oh huh time huh

Finally, a post not about making avatars of my characters. 

...... Why am I making a post again? 

Well.. uh.... umm...........

June is almost over. It’s almost July. 

At this time last year, I was in France. 

That was a year ago. It’s been a year. 

Wow. 

Well, folks.. a lot changes in a year. 

.... haha oops. I still barely posted any of my pictures from that trip. 

According to my phone, I was at Giverny and Vernon on this date (June 29th) last year. 

I keep on forgetting to show my pictures. oof- 

...... The point of this post is to emphasize how much I obsess over the past. :-) 

.... sorry, what was that? what? ///////////-//////-////;-:/;///

And today, I’m going to a cousin’s party. 

So.. yeah ok. 

............. I feel like I haven’t been using this blog as much. Huh, this is a weird feeling. 

...... Picrew was like the only thing that entertained me the past several days. Maybe that’s why I’ve been using the generators on it so often lately. 

umm ok,,,,,,

Anyway, I think of my characters as being their own people. Like, they exist outside of the plot of a story. They have their own lives. Their poor mental health affects how they live. And it’s not just because of one event or even a series of events. I don’t think it’s just a plot point. 

I had that line of thinking for a few days, so I felt like just putting it in a post. 

that makes no sense, but ok. 

Disclaimer: Even though I think of my characters so much that I imagine them as complex people that exist outside of the story’s plot and conflict, I still don’t think they’re anywhere on the same level as real people that live in the real world. They’re fictional, but since they’re my characters they seem so “real” to me. I want to make their mental health struggles be as realistic as I can make them be, I don’t want to romanticize any of the... immoral content and anything regarding mental health/illnesses/disorders.... but that doesn’t mean fictional characters and real people can be comparable or be equivalent to each other. They are not the same. 

If you refuse to understand that, then I’m wary of you. 

................... uh ok well uh, thanks for that, random line of thinking I’ve had in mind for days now. 

That’s it for this post. Maybe I’ll return later. Who knows. 

Not me. 

~ Cutepups