not nice

Hey there.

So, about that thing I said.. well.. it changed. It's working normally for me, so I'm allowed to take my exam at the regular time. Oh darn, no extended time to study.

It's in a week. Ahh.

Back to dying (from stress and despair) during the first week of May. Great.

Oh and now the views aren't as weird anymore..? Now there's a 10 count difference instead of 20. Haha yeah. Wow.

Anyway, want to know what I hate? Conversations. Especially those about fellow juniors in my school scoring 1450+ on their first SAT. And without even studying.

Haha. What? Ha, ha, ahh.

Cutepups.. she dumb. The fool. It's her.

It's been raining all day. The rain is so loud. Ugh.

About the skits from yesterday, most of them are story spoilers but humor-ified.

Humor-ified: skits are funnier than actual story events

I need to stop revealing too many spoilers. I wouldn't have if I could type the darn five chapters. But no. I couldn't. Because of school and the pain of life.

Bob the Blobfish returned to a skit. I bet nobody remembers, but way back in the day, Bob and Duke were in skits together. In the last one of them, Twinkle confronted Duke, saying he was yelling at nothing. This made Bob the Blobfish imaginary in Duke's messed up and problematic brain. Now in 2017 after that incident, Duke has accepted and grieved over the fact that Bob the Blobfish is just a part of his imagination. That Bob the Blobfish isn't real. However, Bob the Blobfish is real when he appears in front of Duke in yesterday's skit. Duke killed him. Damn it, Duke.

And the third skit can be like a continuation of another very old and weird Duke post. I made a post where Duke was talking about drinking "hot red blood" in 2015 I'm pretty sure. And in yesterday's skit, he's like this basically, "Mm blood lol slurp... screw you, Taurel." I think I made that old post because of a chapter I wrote with Duke being lustful and lustful for blood. I think that's how that chapter went. Damn it, Duke, you're so creepy.

The story scenes with Duke, Risak, and Taurel. Mm nice. Interesting indeed.

That skit is also a spoiler lol.

All of them are potential spoilers lol. Even the Finny one. Possibly.

That Danny and Ryen one though. Ah, my cuties. Danny is in his late teens and Ryen is in his early twenties when the skit is taking place. Lol what are these boys? Haha cute. 

For that one as well as the Twinkle and Dawn one, I was thinking of including the Rainbow Fox swooping into the scenes like an eagle. But then I decided not to. Oops lmao.

Anyway, I love thinking about the scenes when Duke is just a badass. Damn son.

My most recent art post (Fire Hair) was me posting two colored sketches (drawn in 30 minutes or less lol) from two different scenes in future chapters. One is a badass blue fire Twinkle, and the other is a badass black fire Duke. Unfortunately, I can't draw, so my drawings of them are ugly.

Sometimes I'm just thinking of Duke in these scenes, and I think. That's so brutal. What these characters do. Like damn.

Can't wait for when Duke becomes a cryptid lol. No humanity in you, boy. What are you, boy?

I'm basing it off of something I read. What will happen in the story is nothing like what happened in the thing I read. For the most part.

Haha yeah. Fun. Intense action scenes. Exciting stuff lol.

I kinda want to draw these comparisons. One being Duke at the beginning of the story standing next to Duke at the end of the story (before he.. uh.. exists no more). They look different. A lot different.

I also want to do the same thing but with pre-Fierdan (Danny) and killer Fierdan. Or with young child Fierdan (like when he's still sweet and gentle) and killer Fierdan. Two very different versions of the same person. Ah, my boy.

Same thing with Twinkle at the beginning of the story and Twinkle at the end of the story.

I might be obsessed with the changes of my characters via their personality and physical appearance.

I also want to create these "five stages of grief" (or is it seven?) drawings with each one revolving around a specific character. Like idk, there could be one for Fierdan, Duke, and Twinkle. I have ideas for it that involve these three characters. Haha, but that would have a lot of spoiler content.

"Five Stages of Grief":
1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

Yes, very emotional.

Like throughout the story. Their five stages of grief.

If only I could draw. If only.

Anyway, this story and possible sequel of mine? Want to know what it is?

It's a personal reason I have to keep going. One reason to not die. Lol yeah.

Lol thought of something.

Cutepups Reasons to Live XD:
- Gotta be alive to continue the story.
- I won't be satisfied with the story ending with the last chapter I have published as a post.
- Gotta write chapters, so you guys will finally understand what I mean by my posts.
- Blogging is my life.
- I like blogging.
- Blogging
- The story that's mine
- Animals exist
- Music
- ???? Too lazy to continue this lmao

Ok bye lmao.