Characters as Cartoon Avatars (part 3) + college heck

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Time for part 3!

avatar creator thing- yeehaw

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But before I show you my attempts at creating the Bad Parents TM characters of mine (well, three of them), I want to show you these other versions of them boys. Here, look at these better designs of my boys:

Duke. I included the black jacket this time. I don't really know what he's doing with his hand, but I think it fits him. I keep on thinking of him smirking a lot (because he's an asshole), so that's what he's supposed to be doing here.

Fierdan. Story 2+ version. He looks cute and happy this time. Maybe J___ boy cheered him up somehow. Ah yes, my precious problematic boy! 

Ryen. I like this version a lot more because this actually looks very close to how I visualize him as. He's doing the same thing with his hand that Duke did. It makes him look smart and factual to me, maybe that's why. I imagine Ryen wearing a white (or close to white) long jacket over his regular clothes sometimes. Why? I don't know. Go ask him yourself. Haha, the other Ryen cartoon avatar I made looks like the angsty teenage version of himself. He looks so much more mature here. 

Yeah ok so I like this type of eyes more than the one I used last time. I think it fits them a lot better.

I don't like the Brock and Finny avatars I made, so I redid those too. 

Brock. Yeah, this looks more like the Brock in my skits I know. Yes, he's also smirking. 

Finny. A happier-looking Finny. Now he doesn't really look like a snobby rich boy. He's outside this time. Maybe that's why he looks happy. Being outside can do wonders. 

And now. It is time. For the. Bad Parents TM. 

Well, three of the bad parents in the story. 

Yeah ok:

Calliah. This is Duke's mother.

"C". This is not the same character as Calliah. Her name also starts with the letter, C. Their (natural) skin tones aren't the exact same. I'm considering whether to make her mixed race... but alas, I do not know right now. Anyway, she is the mother of Ryen and Fierdan... and Dawn. She is actually very, very terrible. Not like Calliah or Z terrible. But hey, I'd say that abandoning your children is a shitty thing to do. Abandoning your sons to be "raised" by their father who, as a matter of fact, is the polar opposite of being fit for parenting. Oh and Z ordered for her to be killed/executed. She's dead. She's been dead for a long time. 

"Z". He goes by Z. Go ask him why. Oh wait, you can't. He's also dead. I call him "Z the shit man" because he's a shitty man. Shitty husband. Shitty father. He's full of shit. I realized that you can only make good-looking people that look nice on this avatar creator thing. He's not that physically ugly, but his personality and all that is extremely ugly. This avatar does not encompass that at all. Wow, I'm typing "that" a lot. Anyway, I designed him wearing a suit. I feel like he would casually wear suits at times. He has charisma. Underneath his pleasant-looking exterior, is a sack of shit. Because he's shit. Oh and he's holding a book because he writes down notes for his "work" down in a book. He wrote a book called The Scriptures of Z. It is about... certain things that are too complex for my understanding, and yes, I did create this whole story thing. But am I smart enough to understand even half of what's going on? Hell no! Oh yeah, that too. I'm not sure if Z wore glasses all the time like Ryen does. I included him wearing glasses here because he has his book open, he is reading, and he wears reading glasses. Plus, they make him appear older and smarter. Actually, he's wicked smart. Terrifyingly so. 

That's it, folks. 

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Next week is my birthday. That's wild. 

I don't have any finals today (Thursday). That may be a reason why I'm here typing this now. 

Phew, I can finally get some hecking rest. The past two nights I stayed up writing final papers. 

ha. haha. ahaha. ahahahahahahaha. Man, I suck. :/

I kinda accepted that my grades and gpa are gonna be shit. Ah... :'^)

... no. My essays are all shitty. I can't write. Considering my major, that's a bad sign. Ha. Haha. AHAHAHAHA--

On a random note, I have so, so, so much freaking money left on my meal card for school. And so, for the past few days, I've been buying a ton of food. Now I have a lot of snacks. 

My dad wanted to see what I got, so I sent him a picture of some of the snacks. I bought a lot more yesterday. Of different snacks. Uh ok.

And hey there, blog viewer! Do you want to see my miserable desk living conditions over at college dorm room hell?

Yeah, of course you do. 

lmao omg why XD

finals week =(

The 16th is blank because I have no finals today. Heck yeah.

I have one on the 17th. Heck no. I've been dreading that one the most. For several reasons I'm too tired to list here. 

#/Cutepups finals week spring '19 

As you can tell now, this is obviously showing how my mental health got broken again. Duh. 

Laugh at me! Laugh at me! 

(omg what a loser)

(that's right)

(I sure am!)

Spiderman is on the Doritos bag! *mind blanks out* ... yeet.

I'm going back home on the 17th, too! :) 

My first year at college hell is almost over! XD

.... anyway. I'm not ready at all. For what? Oh, I mean, just in general. I'm just not ready. 

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Other Notes:

1. I would still have over another month if I were still in high school. Dang, college changed me. I can't handle another week of this college thing. I am Tired TM.

2. Time management skills? Using a list/planner for real? I don't know them. :(

3. Time. Time in the future. Planning for the future. The future. My brain just can't comprehend. 

4. Oh no, I'm blanking out again. Haha, well, this sucks. 

5. Don't worry, I have drinks. Water. Coffee. Soda. Soda. Snapple. Gatorade. Chocolate milk. Chocolate milk. Vitamin Water. Water. Gatorade. Snapple. Snapple. Gatorade. Water.

6. Self-Reminder: Email the hours you want to work at your possible job, you fool!!!!! >:U

7. I thought I was bad at college because my grades are definitely gonna plummet (I mean, hey, I didn't get A's on my papers this semester unlike the last one), but then I read a news article about something that happened involving people who attend the same one as me. That changed my mind lmao. (so vague, me, yes.)

8. And I got A's on my papers in the 4 credit courses I took in the fall semester. This semester I'm only taking 3 credit courses, but these classes are a lot harder. So.. huh. What--

9. *adds more words to the post title* (ok) *hasn't bothered editing the slight grammatical errors I've found in my recent posts* (omg that's totally not ok, @ Cutepups)

10. Art of Girl. Brown Sharpie. Sketchy. Who is she? Is she a bad attempt at me trying to quickly draw Dawn out in public? Yes, I drew it at a college event. Haha yeah. (omg stop being weird, @ Cutepups)

art fart art fart art fart art fart art fart 

..... stop blanking out, brain. stop causing me to keep zoning out, brain. :/ tsk, tsk.

(Yeah, I'm tired. So what? Oh, that's a reason, huh? hUH)

I was so out of it while writing that last post (shout-out to autocorrect to making whatever I wrote then at least somewhat legible). I called myself my irl name instead of Cutepups. That seriously happened. Dang, something must have been really wrong then.

I don't remember ever zoning out like that while writing a post. lmao that's new--

hmm ok. more like half-aware, half-zoned out. and not like half-asleep either. because I wasn't sleeping then. 

Want to know something that's annoying? Me. 

lmao, no, I mean....

Being very tired. Like so gosh darn tired. Then when I'm lying in bed, in my pjs and under my blanket, and not being able to fall asleep. Just lying in bed doing nothing for an hour. Begging for sleep. But sleep be like "nah girl" which reminds me of my "girl body" which makes me go *sigh* because... *sigh*.

(The grammar is off, I know.)

this mind empty- yeet!