Fierdan skit explanation (1/2)

Hi, I decided to just explain that skit I wrote on Wednesday as a whole. 

(psst,, it's all sad to say the least) 

But first, I took closer shots of what I drew on Friday.:

 

It's from when C. Fierdan first kicks the chair leg and yells "weak!" and yeah ahh. 

And: 

I'm gonna talk about this one later on in the post. 

Alright, so, where to begin.... ..................... (dang it, cutepups!) 

Me: *folds hands together, sits in a metaphorical office because of me being so official* I'm here to Explain TM. 

Viewers: Ok but why--

Me: *slams down fist on metaphorical office desk* Because I want to! 

Viewers: But aren't you typing this in your bed? 

Me: Yes. Yes I am. 

Viewers: Then how are you in an office? 

Me: It's called imagination. Let me dream! 

Viewers: Ok, ok. Geez. Just get on with your post. 

Me: Fine! 

Viewers: ......

Me: :) anyway... my fire guy.... hhhhh 

*cough, cough, cough* 

the HECKING skit lol

Now that I've been thinking about it, I think I suddenly came up with this whole skit idea because I wanted to reference some of the important parts from my story 2 concept and write them out in skit form. 

The significance the two halves of the skit have.. well, it's all about his character throughout story 2. 

And the keywords are "perception" and "reaction".

And I know I mention "story 2" a lot, but that's because I like thinking about it and how great my thoughts about it are. Like.. it's so good?? Umm yes please. Good stuff right there. Mm omg. 

(i'm sorry, i'm very tired.)

The first half (the conversation between C. Fierdan and Fierdan) is supposed to be the alternative skit universe version of a scene in story 2 which would be the story universe. 

What they were talking about is something that happens in story 2. 

(but will i ever finish story 1? lmao) 

Unlike in my skits, there isn't really a properly named Fierdan and C. Fierdan character. There isn't even a Duke character in story 2. Duke is long gone, bye bye. 

So in this skit I'm talking about, the Fierdan character is supposed to be (one of my favorite characters in story 2 overall) this character that goes by the name Danny. And like I said before, Fierdan = Danny. He just switches his name, haha. Because.. nicknames. People can prefer some over the others. Y'know? Yeah. 

And the C. Fierdan skit character is really just called Fierdan in story 2.. until much later, but that's a whole other post topic. 

So in story 2, a good part of it is about Danny separating himself from his past (so basically everything that happened in story 1). He distants himself so much that his past self is like another person entirely. 

To put it very shortly, he traumatized himself. 

He can't even accept calling himself, or others calling him, Fierdan. Because of how much it reminds him of everything that happened in story 1 to the end. 

To put it very shortly, he hates his past self (Fierdan) a lot and tries to separate that part of him from his current self (called Danny). 

I know I'm pretty bad at drawing probably, but here's why I drew Fierdan (Danny) and C. Fierdan (Fierdan) looking so different. 

(just gonna use their story 2 names lol) 

When Danny is out of [project world hell] he starts separating himself from his "life" in Cincernum (aka black goop hell). He cleans himself up, and.. well.. he looks nothing like how he looked in Cincernum. For example, he ditches all the black clothes and the cloak/blanket, and he gets his hair to look much less like a mess. Because his hair was a mess back in Cincernum. Like seriously. Cincernum is a filthy place lmao. Nothing like white-walled, white-floored, special official place that story 2 is in. 

Compared to Danny, Fierdan is like a different person. Fierdan (all the way to the end of story 1) has an intimidating aura around him. Like.. he looks scary and tough af to how Danny looks. Danny gets scared of Fierdan, and he never wants to be like him. 

Like.. lol.. one of the last main things Fierdan does in story 1 is end the DUKE fusion. Fierdan, after so much help from Fauna to physically appear as a living person, kills Duke. And honestly, I think Duke's death is the worst (most graphic probably) out of all the deaths. Like.. it's brutal. Very painful. Which makes sense because he's Duke lol. 

Anyway, Duke had to die. Unfortunately, only like that (smh they're so extra). But then later, Danny learns that killing Duke messed him up. Like lol, he got fucked up. 

(what was i saying.. shit..) 

Well, Fierdan (C. Fierdan) is supposed to look like a haunted memory of a person. I know I drew his hair looking thick and idk pretty nice (?) but it's supposed to be a tangled mess with it not being neat at all. And it's even darker because of the black goop in it. 

(god, i am so tired..) 

The black around his eyes is supposed to be from the black goop or how much sleep he never gets. Or it might also be because of Soulless repeatedly hurting him for so many years. Just so you're aware, it's not makeup that makes his eyes look like that. It's supposed to lowkey look gross. 

And he's wearing (filthy *cough*) all black clothes from Cincernum. I drew the black shirt to have rips and loose threads, so it just looks like a worn down shirt. But it's a filthy shirt. Cincernum.. bad place. 

So compare that to Danny who has a cleaner face and hair overall. And Danny is wearing a white shirt. Which is the opposite of a black shirt. Because.. disconnection.. oh hmm. 

So, there's a problem in story 2 and the main characters (including Danny of course).. well, their lives are awful and everything is inconvenient because of who they are. They have to live in hiding, and getting in and out of their.. place is a giant hassle. According to the government and law, they're basically very bad criminals. Why? To sum it up, it's because the main characters have Elemental Powers which of course deviates them from regular citizens. And everything is corrupt because that's how life is. 

(i'm so tired lmao wtf is this shit) 

One way to "solve" the issue Danny and the rest of his group (people like Dawn, Ryen, Stella (that's Twinkle btw), etc, etc.) is if he just gives in to how he lived as Fierdan and kill all the main people making his and the group's lives so difficult and inconvenient. 

There's so much unfairness and injustice in the system. Like.. bruh. 

(it's hard for me to stay awake, but i have so much more to discuss :^( what shall i do) 

Since Danny is desperately seeking any other way to solve the problem (aka not using black fire and/or weapons and killing people or at least not violence), he imagines his past Fierdan self looking at him and being like, "you're weak!" and mocking him for turning soft and fragile. Because like if he could kill Duke (which is his creation TM), killing other people would mean nothing compared to that. But Danny is trying to heal from everything that happened back in [project world hell]. And he does not want to become like how he was back then. 

In a way, Danny's nightmares/flashbacks/imagination of Fierdan kinda remind me of Soulless being cruel to him. But instead of another person terrorizing him, it's just his past self. Yikes. 

"I don't want to become you"- Danny doesn't want his identity to be like his under the name of Fierdan. Because back then, he could blame it on Soulless or even on Duke. But now in story 2, he's whole and can control all his actions without being manipulated or in fear of being harmed physically/mentally by Soulless. If he does kill, then it's all his plan and idea. 

Danny doesn't want his "real, core" identity to be like Fierdan. Because, well, living as Fierdan ended up being one big long ass traumatic event for him. So, like, of course he doesn't want to be that. He despises Fierdan. He thinks he's a monster for what he did in the past. It screwed him up. 

Danny doesn't want to become like his past self. He refuses to face Fierdan and accept that it's in the past and doesn't affect his current self in the present moment. Fierdan is like a fear, and Danny is too afraid to face it head-on. 

Until later on in story 2. Yeah, it's complicated. I know. 

I worded this so badly lmao sorry. 

(so.. tired..... zzz) 

I'll explain why the Kid Danny half of the skit is actually very sad and heartbreaking in another post. 

Bye.