Hey. It’s been A While, huh? It’s already September, and this is my first blog post here in 2022.
Well, a lot happened. I mean, it would be weird if nothing happened. Well, some things stayed the same too. And other things changed (some for the better, others for the worst). I guess that’s Life.
I’m not sure what to exactly put here, so I’m deciding to insert a poem I quickly wrote in my Notes app on my phone in early April. I’m not that proud of it. I’ve been having writer’s block for such a long time. But hey, it’s something.
I have a feeling that I wanted to include it in a blog post when I wrote it but forgot about it until now. It’s been so many months. I didn’t even check anything related to my blogging account in several months. I honestly forgot the last time I checked before last night (September 4th).
I’m planning on making some blogging changes. Some I already implemented; others I plan on doing soon. I just… there’s a part of me that tells me I have to do this.
Anyway, here is my poem:
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Writing Paralysis
Stagnate, stuck in this state
where my movement is frozen
and my lifeblood stopped flowing.
Too many and too few thoughts
that I can’t put into words
no matter how much I
desperately want to get out of
this paralysis called
writer’s block.
How do you gain back that spark
when the fire died out long ago
and there is nothing left
to rekindle it?
How do you make your
motivation, inspiration, and passion
return to you after so many
who helped creative writing become
your purpose and identity
have left you or died without
saying ‘goodbye’—
and how do you move on
after they’re gone?
I’m not sure but
writing this seems like
a decent first step.
I'll say it once and I'll say it again mate- it's nice to have you back <3
ReplyDeleteFor a poem you wrote way back in April it's good. More than good, even if you don't feel like it is. Your writing has always made me feel feelings I've forgotten, or described things I could never put into words. Writers block - or creative block in general - feels like you've lost your spark and everything you identified with and needed to do what you love has left without warning or goodbye. At least it does to me, and this poem vibes exactly like that.
And first steps like this are... decent. They feel trite, and sometimes make you feel worse for trying. But it's a step. And a step is good when you look back and see how far that little step helped get you where you are today, even if you thought it would never get you anywhere.
Haha sorry XD I had thoughts and I wished to share I guess! :3 Point is this is good and I'm glad you shared it Shan <3
Thank you so much, Applestorm! <3 and yeah, that pretty much sums it up. I was lost for a long time and questioned my identity many times these last several months. It’s been feeling like everything is shattering down around me. I might write a post or few about some of it, but it’s not a guarantee. I’m trying to take bigger steps soon. Thanks again!
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