In 2020, We Are All The April Fool

Yes. We sure are.

Hi. Hello. Hi. Hello.

In 2020, we are all the April Fool.

2020- what a year. Oh, it's only April? Whatever.

Coronavirus. Covid-19. What a time.

I'm on my second week of online classes. Mm, not a fan. No thanks.

............. Before the post continues:

This post will have profanity.

............. fyi.

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On last year's April 1st post, I see that I had said that one of my classes was canceled that day. 

Guess what happened today? One of my classes got canceled! 

But is it even class anymore? Everything's online. Nothing feels real. Is time real? Discussion Board, BlackBoard, all these goddamn Boards. 

Anyway, I'm FUCKED. 

Nothing feels real. Is time real? Fuck! 

[Note: I'm going to be changing topics a lot in this post.]

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Remember Animal Jam? I don't. 

Anyway, this Adventure is somehow a coronavirus/self-quarantine/2020 mood. 

I don't remember anything from AJ. I don't remember this. Why is my blog URL this? It's a fucking mystery, buddy. 

*breathe in* *breathe out* BREATHE.

PSA: If you're out there, Bunny, I miss you so much. 

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.......... Where the hell are those Adventure screenshots?? 

Who is he?? What the fuck happened to him?? 

lol look at these sad emo kids 

also,, march 2020 mood.

Damn. I miss the person who made this. :-(

Anyway, that quote was the peak of my writing success. 

It's such a deep quote. Fucking hell.

"There's a part in all of us that wants to be free." 

me: *goes apeshit*

2020 (self) quarantine mood. 

We just wanna be FREE, FREEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

.......... anyone else thinking of the social commentary that can stem from that quote? 

Free from what? Capitalism. 

*insert other words here too that I'm too lazy to type*

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YES, I FOUND THEM.

(AKA the Adventure chat screenshots)

Plot twist: This is actually about covid-19. The coronas are out to get us, so stay inside! 

Ok, have more nonsense.

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AAAHHHHHHH

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Anyone remember my Enchanted bunny avatar? 

Me neither.

She seems iconic though. 

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.............. PEAK FASHION!!!!!

Anyone remember my Precious wolf avatar? 

She's a marshmallow obsessed freak.

Oh wow.

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I have way too many random AJ screenshots saved on this blog. XD

Moving on now......

I have no ideas for any pranks. I'm old, I'm tired, time isn't real, and I'm screwed. 

:'(

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~ void ~

~ gotta keep moving to avoid falling down down down........ ~

~ into a depressive episode ~

~ oh fuck. ~

~ void ~

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I can't focus. I can't read. I can't focus. I can't focus. Focus. Focus. Focus.

Attention span who?

It's getting harder by the day to avoid falling down, down, down into a depressive episode. These times remind me too much of the summer when I have my summer depression. Self-isolating. Staying home all day. 

Thank god I've established basic morning and night routines, so I have some structure to my days in these chaotic times. 

But I'm not gonna lie. I'm terrified of the depression coming back again. I know I haven't made that many posts these past few months, I know I haven't had the motivation to create new content here, but I actually haven't felt depressed for a good while now. I'm scared of sinking back low. I was doing so good, then this virus shitstorm happened. I'm trying so hard to cope, but it's hard. Everything is a struggle. 

I've been having stressful dreams that stress me out again. I'm scared. I'm nervous. I'm worried. I'm terrified. I'm bored. I'm anxious. I'm okay. 

I fucked up again. I keep fucking this shit up. 

I don't know what to look forward to anymore. When this pandemic ends? I guess that. I don't know anymore.

Well anyway. Take care of yourselves. I'm really trying to, and so should you.

Sometimes my eyes, with my glasses or contacts on, choose not to focus on reading words right in front of me. It's like, everything feels out of focus. And then I can feel my eyes focusing again. 

It's a weird experience. 

I forgot what I was going to say next. 

Haha, I should take my medication. Ha, ha. 

Stay safe. We're all in this together. 

Alright, alright! Now the post is over. Y'all can leave or write a comment below. 

<3,

~ Shan