I feel better now than I did in my last post. That's good.
I'm still waking up ridiculously early though. For example, I only got 4 hours of sleep before my body decided to wake up for pretty much no reason. Waking up at 4 am isn't that fun. :(
I either wake up at 4, 5, or 6 am these days. I can't get a solid 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. Ugh, this sucks.
The 12th was my sister's birthday. The day was pretty good. I got to eat good food. Mm.
Waking up at 5 am and not being able to fall back asleep until the mid-to-late afternoon wasn't that fun though, haha. Ha, ha, ha *screams* :]
What else, what else..? Oh, well, I'm reading a book. It's called Tarnished Are the Stars. It's pretty good. It has wlw characters and an aroace character. All are main characters. Haha yeah, I like it. :)
*dives into random and unrelated topics*
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This morning, I had a stressful dream. In the dream, I was very emotional over one of my family's cars. Apparently, the rest of my family buried and got rid of the old, black car, and I got very upset at my family since I had a connection to the car. Then my family got a big, bright red car to replace the old, black car. That made me even more upset because that red car was ugly, yet the rest of my family liked it. Oh and then I ran away, running around my neighborhood. At one point, I stole my sister's phone. I think I returned it to her much later in the dream.
Yeah uh.. what the heck. Why am I being so damn emotional about cars in my dreams? I had a similar dream to this one a week or so ago. O.o
*checks dream moods . com* Dream moods . com: you have issues lol // Me: :'(
Am I okay? Haha.. no.. who knows? *makes vague hand motions and shrugs*
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Can't you believe that I dreamed such a banger? That Fierdan (and Duke? idk anymore) song? What a hit. I'm terrible at coming with song lyrics (obviously), yet a song I heard in one of my dreams legit got stuck in my head for a long time.
I even sung parts of the song while in the shower. I unironically like that song. I know it's not really a song (what's the chorus? the other parts of a song? beats me), but it's so damn catchy. I'm sad that no one else will be able to listen to the song in the same way that I heard it in my dream. Like, dang, that's just heartbreaking. Y'all are missing out. </3
Oh gosh, I'm in love. Mm omg.
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh. Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh.
You’re quite deceiving. You’re badly bleeding.
What are you doing here? What are you doing here?
Am I the good guy or the bad guy? You get to choose.
Don’t start a ruse or I’ll tie a noose.
<3 <3 <3
......... typing this out makes me think that you all think I'm crazy. So, uh..... Welcome to my twisted mind!!!!1!!1!!11!
I'll try to describe how it sounds like. I'm going to fail miserably, but bear with me. *thinks of a bear*
. . . . . . . . . oh yeah—
The "whoa" part sounds like "whoa-oh, oh, oh, oh *slight pause, repeat*". (ugh, I'm awful at this :/). The next two lines "You're quite deceiving. You're badly bleeding." are said faster, but there's a small pause between the two sentences. The three questions that follow are said the slowest out of all the lines in this verse thing. I.. Never mind, I give up on explaining. I just can't. Lmao bye.
I guess all the lines about deceiving, bleeding, and breathing" are kinda like a chorus..? Those lines are especially catchy. And they repeat a few times in the song.
*lists the rest of the lyrics that I find catchy as hell*
You’re quite deceiving. You’re barely breathing.
Why did you come for me? What do you want from me?
This time, the statements are said slower than the two questions. Come to think of it, the "Why did you come for me? What do you want from me?" sounds kinda similar to that Take What You Want song by Post Malone. :'D
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh. Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh.
I’m quite deceiving. I’m barely breathing.
Hold me close. Don’t let go.
I’ll hold you in a caress.
Is this true love’s kiss?
No.
I already went over the beginning, so I'm here to explain the lines from "Hold" to "No." Ok so.. All of those parts are said a little slowly compared to the tempo of the majority of the song. And the last line— the "No."— is said much louder. It sounds like a scream but not exactly that. It's hard for me to explain in words, sorry.
Now these lyrics are the ones that are screamed rather than sung:
Honestly, what did you expect from a killer?
I’ll slay you alive. Tear out your eyes.
I’ll tear your fucking heart out.
And the singer's voice gets more aggressive the farther along this part goes. At "I'll tear your fucking heart out", Fierdan is pretty much screaming. The part in my dream where I heard him say that line sent chills down my spine. Yes, I dreamed that line.
Then from there, the rest of the song sounds a lot more aggressive than in the beginning. The "ruse" and "noose" part also sounds a little aggressive, but it's nothing compared to "I'll slay you alive. Tear out your eyes. I'll tear your fucking heart out." and what comes after.
Bitch, make up your mind. I’m sick of waiting.
Oh, you make me wanna die.
Tie the noose. Don’t make it too loose.
I’m a death addict.
Fierdan sure has venom on his tongue while singing these lines. The bitterness of his sexy singing voice. *blanks out* hhhhh heck— <3
Anyway, back to the screaming lyrics. That voice.. damn.
Fuck!
What did you do to me?
I’m your bad guy, bad guy, bad guy.
I’m a death addict.
Can’t break the habit.
Tie the noose around my neck.
I’m addicted to death.
Feed my addiction.
Slay me alive. Tear my heart out.
I’m a fucking catastrophe.
And.. I think those are the rest of the screaming lyrics.
I wish I could explain all of this better, but I can't. :(
There is some desperation in Fierdan's voice when he sings these lines:
Is this the end? I hear Death’s clock ticking.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
They’re coming. Do you hear them coming?
It's pretty sad, hearing this part of the song. The slow and emphasized "tick, tock" and the question of "Do you hear them coming?" ... ouch, my heart.
And the last verse thing sounds like he's given up / given in. Those lines are sung the softest in the entire song. His voice gets all quiet, and the "I lost the game." is barely more than a whisper. I think these lines are also sung the slowest. As you can see from all the times I pressed "Enter" on my keyboard while typing them out.
I actually have more I could ramble about, but I'll end the post here.
Yeah, well, bye.
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