c / e
hmm hmm hmm
ok idk
good enough
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Other Comics To Read List:
Oh wow, my Notes app is properly updated on my computer. I don't remember the last time it did that. Nice. And I was able to copy and paste a part of a note into a post. Very good. This will be useful. Yes, yes. 😈
Those web comics are on my to-read list. I'm still watching the Sweet Tooth Netflix show though. I want to start the comic after I finish watching the show.
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Alright, those are all the testing stuff I wanted to do. Thanks for sticking around with me till the end of the post. I tried to insert some funny random shananigans in as well. (shananigans is a nickname pun I made online lol; my name being Shan and the word being shenanigans, of course.)
But on a serious note, two things:
1. I'm thinking about creating a photography blog. Does that sound interesting enough? Is it worth it? I'm not sure yet.
2. All the previous years of this blog's existence, I was thinking "no" to the idea of letting ads be on my blog (this one, here, yeah, this one). After thinking about it recently, I decided to look into it and give it a chance. So far, AdSense is supposedly still reviewing my blog, and so I don't have any ads up yet. I hope I'll be approved so ads can start popping up. I know ads can get annoying fast, but if they do come on my blog, seeing and clicking on them will be a big help. I'll appreciate it greatly. It took me a long time to reach this decision, and I'm still kinda hesitating it. I don't know. I need good things to happen. If it's possible for me to earn any money by blogging, by doing a hobby I enjoy, then I think that's awesome.
Thanks for reading. <3
~ Shan / Shyrah / Cutepups / the person writing this 😶
PLEASE READ!!
Thank you.
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1. I started implementing changes on this blog, and I decided to start revamping my story blog as well.
What is my story blog, you ask? Well, it’s that old blog I created in 2015 and abandoned for the most part. Until now. I made the decision to update its look and change some things on the blog. There is still a lot left to get done, but I hope I’ll get to it soon. I want a satisfactory result or better.
The link to that blog can be find on the new page I added called “Story Blog”- the link should work.
Actually, I’ll test something out right now: Story Blog
(I hope the link works lol; I haven’t checked anything Blogger related in months.)
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2. IMPORTANT:
I figured out a way to change the blog title and URL without having to create an entirely new blog.
As you can all hopefully see, I got rid of the previous blog banner.
I plan on changing this blog URL to “Shyrah’s Writing Space” soon. I’m planning on making the change stay in a few days or a week. I want to get it done as soon as possible, but I’ll wait a few days for my precious blog readers (thanks so much for still checking here! like, that’s incredible).
I wanted to make this change for such a long time, but I didn’t know how to until very recently. I think this new name is more relevant for the blog since Jamaa is from Animal Jam, and I.. well, I don’t really post Animal Jam content anymore. I want to be more honest and authentic about my blog.
The Jamaa Mist blog (this one) won’t be deleted. It will just change URLs. All the content will still exist, it will just have a new blog link.
That also means I have to update my pages and links in other places like on my story blog.
Fun Fact: A long time ago, I planned on this concept of a “Jamaa Mist” being a very important part of my story (that has the old name of Twinkle’s Story”). That was back when I still planned on making it relate to Animal Jam.
(THE STORY IS NOT RELATED TO THE GAME. SEVERAL STORY CHANGES HAVE BEEN MADE SINCE I BEGAN IT IN 2014. IT’S NOT THE SAME STORY AS IT WAS BACK THEN. I DO NOT OWN ANY RIGHTS TO ANIMAL JAM, JAMAA, AND ANYTHING ELSE BELONGING TO THE GAME AND ITS CREATORS.)
So, why am I changing it to Shyrah? Well, it’s one of my names I started using online. I still view myself as “Cutepups” and other nicknames like “Spirit” and “Shan” but “Shyrah” is likely to stay as one of my names for a longer time than the others. I still use “Shan” a lot, but I like “Shyrah” a little better. I still accept all these nicknames btw.
Shyrah is how I spell out my Hebrew name in the English alphabet. That’s how I imagine it looking like in English. I pronounce it “she-rah” (“ah” like the “a” sound in “awful”). I also spell it this way since it has “shy” in it, and I’m a shy person (lol).
Anyway, I plan on changing this URL to this: shyrahwritingspace (followed by all the Blogspot stuff).
So yeah. Keep that in mind, I guess.
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3. My Contact Info- how to keep in touch of me outside the blog.
I checked and realized that my contact information I put towards the bottom of the blog is either outdated or I never actually check those places anymore.
So consider this an update on where/how to contact me.
* = I check it more often than the others.
My Email: shannondanc3 @ gmail . com (without the spaces, of course)
*My Discord: spiritixsw #2081
My Spotify: spiritixsw
*My Friend Code on the Self Care app, Finch: GS7E47DN23
My DeviantArt (I don’t check that often anymore): BlueBlazingSpirit
My Tumblr (I don’t check that often anymore): shyrahsw
*My Habitica Username: spiritixsw (My Display Name is “Spiritixsw (Shan)”)
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Thank you once again for taking the time to read this post. I really appreciate it. <3
Hey. It’s been A While, huh? It’s already September, and this is my first blog post here in 2022.
Well, a lot happened. I mean, it would be weird if nothing happened. Well, some things stayed the same too. And other things changed (some for the better, others for the worst). I guess that’s Life.
I’m not sure what to exactly put here, so I’m deciding to insert a poem I quickly wrote in my Notes app on my phone in early April. I’m not that proud of it. I’ve been having writer’s block for such a long time. But hey, it’s something.
I have a feeling that I wanted to include it in a blog post when I wrote it but forgot about it until now. It’s been so many months. I didn’t even check anything related to my blogging account in several months. I honestly forgot the last time I checked before last night (September 4th).
I’m planning on making some blogging changes. Some I already implemented; others I plan on doing soon. I just… there’s a part of me that tells me I have to do this.
Anyway, here is my poem:
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Writing Paralysis
Stagnate, stuck in this state
where my movement is frozen
and my lifeblood stopped flowing.
Too many and too few thoughts
that I can’t put into words
no matter how much I
desperately want to get out of
this paralysis called
writer’s block.
How do you gain back that spark
when the fire died out long ago
and there is nothing left
to rekindle it?
How do you make your
motivation, inspiration, and passion
return to you after so many
who helped creative writing become
your purpose and identity
have left you or died without
saying ‘goodbye’—
and how do you move on
after they’re gone?
I’m not sure but
writing this seems like
a decent first step.
