Songs To Substitute Words

Songs to substitute words. That's what this post will be about. I'm going to include videos of songs, which will be my feelings. I won't write about what happened and what's going on with me (not yet anyway); I'll let the songs speak for themselves. 

........ Hi. I'm back. I'm still alive. I am.

(Did Blogger seriously update again? *sighs* :/)

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Entertain You~ Within Temptation

I think I listened to this song a lot around the time I had the dream where my fire boys were singing that song. 

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Love the Way You Hate Me~ Like A Storm

This song is resonating with me nowadays. For.. personal reasons. :'}

"I don't care if I'm not good enough for you. I don't care if I don't live the life you want me to. ... 'Cause all you are is everything that I don't wanna be. You say 'I'm a freak'. I say 'I am free'. Come take a shot at me. I love the way you hate me. You say 'I'm insane'. I say 'You're afraid'. ... You think you know me. You have no idea what I've been through. So take your shot, say what you want about me. ... I'd rather be a freak than be a fake. Tell me 'I'm a freak'. ...  Hate me. ... I love the way you hate me."

Haha yeah, I'm not completely okay. Things happened that messed me up. 

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runaway~ Vorsa 

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"When did I become this monster that I see? ... Does it get easier? What do you become now, after all that time of being broken? I wanna run away. I wanna run away from here. I wanna run away, find somewhere I can disappear. ... I've become good at hiding and playing pretend, but I think it's time for a change. I think it's time for a change. ... What do I say? Nothing at all."

Being where I am is suffocating me. 

Metaphorically, at least.

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im so sick of this~ guccihighwaters 

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"What's wrong, what's right? ... Looking back I see the knife in my back now. ... I'm so sick of this. I'm so sick of shit. Nobody listening. ... Chemicals running through my veins, I just wanna sleep. Feelings bleeding out my brain, but right now I can't feel a thing. ... I try my best but this feeling always stays. You know I try, but you gotta give me space. And I don't wanna hurt you if you get in my way. Reach out just to waste my time. It's the young waste of space with his headphones on."

ye ah ..........

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Would Anyone Care~ Citizen Soldier

I have thoughts and feelings. (...)

"Would anyone notice if tonight I disappeared? Would anyone chase me and say the words I need to hear? That I'm no burden, not so worthless, bent so much that I just might break. All consuming, so confusing, the questions that keep me awake. Would anyone care? Would anyone cry if I stepped off this ledge tonight? Would anything change? Would you all just be fine? 'Cause I need a reason to not throw the fight. ... Would anyone want me if they knew what was inside my head? ... I've never felt worthy of love. I would give up everything I have just to feel good enough. ... If you're dying inside, sick of being alive, let me in, let me share in your pain. ... Would anyone care? Would anyone cry if you finally gave up and turned out the light? ... Take back your life."

I've had those thoughts and feelings countless times. And again more recently. 

;~; ;~; ;~; <3 <3 <3

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........... My mental health shattered, and I'm trying to gather the pieces and stick them back together.

Bye.

-- Shan