haha .. i hate this

Ok so. I have poem ideas. And I really want to write them. So badly. 

And of course I get all the good ideas when I literally can't fit the time to write them into my schedule. 

Ah.. :'} 

Oh and of course they aren't the "good" writing ideas. They aren't helpful right now, brain! I have to think about good writing ideas for my college papers. For the essay! For every freaking response "paragraph" I have to do! 

Not sad/concerning poetry about myself and my characters! 

College coursework has piled on top of me. I hate myself for being such an idiot. Why did I sabotage myself? :'( 

I'm stressed. I've got a ton to do today (Tuesday) in preparation for Wednesday. And oh god, I am scared for Wednesday. I'm really not prepared, and I should just die. :'} 

I wish I could write what I want to, but stupid college things got in my way. Man, I hate this. 

I have to write something about this four-paged "poem" and wow it makes my longest poem look short. Trying to analyze the things I have to read is so hard.

College is very hard. I feel inadequate to everyone else and that I'm the dumbest person here. It feels more true by the day. 

Yeah, that's all I wanted to say. I'm going to try and get some sleep because I doubt I'll deserve to get any a day from now. I've got so much work to do for Tuesday and Wednesday. 

I can't wait for the weekend. I'm looking forward to it. 

But I have to go through this week of college hell first. Hope I make it out in one piece. 

Goodbye.