More Info: Pray for Paris (and the World)

Hello, I'm back now with wifi. I'm not spending the night at my family's house, so I only have my phone with me.

Before I explain what I'll be explaining, just for some of you to be aware of (even if you didn't mean it like that). Okay so, the events that happened throughout the world yesterday (Friday, the 13th) were truly horrendous. Thousands (yeah, I'm not just talking about Paris) of innocent people lost their lives rather it be from the ISIS terrorist group attacks, earthquakes, or something else. I don't personally have any family relatives living in the countries where the events happened, but I find (and I'm inferring many others as well) it to be very disrespectful to just call the people and countries affected as, "oops, they just had some bad luck". Okay, no. Don't ever say that. It's way more than just "bad luck". It's way, way more terrible.

Okay, so about my day. So I spent the majority of today in New York City. If you don't already know, NYC is a very big and major city in the USA. I spent most of my time there indoors, but yeah I (and who I was with) saw some things. For instance, I passed by the Fox and NBC news studios with their flashing word signs repeatedly saying everything that happened in Paris, France. Oh and in NY, the US, there has been higher security. The doors to the bus terminal, for example, had several armed guards (like in soldier outfits). You see, the events that happened yesterday directly affected France of course, but it affected the rest of the world severely as well. There are many anxious people everywhere, worry about the attacks spreading to the (east coast) US everywhere. If you still believe the events that happened are to be taken lightly, then gosh.. you must not have a heart for other people geez.

I'm watching the Democratic Debate. They're talking about the terrorism attacks now. Ha.

I've only really checked the news of what happened to the other countries this morning as the most recently. I found a post on Tumblr that summarized it up, so I'll just rephrase say what it said. So the events yesterday:

France (mostly in Paris): under attack by terrorists (ISIS), multiple explosions and attacks, at least 153 killed. From what I know myself, there have been attacks (such as suicide bombers) towards the end of a France soccer game (possibly championship game I think), and in a few restaurants in Paris. Other areas in France have been attacked, but I don't know that much information on what happened.

China: more than 100 people were injured in mudslides. I don't know much about the events in the other countries, sorry.

Lebanon: twin suicide bombings last night, almost 200 injured and 43 killed.

Japan: had a very powerful 7.0 magnitude earthquake in the southwest Japanese coast, more than 18,000 dead or missing in northeast Japan, and a tsunami has been triggered with a warning issued.

Mexico: had a 4.3 magnitude earthquake.

Baghdad: 21 people were killed or wounded, at least 46 at a funeral in a suicide bomb attack, and a roadside bomb injured 15 and killed 5.

And in the University of Missouri (USA), black* students are getting death threats by some white* students, and some professors don't care about what could happen to the blacks*.
(* just in case anyone is offended by those words)

Like those songs, we ARE living in a "world on fire". Sure, people don't directly cause natural disasters, but people do cause climate change, which could cause more frequent natural disasters. This isn't just about 1 or 2 countries, this is about a large amount of the world. Sure, your specific country might haven't been mentioned, but the events that affected these countries could affect your country sooner or later as well. The affects of major events spread. It just does, that's how it is.

***IF YOU KNOW AS A FACT THAT I HAVE SAID INFORMATION THAT IS FALSE, PLEASE KINDLY TELL ME WHAT THE TRUTH IS. THREATS AND DECLARATIONS OF *islam*PHOBIA WILL DEFINITELY NOT BE TOLERATED ON MY BLOG.***

If you personally know anyone who has been directly affected by the events in these other countries, I send you and your family my condolences. I don't care if we live in totally different countries across the world, if you are a kind and supportive viewer of mine, I do care about you. Even if you don't about me. Even if I'm just a stranger to you, I honestly care about you and your life. Including your family as well. If you think nobody cares about you, then I care. All of you guys mean the world to me. I'm obviously not a "robot blogger", I like having conversations with you. I care a whole lot. I know what it's like to feel like nobody in your life cares about you. But, whatever you say, you are wrong. People, even if they're just people you met online, care about you. I have vented so many times to you guys. If you feel like venting to me, then just go ahead, my blog email is right over there to the right of the blog. I (platonically) love all you amazingly nice people, and please stay safe. <3

~ ☆Cutepups☆ ~

Pray For The World

I'm leaving for the day in a few minutes. I don't have enough time to go on my computer. So no pictures or direct links. I'm leaving for NY. Okay, I'm typing on this phone quickly. Sorry for any typos.

If any of you weren't informed, yesterday, Friday November 13th, many devastating events happened throughout the world. (And on Friday the 13th too...)

I know I have some viewers from France and China.

So, oh gotta go sorry, just saying I'm praying for all of you who are in these dangerous conditions.

Stay safe. <3

(Sorry for short post.)

World Kindness Day

Hi guys!

Thanks for your kind emails, people who emailed me. They made me smile! :)

About kindness...

Today (November 13, 2015) is World Kindness Day! :D

Oh, what a great day to be kind.. and every other day too. c:

Here's a link that explains what WKD actually is, and how you can get involved. Basically, it's a website advocating WKD. <3 https://www.randomactsofkindness.org/world-kindness-day

Seriously though. There needs more kindness in our world. We really do. 

About kindness, my teachers assigned barely any (by that I mean 1 or 2 classes) homework this weekend!

Or maybe because the Marking Period just ended.

But still, that's kind. Not assigning tortuous homework is very kind. ;w;

That might cause why I've not been feeling in the dumps that much lately. I think today's the 3rd consecutive day I had no negative/depressive thought.

About depression, my LAL teacher introduced to us (my class I mean) that we'll be starting research papers on mental illnesses soon. So today, she briefly went over each of the mental illnesses in the list.

Since I researched some mental illnesses (either during a time when I felt really negative and see if I have any symptoms of a mental illness, or for characters in stories I'm writing), I already had a basic understanding on most of them. Except a few. 

Before I forget, gotta inform you guys so you all know. Okay so, you know how I've recently been saying how I have anxiety and depression. Well actually, I don't technically have them. Like, my negative thoughts don't go to such an extreme that they affect my daily life (like I can still function as a human being) that I need therapy. Heck, it's probably just some really crappy mood-swings (cuz like I'm a teenager and all lol). And no, I'm definitely not saying I'm lying about anything I said. Sure, at times I feel like dying (no, not suicide.. like just not existing) and hate just about everything about me. But anyway, I think it was very wrong of me to declare I have *insert mental illnesses here (ex.: depression, bi-polar, (social)anxiety)* because no, I don't. Sure, I share some symptoms of those minorly (possibly a little greater than those around me), but doesn't just about everybody?

So yeah, hope that clarified for you guys. ^-^'

On a completely different note of things, I was on my Blogger Dash and saw that there was a new item. So, um, it was this thing. (Ummina 0.0)

Git yer very own PIXELATED WOLF HEAD pacifically mayd 4 yer wolfs head 2day!!!!!1 >8U

*shudders* O_O

It kinda looks like the land of an old Mario game.. except the land is blue and white, not green and brown. Like, the ears and cheek fur look like stairs. And its muzzle is the large flat platform thing, and those monsters Mario steps on or dodges shoot out randomly from the wolf's eyes. Oh my... o.o

Goodbye! <3

(via Google)

Email!

Yes, yes. You all can stalk me via email too! 8D

. . .

Ahem, I made a new email. That has no personal info, and is like a public email address. So, like, we can email each other. I don't know why, but if you wanna email me about whatever, now you can! (Woo! 8D)

I'm not sure if I can reply right away (well, it depends on what you email me). But I'll try to answer them as soon as I can.

alsoplznohatespamchainthreatsviolencebullyingemailsplzthankyou<:

I also just edited it, so it doesn't display my real name. (Yeah, it used to do that. That's what I fixed, by the way. Yes. :>)

So anywho, the email address is.................................................:

......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

plzdon'toverwhelmmethx

Okay, okay. My email that you can email me with is.............:

mysticalstardreams@gmail.com

(Yep, that's me, S the Blue Cutepup! :3)

Bye! ^w^

PS: If you're American, today's Veterans' Day! If you're Canadian, today's Remembrance Day!

(images don't belong to me)

PPS: If you were viewing my blog late last night (my time), did the blog suspiciously not load (if you were viewing from a computer)? Because I was trying to put up a new music playlist, but the blog kept on crashing (only on my computer for me) when I had the playlist code (HTML) gadget up. (I took it off now though.)

What's Going On

Hey guys, I'm back. Well, for the time being anyway. I can't really make an actual lengthy post for today (gotta study for that exam tomorrow), so this is good enough.

(Edit: It actually is a lengthy post. XD)

Anyway, to those of you who know my DA, I'm sorry if we miscommunicated at all and for me just bringing all of you so much of my annoying and dramatic negativity. Okay, maybe not dramatic to you guys, but to me it kinda is. Sorry if I lashed out at anybody by what I said in my last journal on there. Yeah, I'm being more active on there than here nowadays. So yeah, back onto the blogging side of things.

If you haven't seen already, I made 2 posts on my other blogs (one on each). Read them if you want or if you're interested, I don't really care. Find them to the right of the blog. -->> and then down.

I'm not too happy today either. School is just a drag, y'know? I probably got a bad grade on a test I took today.. woo, more negativity :/. Add 1 exam and 2 more tests tomorrow.. yippee :/.

So anyway onto other things since I bet most of you (*cough* silent viewers *cough*) don't really care about my complaints and sufferings (oh boy), I saw (due to the few still active AJ blogs on my Blogger Dashboard) today's RIM. I swear that item was a RIM before.. but it was member..? Yeah, I probably forgot it in place of a similar item or something. Oh well.

I wanted to draw this stick-figure doodle for the RIM, but I'm just way too tired lately. Maybe that has to do with all the negativity I've been posting about myself recently *ding, ding, ding!*. Like, sleep next to Thelma (my stupid tuxedo cat.. yes, she is quite stupid.. and smart.. never mind XD). And like stroke her fur as she purrs and kneads my pillow. Um yes, I do that, she does that.. Thelma is my kitty. :3

Wow, that paragraph changed topic and mood rather quickly. 0.0

I had a scary-weird (well, all my dreams are weird.. yours too) dream last night. So, ya idk man, I was this character in this cliche horror film. Like that depressed girl with sleek black hair with purple highlights wearing all black in this specific style outfit. Yeah, so I was that type of girl. And then I was in her bedroom (oh wait, she's like royalty or something.. that place looked fancy) sitting at his grand fancy desk with all them engravings and fancy stuff like embroidery all over the large brown desk. That desk was huge. So then it was in the middle of the night, and I (this depressed dark girl in most cliche depressing/horror films) was sitting there at the desk with this piece of paper and with a feathered quill and a bottle of ink. Then the moonlight shimmered into the bedroom because all else was dark. Then I wrote this poem. It said in the girl's fancy handwriting:

"I don't know why

But I want to die

Ok bye."

Wow, that's a depressing poem. But it rhymes! So then me as this girl stayed awake for the rest of the night. Then I (the girl) woke up to Black Raven from my Twinkle's Story in raven-form sitting on top of the poem. Now that raven said many inspirational things. I love her. She is Twinkle's sassy EP pet. Like, what isn't there to love? So anyway, Black Raven basically saved the girl's life and mine (who was in the girl's body). So then the girl became less depressed/suicidal, and befriended the raven. Then we were in the girl's living room (so fancy), and we watched this movie. So it started out as like that trailer for Twinkle's Story/TEO I have in my head. So like the characters started out by walking on this tightrope thing. Wait no, it was this sequel thing. So then all the Extraordinary Others (you don't understand any of this, haha it's okay) had their feet walking on the tightrope. In this straight line. So suspenseful, man, so suspenseful. Then we were in the magical academy which is where the story of Violet and Teal (yeah, from my DA) takes place. 

Yeah, you think there's more to that dream, but that's basically it. That's basically all that happened. Yeah, strange dream it was. Well, okay then.

So there's your entertainment from me to you for today. 

Oh wait, almost forgot something! So anyway, I might be changing around some stuff on the blog. This blog I mean. Like, ok idk, I just want to make this blog more, um, "general" and about whatever for the time being. More "general".. like, idk, topics that are more general, personal.. I can't explain anything today. Might be removing/adding gadgets as well. I don't know yet, sorry.

I'm fine, don't bother worrying about me. 

Bye.

~ Cutepups

Edit: My computer finally stopped with its fake "updating" from last Friday (or was it Thursday?)! X3 

Trash Post at its Finest

Hello strangers. This post is trash at its finest. You have been warned.

. . . . . . .

I had this daydream the other day. It was just of this 3 second gif of Fierdan breathing. Like, just breathing. Just casually breathing. It was really intense and suspenseful. He was also just standing next to this white wall with nothing else there. It was so interesting. Seriously for like reals.

Then later on, I had that same daydream. But when the 3 second gif usually repeats itself, Fierdan turns into Danny (basically him as human). And then Danny breathes. And then the gif flips so his brother is breathing now. It was very intense, guys. For like reals. Breathing causes so many feels.

Then in another completely different daydream, Danny's brother (lol I still don't have a proper name for him) went to this bar with one of the creepy government adult dudes. Because, I don't know, he's like 21 or something. Their ages confuse me greatly.

In another one, Duke was in this recording studio. And Finny tried but failed to take Duke out of that glass box thing in the recording studio. So then Duke responded by singing in the tune of Deadman Wonderland's opening song, "Slowly losing my humanity and turning into a fox's insanity!". Or did Fierdan say that? I forgot. XD

Oh and my dad randomly drove me to PetSmart today. So there was this kitten there sleeping in his litterbox. There was also this cute little black and white snake climbing up a wall in its tank, and then it started slithering on the top of its tank (on the inside of course). Then it suddenly slipped and fell. It then slithered to the front of the tank, stared at me and my dad, and sniffed with its black tongue. There was also this bearded dragon that was in this dance-like pose as it leaned against the glass in the front of the tank. My dad also taught me how to do basic driver functions when I sat in the driver's seat, and also helped me review for my driver's written test on Tuesday (aka a test where if you don't get a specific high score, you're screwed).

..........

Serious jumble of crud now. (Wow, my mind wanders around a lot.. what the heck.)

For a while now, especially after making all these vent posts, I've been regretting making posts. I'll probably regret posting this too. Gosh, these posts embarrass me so much. I'm always self-conscious of what types of comments I'll get on my posts now. Yeah, I don't know why I'm like this either, man.

Actually, I'm just bored of (Blogger) blogging in general. I don't have anything to focus on anymore. So I just end up making these cruddy posts which I instantly regret making the minute I publish them. Not gonna ever delete them or draft them because I said so. I'm more active on DeviantArt than on here nowadays. I also have quite a few stressful tests this upcoming week, so I'm not gonna be that daily blogger. Like, I don't know guys, my interest in blogging on my Blogger blogs has just faded away. (Either that, or it's just my depressing thoughts again...)

(I feel as though I'm being edgy in those recent vents, and that you're all judging me behind your computer and phone screens. Ugh, you guys don't hate me, right? *cough* not asking that one hater *cough*)

Kinda on that topic, I don't know why I'm like this either. I always feel and think that I'm lonely and no one cares about me. I constantly think this, but I know it's not true at all. I have my family, you guys, my true IRL friends that actually talk to me and text me. But I always feel like I'm isolated from those around me and you guys too. And I know it's my fault for feeling this way because I caused this to happen. I know as a fact I'm not lonely, but I can't help thinking that I am. *sigh* me in general...

Oh and I'm so ironic with my story. So, you all know how Twinkle's Story focuses on romance a lot, right? Well, haha, in real life, I'm not that interested in romance novels that much. Or, like, romance that much in general. Not really.. kind of? Not that sure. So, um haha, don't think I'm obsessed with romance IRL just because of my writings. Cuz I'm not. Like, okay guys, you don't know how awkward it is for me when my friends text me asking dating advice. I don't really know what to tell them what to do, haha. And then the annoying classmates talking about their sexual fantasies. This one girl talked about hers in great detail (O_O). Yeah, don't ask, man. Please don't.. some classmates are just.. ick.

I'm so ironic lol.

Yeah, my thoughts wander a lot. XD

Ew tests ew

Okay bye, strangers who I call some my best friends even though I don't know them that well. 

(Just face it, I'm weird.)

<3

~ Cutepups|Blue|S

Random lyric time for no reason at all! XD

"You can't wake up, this is not a dream, you're part of a machine, you are not a human being... Low on self-esteem."~ "Gasoline" by Halsey.

Why do I love this line so much now, and feel connected to it? Haha, yeah... :'D

Goodbye.~

These Songs Though

Hi, I am back. ^-^

Look at that face.

(*DailyPuppy.com*)

Isn't that face silly and adorable? (Yes. :3)

So, the weather where I am is pretty weird. It's November, and today (Friday) it was nearly 80 degrees (Fahrenheit). The weather's so warm now. Haha, I don't know.

Now I'm gonna spam you with songs. They're all found on YouTube, and I don't own them in any way or form. 

Yeah, deal with it. 

Just.. this song. Yes. <3

"We're Taking Over"~ Bea Miller

So, um, yeah that's the random song. XD

So anyway, recently I've been listening to some songs. Anyway, these songs have reminded of so many spoilers in TEO (especially the sequels.. but not all of them). And, gosh, those spoiler feels. ;o; ;-;

Oh and no, not explaining why. Nope, nada, not at all. No. Only I can understand why *insert evil laugh here*.

Oh and the songs are all in random order. Not in any event order or anything. These also are songs I didn't post on here before. They also remind me of so many fandoms...

So yeah, the songs. ;)

"Don't Go"~ Bring Me The Horizon

"Still Here"~ Digital Daggers

"Wires"~ The Neighbourhood

"Dead Hearts"~ Stars

"Youth"~ Daughter

Haha, yeah. Well, that's all the songs I'll spam you all with for now. Love you, bye.