It's almost Saturday. SAT Saturday. Gotta love having my friend enforcing my feelings of stress about it. Ha, ha, ha.
Good luck vibes are needed.
But enough of that. No more personal posts about personal things. If I do that, I'll think too much and fall into existential despair again. No one wants that.
Yeah so anyway. I posted Chapter 64. What a chapter, huh?
I decided to just post one POV for that chapter. Fierdan's.
It gets pretty violent. It took place in the past, so it was just memories. So it wasn't that disturbing. I mean I could have been more descriptive. But I didn't.
I'm planning on making more detailed violent scenes in future chapters. That won't be memories.
Mm boy, gotta love that violence. Scary.
I have a goal set for what I want done by Chapter 69. And if not by then, then chapters in the 70s. Wow, chapters go on and on. This story is a reason to stay alive, so I don't know when the story will end.
Haha. :-)
I'm multitasking right now. I'm probably wording everything in this post so gross. My bad.
About that, I sure did change from 2016. Last year, this story made me want to die. Now it's a reason for me to enjoy something in life. Gotta stay alive so I can write.
Wow. Such improvement.
2016 me: Twinkle's Story is ruined and I hate it.
2017 me, an intellectual: I'm going to save Twinkle's Story from the ashes, so I can end it in the way it rightfully deserves. I have improved plans for how certain scenes will go down. I have reasons now. Writing the story makes me focus back on fictional characters in fictional worlds, so I don't have to focus only on the real world which makes me upset and want to die even more. So instead of making the story a disadvantage, I'm turning it into an advantage.
Haha yeah. 2017 is the year of change.
Anyway, Chapter 64. I decided to just post about it already. Fierdan recalling how he killed his father. Yeah, totally normal. Just kill him.
My boy being way too obsessed with violence and death. No morals. No humanity.
Wow, look at my son. My Fierdan boy. Gotta love him.
Well, hope that chapter was a reminder that he is pretty messed up. He has been an evil boy. Killing people isn't nice, Fierdan.
>:(
I tried to make the part about the little girl (referring to Chapter 60) and the melting skin like melting wax sound disturbing. Was Chapter 64 disturbing anywhere? That part disturbed me.
Haha, look at me. Trying to write violence. Trying to write horror. A murder scene.
I'm trying. Being cruel is hard.
And just like in Dawn's POV in Chapter 62, I go into writing about the human world. When they were cute little kids.
Fierdan and Dawn in the human world before Jamaa makes me emotional. My precious boy. I'm trying to be mean. What the heck.
He was like a flower boy. He was actually happy. He didn't know anything. He was a good boy.
But no. Nope. Turned him into a monster.
Anyone else metaphorically crying? Just me? Okay.
Dawn was like their sister. Haha wow. Plot twist.
Sorry, it's just that. I love Danny. I love him.
Soulless told Fierdan that their father took away Fierdan's humanity. Which triggered Fierdan into suddenly remembering his life before Jamaa. When he was a cute happy human boy.
No black clothes were worn before Jamaa. In Jamaa, he only wears black. Black obviously symbolizes something. Heck yeah.
And then Soulless says that killing Zios on his own made him lose any humanity he had left. Like of course Fierdan was more fox-human than human when Zios met him in Jamaa. So of course Fierdan lost his humanity. But Soulless then is referring to inhumane deeds. Because like. Killing his father in the way that he did, well that isn't humane. Murdering people isn't humane. Burning people is pretty inhumane.
Too violent to be human. Fierdan, you monster.
But then again. His father is terrible. He sucks.
What humanity?
Haha what.
I hope I explained his location in Cincernum better. I find it hard to explain places.
All that blood. Lots of blood. Fierdan, you're sick.
How old is he? I don't know. In total years, 100 something. In this second life, I'm guessing 17-19. In the first life when all that killing action happened (since he got sent to Cincernum after he died in his first life and lived in Cincernum for his entire second life), he probably killed his father between the ages of 19 and 23. I don't know the specifics yet.
Wow, I'm confusing myself. Why am I like this? Heck if I know.
Stop being inappropriate, Fierdan. Stop it. Just stop.
Asdfghjkl.
Oh yeah. Fierdan's last words before he first attacked Zios. "I freaking hate you." I really wanted to change "freaking" to another word ("f***ing") but I just couldn't do it. I had to change it back to "freaking". Using that other word, that's too risky. So think of "freaking" as being that other f word.
I usually use "freaking" as a substitute word for the f word (+ ing). But it depends on the context. Yeah lol.
Twinkle's Story is definitely not a story appropriate for the younger kids. Please don't show your little siblings my blog.
Hmm, let's see. It contains the following content:
- blood
- severe violence
- torture
- murder
- suicide
- abuse (2 or possibly 3 kinds)
- suggested bad language
- romance
- sensual content (possibly suggested sexual but not really)
- trauma
- nudity
- body mutilation/ horror
Yes, totally a story for kids. Totally!
(*cough* please no it's not *cough*)
I'm probably missing some things. Haha yeah wow buddy.
I am Cutepups. The laughing and crying fool. Ayy lmao.
It gets way more violent later on. Chapter 69 at the earliest.
I'm mean lol.
Bye. >;)
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