Haha, just kidding. It’s okay, don’t worry about it.
I didn’t post anything new for over a week. Oh geez.
By the way, I didn’t write any new skit. Sorry to bring that disappointing news.
Can anyone rely on me? *shrugs*
Well anyway, I have therapy in the morning.
Uh.. ok.. how do I do this Blogspot Blogger blogging again? Dang, I feel so disconnected from this blog’s URL.
But yeah. I’m still alive.
I guess you can say I’ve been (and still am) depressed.
.... and that I’ve lost interest in even making posts on here. since nothing really interests me these days. in other words, nothing feels enjoyable.
Some things are better than others, don’t get me wrong.
(Eww, I don’t want to get into this now.)
...... ok but. is it really living if you’re feeling like you’re in a simulation where every day is the same? or if you’re lucky, there’s a slight variation day-to-day? is it really living when even watching tv shows you want to watch is hard to do? like ok, you want to watch the shows but you just, for some unidentifiable reason, can’t? you have so much time to kill, but watching the shows you want to watch is too much effort and requires too much concentration on your part. is it really living when every food you eat, despite how different they each are, tastes generally the same? it’s the same boring taste over and over. nothing tastes good. also, no movies are good. everything sucks. is it really living when you’re just existing?
Maybe I’ll ramble on about my current state of mind later. I doubt it. I’m just speculating here.
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Anyway, this was the first thing I drew since.. well, since the last time I posted my art.
It’s the only recent art I have so far.
It’s just a rough sketch, but it’s the only thing I have.
I haven’t worked on my art in months. So, uh, keep that in mind.
Plus, it’s pretty much canon that my mental health is out of wack.
(yeah *sad cowboy*)
Anyway, the character is J___.
it’s ja boi!
...... thanks for reading this and looking at my attempt at art. take care of yourselves please. i might not comment as much these days, but i care about all of you a lot.
~ Cutepups
Eey, glad to see you again! Missed you, girl! :)
ReplyDeleteAh, it's okay. You're going through some heavy stuff at the moment, and maybe having a few things less to stress you and stuff will do you good! (Well, it wont hurt in any case..)
Yup. Sometimes I get a sense of déjá vu of just... life? I get what you mean. But sometimes I don't mind the endless familiar pattern of my life. Gives me comfort, in the kinda way that makes me think I can live like this forever. I know I can't, and one day everything will change and I wont be able to go back, but that's life.
That all said there ARE some days where I do feel like I'm just 'here'. Just existing. One day blending in with all the other thousands like it.
... *Shrugs* The point is, I relate.
J-MAN! My boy! The good lad! The gay disaster! THIS DUDE!! *sways arms about him*
Pull your shirt down boy, before you sent all the straight kids into a panic!
(You take care too, Shan <3)
As a reply to the majority of your comment- Thanks! <3
DeleteHmm yeah, I feel like I get that deja vu feeling way too often. I'm tired of it, haha.. It really does feel like I'm just existing. Glad I'm not alone in feeling this way.
Yes, it's him! It's that boy! (He's supposed to be wearing a crop top, but I think I drew it awkwardly. so... yeah.)