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Hey there. I'm back with another post where I'll basically be rambling. Enjoy.

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I had two days off of school (Wednesday and Thursday) even though there wasn't really a reason to have the schools fully closed both days.

Ah, oh well. Not having school was nice.

Oh look, it's Friday now. Back to school for one day, and then it's the actual weekend.

Well, ok then. Just one day. Eh, shouldn't be too bad.

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My cat, Thelma, is a hunter.

According to my parents, she hunted down and killed this mouse that entered our house through the cat food bag.

Poor mousey. :(

I'm proud of my cat though. She's a cat alright. My little hunter. :')

I didn't see her do this though. Ugh rip.

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Saw the movies, "Get Out" and "Coco", recently.

You know.. those movies.. won Oscars. Yeah?

They're good movies.

Nice. Nice indeed.

:)

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About movies...

I'm not sure if it's because I've become more emotionally numb/apathetic or I just don't care or if it's because of what my story plans are, but like.. horror...

Horror movies and shows used to scare me so much. Like, I bet I'll still get frightened when I watch some horror movies, but nowadays, I feel less terrified when I watch horror genre stuff.

I actually like watching and reading horror now. It's actually very interesting.

So I've been watching and reading more of that type of stuff.

Yeah, woo, what a thrill.

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Every day, I think about Duke and Fierdan a lot.

I'm still obsessed with them, I'm so sorry lmao.

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When I wrote skits now, I see Fierdan as having a, well a umm...

Older brother/very young brother role towards Duke.

I think it's weird and bad and urghfghfh, but.. it's true.

Isn't it?

Oh heck.

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I have a new skit idea involving Fierdan.

But first.. does anyone remember those skits I made several months ago where all of the characters made their own tumblr blog accounts?

Omg, what a time that was. Yikes.

So anyway, my new skit idea involves that.

In this weird as heck idea, this happens:

Ardere is walking around holding his laptop (because he apparently has one now). He is scrolling through Fierdan's tumblr blog page. Ardere is scrolling through his blog finding pictures of cryptids because Fierdan loves cryptids apparently. But then after a good long amount of scrolling, Ardere finds Fierdan's cursed poetry. And it's all hecking chaos from there.

And so there are several posts of Fierdan's poetry, which are.. umm.. inappropriate. So Ardere goes up to Fierdan with a wtf look on his face.

Ok but honestly, I can just picture Fierdan (at any point of his life really except for Pre-Fierdan because that boy was too sweet and pure and precious, gfghh) writing these messy poems that go into depth about violence. Like.. severe violence. I need to improve how I write very violent stuff though, heh eh.

I also can kinda picture Ardere finding Fierdan's poetry series on the seven sins or whatever they're actually called. So then Ardere reads poems titled the sins such as "Wrath", "Greed", "Pride", etc. and then he stumbles across the "Lust" one. And then.. I'm sorry lmao.

It's not what you might be thinking. I just.. asdfghjkl mmmm omg.

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(Go to sleep, Cutepups. I don't want your filthy garbage. Stop throwing dirt. :/)

Yeah. Haha. Ha. No.

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Random reminders/facts because why tf not:

Z (Ryen and Fierdan's father) is an awful man. I hate him. He's gross.

C (Ryen and Fierdan's mother) is a generally nice person. She's not like Z. But.. but.. she's pretty terrible too. For different reasons than Z. She's also very problematic. Honestly, screw her sonetimes. How dare she.

I know in the skits and what he's been like in the story so far that Ryen seems like a good, least problematic out of his parents and brother, but honestly.. Ryen is also problematic. They all are extremely problematic. Sometimes I think Fierdan is the least problematic out of all of them (weird thought, I know). Honestly, Ryen is such a jerk. And I think Ryen did stuff that was worse than nearly anything Fierdan did. Which is saying something. Anyway, screw Ryen in those scenes about their pasts. He frustrates me, and I hate what he did.

Taurel and Risak are what I hope are the antagonists of the story. But unlike Z (terrible shit man), I'm very interested in their characters and motives. Like omg, Taurel's  path to being merciless. Growing obsessed with finding and seeking revenge on (Duke) Fierdan. How he goes to extreme measures. He just doesn't give an eff, which is pretty awesome.


I really like Taurel and Risak quite a lot. Mm, heck me up.

Ok so they're not actually royalty, but I kinda view the family similar to a royal one. So anyway, I kinda view the family (Z, C, Ryen, Fierdan) as being a dynasty. Like.. idk lol.. King Z, Queen C, and their sons, Ryen and Fierdan. Well.. it's a corrupt dynasty then. Corrupt family, that's what it is. Big yikes.

Duke stands for something that's basically the name of the spell Fierdan said when creating the fusion of a tiny part of  himself and of  Soulless. Some random guy once told Duke that the "K" and "E" of his name stand for "Kill Everybody", but that's probably wrong.

So then I thought that maybe the "K" and "E" could stand for the English translation of what the "D" and "U" stand for.

But now I'm thinking of making what D.U.K.E. stands for so that every letter isn't a typical English word. In other words, the letters are words that are like names. But it's not like regular English words and names. Because.. well.. Fierdan wasn't speaking English when he did that Duke spell. He's saying stuff in another language, and I'm gonna be making up words. Hopefully. I hope so. It's hard work though.

A few days ago, I've been thinking about the "D" and "U" a lot. Hmm.

So basically, Duke is made up of four other, more complex, names. And Duke is an acronym. Duke is way shorter and easier to pronounce. So, he's just called Duke or Duke Fierdan.

I almost had a word down for the "U" but it turns out that's the name of an angel. So.. eh.. not gonna use that.

Duke is definitely not an angel. He's like a freaking demon. The opposite of being angelic. He's been cursed from the start. He's a curse. Can't be an angel then, sorry boy.

Uhh.. my plans, my goals, my dedication is to say by my gosh heck that...

Fierdan is bisexual. Confirmed me. Will I explain? Not now.

He.. he likes both. Ok, ok. Bi.

Oh, me? Can't decide whether I like DukeXTwinkle (actual canon thing that actually happened) or DukeXFinny (ship never sailed, never happened, tragic, damn it Finster)) now. Can't decide whether to (deep in story 2 at least- if I'll ever write the darn thing) have Fierdan stay in (for the long term *wink, wonk*) a relationship with a male character or female character. I can see him with both. But a lot happens before any of that actually starts because.. he's Fierdan. I'm also thinking of adding at least one nonbinary character in story 2, but I don't see Fierdan having a relationship with them.

Relationships? Romantic? Sexual? Aaahherghh idk what I'm talking about, I'm a hecking aro who is also ace. But do I sure love the unnecessary drama of adding romance to my characters.

Sensual confusion. Sexual? Wtf..?

Me: *explodes*

Honestly, at this point I'm viewing nearly all my protagonists (well, in that vague story 2 concept I talk about) as being asexual, aromatic, bisexual, and pansexual. Lol yeah uh.. heck.

Me? Obsessed with Fierdan? What? Pfft, no..

(I swear to god, Cutepuos! :/)

He's just my fiery boy. I love how I imagine him in my head. He's so beautiful, I'm crying.

(Omg go to sleep already! :/)

Sorry if there are any typos. I'll cringe at them later, just like I always do with all posts I make.

Ayy. :-)

~ Cutepups (.. wink wonk.. ;^) heck)