I'm Done

I'm tired of fighting this battle with you

This battle I thought already ended

You hurt me and I hurt you

We apologized time and time again

But what's the purpose of an apology if you don't mean it?

What's the point of fighting this battle without a purpose?

I'm not even hurt by those words you said

No, not anymore

But now, now guilt has us in its trap

Engaged us in our own separate living hells

I lie wide awake at midnight thinking of you

Distracted from sleep, my studies, from living

With a light and soul, not just a gloomy shadow

Your replies make me feel as if I was lying

About my painful guilt and all the sadness 

It hurts apologizing over and over again

For just that one reason

I'm over it now

Seeing you hurt and apologizing over and over again

Mainly because of me

That pains me the most now

Maybe, oh just maybe

The only solution is to just

Stop, go away

And go our separate ways

Because at least then

We can't hurt each other any more than we already had

We're already too broken to be fixed anyway

No, I'm not saying this because I hate you

I'm saying this because I love you

Friend, I love you so much

All our past memories mean a whole lot to me

But now, now we just end up suffering in silence

Whenever we simply speak to each other

So what if, what if we

Go away until this misery ends

If it will ever truly end

This is the last option I have for us

I would rather have our friendship take a break

Than just watch it slowly die out in agony

Friend, I love you

I never want this friendship to end

I want you to stay, I really do

But we have both suffered long enough 

By reluctantly staying at each other's side

I'm sick of it, sick of it all

I don't know how longer 

Our friendship will last if it continues on like this

I'm done of barely staying alive

I'm done of suffering from this constant battle

You see, this is for the best

This is for the both of us

I love you and I don't want you to go

Oh, friend, I'm so sorry it's come to this

I'm done feeling this way

So please, I beg you to

Don't touch me

Don't talk to me

Just leave me alone

Because I, I'm uncertain

On how much longer I can stay standing

Without falling apart

Can you see my tear-stained eyes, my fragile heart?

Oh how I'm sorry it's come to this

But this is for the best

So we don't break each other apart

Piece by piece until there's nothing left

Until there's nothing at all

Please, oh please just leave me alone

And I'll do the same

Goodbye, friend

I love you

I'll never forget you

We'll return happy again

We will one day

But today

I'm done fighting this battle with you.

For a friend. You know who you are. 

~ Cutepups <3