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Hi guys.

I made up my mind. I will make a public email, but I won't check it, as actively, as the other sites you guys know me on. I don't know yet. I just keep on feeling more and more lonely, so yeah. Email it is.

With probably a cruddy email address like my personal ones.. except without the personal stuff. Haha.. I'm trash.

Now time for Cutepups' cruddy thoughts at the moment! *cough*

It always happens. Every, freaking, time. Every flipping book (novel, I mean) read for school has an ending that never, like um, satisfies the reader. The question you ask yourself while reading the novel never gets a straight answer in the ending. What you want to find out, but never do. It's in every novel for school. And this just kills me (oh god, I'm sounding like the narrator lol). They always leave you hanging by a freaking rope over a cliff. Gah, it's just so annoying. 

I also think I'm one of the only students in my class that actually doesn't fully hate the narrator. Sure, you've gotta hate him for some things he did, but overall? Yeah, I don't know where I'm going with this. Like now, especially after feeling like sh-- crap so much recently, I kinda get where his ideas are coming from. Well, barely. But I kinda do. Life is like a big "ugh". That's just how it is really.

(Lol that school book had constant swearing. >;) )

Also, how the heck do people draw with lots of detail? How the hell do they do it? I can't. Yeah, I know I suck.

(I don't need your pity or your sympathy or your empathy or your bs or whatever, I'm just posting this here like my virtual journal.)

On a random other topic, you all know how I'm so mean to Duke/Fierdan now, right? Well, now I'm being mean to Twinkle.. and this other character none of you really know about yet either. Gah, in the sequels I really give it to her. Him too, but her? Tons. Gah.. I'm so cruel to my characters. >:D 

Oh and I made green and red fire in another class. It was so cool. Really, it was pretty awesome. c:

I also think I'm allergic (okay, not really that word lol but still) to heat and bright lights (particularly from the sun). Just heat really. But still. Okay, I'm effed up in so many ways guys.. seriously. Like, just bring me to this room that's very warm and bright, and then lecture on and on about it. Oh and it's hot? Well, I don't cope too hot (lol pun.. and from that novel I just told you about) with that. The cold, fine. The (high, extreme) heat, no. Nope. It makes me feel like I'm dying. 

I'm not even kidding it really does. (God, I sound so much like that narrator when I'm typing this. XD)

I kinda did, kinda didn't have like an attack because of all that heat and bright lights. I wouldn't call it a seizure, but it kinda was? Like it was only for a minute or two (thank god), and nothing too bad happened. But I kinda didn't feel that well for that like one minute. Yeah, I don't know. Like, I suddenly became very hot (sweaty hot, not attractive of course lol). Like burning (not literally of course lol) hot. (Why the hell am I telling you guys this anyways? XD). Then my stomach felt a tiny bit weird, and I felt like I was deaf (oh, good school days of Cutepups the Loner, amirite? //sarcasm). Then I was randomly just shakily pacing around in circles. My classmates next to me probably thought I went mad, haha.. it's not funny. But, my god, I probably looked so awkward. And when the teacher came back after leaving for a few seconds. Goddammit my awkwardness. Then a few more seconds after that, I heard from a (magical o3o) distance away (aka a few feet away) someone ask if I was okay. And then I stopped walking in circles around myself like I was possessed by a demon (cue Soulless XD), and paid attention back to the class (we were in this outdoor classroom area.. such glass.. yes, glass). Then my hearing came fully back a minute later, and we saw rainbows through the glass square thing aimed at the light bulbs above. Yeah, that was my highlight from today. I know I'm lame. I mean suck.

I'm such a fail as you can all infer by this happening to me. All interesting events schoolwise happen in chemistry class. I talk about that class a lot on here. I hate school, why do I constantly bring it up on here? What is wrong with me and my logic? XD 

Now, um, discuss kind stuff in the comments. Talk to me. Not right now since I have a few more answers to finish for homework and get ready for bed, but still. I really appreciate it when you're there just commenting whatever. I really do.

Your One and Lonely (I also mean Only) Blue Mystical Spirit Pup,

~ Cutepups 

(Or, like, you can just call me S.)