For personal reasons, I’m putting this image first.
well ok then.
Ok so, now onto the Picrew.
From this generator: https://picrew.me/image_maker/6453
Also, fun fact- I haven’t thought of my characters since the last post I mentioned them in. Anyway, this post is about my *cough* impulsive fiery disasters.
(The character is Duke/Fierdan. That’s what I mean.)
Read this first:
tw: self-harm //
there’s also: blood, bruises
.... ok.
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It’s Duke / Fierdan. It’s Duke. It’s Fierdan. Ah geez.
Well, that’s it folks. That’s their entire character. The end.
[2 am EDIT- Apparently, the Picrew site is down.]
The black wings can be their black fire wings. This set of wings look vaguely like the ones I picture them having. The fire wings shoot out from their shoulder blades. Like how they’re doing here. Yeah ok whatever.
Duke and Fierdan get bloody. Others made them bleed, and they made themselves bleed. Usually on purpose for both cases.
[. . . .] tw: abuse //
People who could count as their abusers physically abused them. Duke and Fierdan (when they were younger, obviously) got hit/beaten, which usually resulted in them bleeding and their skin being covered in bruises.
At some point, Duke and Fierdan started physically hurting themselves. Was it to “control the pain” or to spite the people hurting them? Hmm.. maybe that’s a starting point.
Anyway, Duke/Fierdan’s mental state isn’t... healthy. Like at all. Especially when they’re teens.
They end up enjoying the pain they inflict onto themselves. Maybe they think something like, “f_ck you, I control my pain. you can’t hurt me anymore. I control the pain.” ... yeah idk.
They’re angry and, in a way, prideful about the whole, well, cutting their skin. It becomes habit.
Self-harm becomes Duke’s (and Fierdan’s) top “coping mechanism” (which is a very bad one btw). They end up having hurt themselves a lot.
Self-harm kind of becomes an addiction to them. They’re addicted to pain. They become addicted to their own pain.
They’ve been in pain for so long. They’ve been hurting for so long.
........... A month or two ago, I considered making a post listing the self-harm / self-destructive behaviors Duke and Fierdan engage in.
*fast-forwards past stories 1 and 2* yeahh,,
(alcohol/drugs mention for that. and. sex mention for that.)
...... At some unknown point, I see Fierdan being in sexual situations. Yeah.. *cough, cough* that.
Not for ~those reasons~ btw. The whole sex thing I might bring up has nothing to do with the fact that he’s bisexual. That has nothing to do with it.
There’s context. Reasons. Something-somethings.
So anyway, I will return sooner or later.
~ Cutepups
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