Trash Post at its Finest

Hello strangers. This post is trash at its finest. You have been warned.

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I had this daydream the other day. It was just of this 3 second gif of Fierdan breathing. Like, just breathing. Just casually breathing. It was really intense and suspenseful. He was also just standing next to this white wall with nothing else there. It was so interesting. Seriously for like reals.

Then later on, I had that same daydream. But when the 3 second gif usually repeats itself, Fierdan turns into Danny (basically him as human). And then Danny breathes. And then the gif flips so his brother is breathing now. It was very intense, guys. For like reals. Breathing causes so many feels.

Then in another completely different daydream, Danny's brother (lol I still don't have a proper name for him) went to this bar with one of the creepy government adult dudes. Because, I don't know, he's like 21 or something. Their ages confuse me greatly.

In another one, Duke was in this recording studio. And Finny tried but failed to take Duke out of that glass box thing in the recording studio. So then Duke responded by singing in the tune of Deadman Wonderland's opening song, "Slowly losing my humanity and turning into a fox's insanity!". Or did Fierdan say that? I forgot. XD

Oh and my dad randomly drove me to PetSmart today. So there was this kitten there sleeping in his litterbox. There was also this cute little black and white snake climbing up a wall in its tank, and then it started slithering on the top of its tank (on the inside of course). Then it suddenly slipped and fell. It then slithered to the front of the tank, stared at me and my dad, and sniffed with its black tongue. There was also this bearded dragon that was in this dance-like pose as it leaned against the glass in the front of the tank. My dad also taught me how to do basic driver functions when I sat in the driver's seat, and also helped me review for my driver's written test on Tuesday (aka a test where if you don't get a specific high score, you're screwed).

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Serious jumble of crud now. (Wow, my mind wanders around a lot.. what the heck.)

For a while now, especially after making all these vent posts, I've been regretting making posts. I'll probably regret posting this too. Gosh, these posts embarrass me so much. I'm always self-conscious of what types of comments I'll get on my posts now. Yeah, I don't know why I'm like this either, man.

Actually, I'm just bored of (Blogger) blogging in general. I don't have anything to focus on anymore. So I just end up making these cruddy posts which I instantly regret making the minute I publish them. Not gonna ever delete them or draft them because I said so. I'm more active on DeviantArt than on here nowadays. I also have quite a few stressful tests this upcoming week, so I'm not gonna be that daily blogger. Like, I don't know guys, my interest in blogging on my Blogger blogs has just faded away. (Either that, or it's just my depressing thoughts again...)

(I feel as though I'm being edgy in those recent vents, and that you're all judging me behind your computer and phone screens. Ugh, you guys don't hate me, right? *cough* not asking that one hater *cough*)

Kinda on that topic, I don't know why I'm like this either. I always feel and think that I'm lonely and no one cares about me. I constantly think this, but I know it's not true at all. I have my family, you guys, my true IRL friends that actually talk to me and text me. But I always feel like I'm isolated from those around me and you guys too. And I know it's my fault for feeling this way because I caused this to happen. I know as a fact I'm not lonely, but I can't help thinking that I am. *sigh* me in general...

Oh and I'm so ironic with my story. So, you all know how Twinkle's Story focuses on romance a lot, right? Well, haha, in real life, I'm not that interested in romance novels that much. Or, like, romance that much in general. Not really.. kind of? Not that sure. So, um haha, don't think I'm obsessed with romance IRL just because of my writings. Cuz I'm not. Like, okay guys, you don't know how awkward it is for me when my friends text me asking dating advice. I don't really know what to tell them what to do, haha. And then the annoying classmates talking about their sexual fantasies. This one girl talked about hers in great detail (O_O). Yeah, don't ask, man. Please don't.. some classmates are just.. ick.

I'm so ironic lol.

Yeah, my thoughts wander a lot. XD

Ew tests ew

Okay bye, strangers who I call some my best friends even though I don't know them that well. 

(Just face it, I'm weird.)

<3

~ Cutepups|Blue|S

Random lyric time for no reason at all! XD

"You can't wake up, this is not a dream, you're part of a machine, you are not a human being... Low on self-esteem."~ "Gasoline" by Halsey.

Why do I love this line so much now, and feel connected to it? Haha, yeah... :'D

Goodbye.~