I updated the chapter list on my other blog. As of now, it's up to date.
Well anyway, I just want to say it now. Thanks a lot for almost 125,000 views. That's a big number.
Now onto the post...
Do you want to know what I really hate? Haha?
It's the story.
I hate it.
It's so stupid. It's funny how stupid it is. Lmao I hate it.
I got another project to do before my spring break.
I don't have time to post chapters this week.
But my stupid brain won't stop thinking of the stupid story.
I want to post Chapter 70 before the weekend now.
I don't have time. School sucks and I got work to do.
But I want to write so badly.
Haha, I hate myself.
That's not the only reason why I hate the story though.
I also hate it because of the characters, the plot, the.. everything.
Don't worry. I won't accidentally quit the story for another year like last time. At least I hope so.
It's just that.. I don't know. I can't help to hate it.
For the 60s arc, I've been trying to write the reasons why Fierdan is the way that he is. Well, you know, how/why he killed people.
And so I've been trying to get the point across: Fierdan killed people because he hated how everyone except him and Dawn were happy in Jamaa (or if I choose an original name, then that) and how they were praising his father, Zios (or if I choose an original name, then that).
Like, I don't know, I guess that was his motive.
And yet. I feel like that's nowhere near enough of a decent explanation.
I still can't think of any explanation to give for why Fierdan wanted to kill so many ordinary people.
I mean yeah, there is Soulless in his head manipulating and hurting him if he doesn't do what Soulless asks.
But like. That's not enough. Okay, I know.
Soulless was a program that Zios forced Fierdan's brother to create. They both worked on it, but the brother did a lot more secret coding for it behind his father's back.
The brother basically coded in for Soulless to hate Zios so much. Which then made Fierdan hate Zios so much. But due to how Soulless got their points across to him, Fierdan grew to hate Soulless a lot too.
About the brother, I honestly don't like having to refer to him as Fierdan's brother. I'll admit it. I've been in this conflict for a while.
I want to give him a name. I want to reveal it in the story. Especially in the 70s arc since I'm planning on including his POV a few times in this new arc. But at the same time, I don't know if I should reveal his name yet. Half of me wants to reveal his name in the 70s arc, and half of me wants me to reveal his name to the fox characters when they're humans in the human world.
About the human world, I have to think of a name for it. I don't want to name it a country like the United States or whatever. So I'm stuck on a name for that too.
Anyway, back to my Fierdan point. I'm stuck and can't think of how he was able to kill so many people.
Ugh. When I first introduced his character, I made him this creepy guy who killed hundreds of people. But now when I think about it, all I can think of is- how? How in the world can that happen? That makes no sense.
Way too many people. How did he kill so many people? Why was I such an awful writer when I was 15? It's so hard to fix all my story mistakes.
And like. How could he come in contact with people to kill them? What was 15 (or was it 14) year old me thinking? That, what, people casually go into Fierdan's castle (why is he even in a castle.. wth) and Fierdan says hello and kills them? What the hell? Or that Fierdan goes outside once a month or whatever and chooses people to enter his castle by force. And then he kills them. Like, excuse me but, what?
And why wasn't anyone doing anything to stop him if it was obviously him killing people?
Yeah guys. This is one reason out of a X number of reasons why I hate this story and think of it as a joke now.
Fierdan, my dear, you're being way too unrealistic.
For the 70s arc, I'm planning on including:
- At least 1 character death.
- Fierdan's brother being very nervous about Soulless and Fierdan.
- Past - Human chapters. (Zios's sons and Dawn in the human world; pre-Fierdan).
- Past - Jamaa chapters. (Dawn and Fierdan when they were both alive in the living physical world).
- Reasons why Twinkle's personality changed so much between the 50s arc and 60s arc. (It has something to do with being isolated from everyone for a week or two).
- Dramatic changes in other characters.
That's all I will say.
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