Yeah.. okay.. sure thing, Cutepups.
Mm yeah.
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The skits I write is one of the few AUs I have for my story. The skits are the happy, "normal" life AU for the lives of all my (good?) main characters after story 1 would be finished.
I think I've said this several times already, but I'm going to say it again. The main story (story 1 and story 2 if I ever write it) is supposed to be a kind of messed up adventure of a tragedy. Umm, here's the thing. The story itself is more like a tragedy, while the skits are supposed to be way more lighthearted and like a comedy. That has always been my intentions.
In all my skits now, I include hints for story plans I have. Yes, all of them. Well, fine.. the majority of my skits.
For example, the skit I posted yesterday. Finny and Duke were talking about their deaths (or something like that). Right? Yeah. They were.
I guess I should clarify something first. A while back, I said in a post that I have a rewritten version of story 1 in my head where there are no "foxes" which would mean that all the characters would refer to themselves as humans. But that's not the only story concept thing that I want to edit. So in the recent chapters, Fierdan told Fauna about the three year age gap between the two worlds (the concept of actual ages in the -Jamaa- world is very messed up?). So how Duke referred to himself as being 14 in the story, he would actually be 17 (14 + 3 = 17). And that would be the same for the other characters, too.
So anyway, I want to rewrite story 1 so there is no "fox" substitute for human, and there is no three year age difference. Which would then mean Duke, for example, is 17 throughout story 1 instead of "14". I don't want him (and Twinkle, etc.) to actually be 14. That's way too young for me now, and it's making me feel haunted due to the story events that happen.
So basically, they're 17 year olds. Not 14. Yeah, I'm finalizing that thought.
Now to bring it back to yesterday's skit....
In the story, Duke isn't expected to live till his eighteenth birthday. Right now in the 70s arc, the month it takes place in is September. All of the story before that took place in the late spring to the summer. The summer is almost over in the 70s arc.
And yes, I decided to make Fierdan and Duke share the same birthday. December 19th. The post before the skit (I think?) I explained why I came up with that date.
So to relate all that to the story, the 70s arc takes place in September, and Duke is expected to die before December 19th. Yeah, that's not much time. How tragic. I'm so mean, pfft.
Okay, okay, but why is Duke dying? Cutepups..? - you ask.
Well, well, well then. I, for one, am mean. :'-)
Cutepups! :/
Okay, I'll kinda explain now.
I think I've always planned to kill Duke off before the end of story 1. But to be fair, my story plans aren't nearly as toxic as they were in 2015.
(tw;;.////). In 2015, I had this -bad omg very bad- plan to make Duke die by suicide. And that's not even the worst part. Stupid 2015 me made Duke beg Twinkle to kill him first, but since she refused, he took the weapon (psst, it was a gun) back from her (he handed it to her first) and shot himself (in the heart because that's actually very important to his life.. lol).
But then after 2015, I realized that yikes- that's like very bad. Don't do that, Cutepups. Omg stop.
Yeah, I know that in the actual story I made Duke think/say that he has to kill himself. Fierdan first said that. But then in the 50s or 60s arc, I made Fierdan rethink (oh hmm?) what he told Duke (so that killing himself is a physical waste since he only needs Duke's soul out of his physical body).
Then Duke got a little frustrated at Fierdan for changing his mind. Because.. like.. (spoiler alert) Duke has been preoccupied with suicidal thoughts that didn't just start when Fierdan told him he had to die (in order to save the world? wtf?) but for years. And so, Duke thinks about how Fierdan hurt him again while he's in the car with Calliah because he has been so deeply thinking about death and now that's kinda been taken away from him again.
Oh and as for why Duke decided to run away in fear of his life (Chapter 8.. oh heck), it was because he- and still is (50s arc)- not definitely sure if he actually wants to die or if he wants to continue living. To live or to die? Well, it gets hard to decide. Especially when you're (Duke's) screwed either way.
Well anyway, 2017. This year, I still made Duke believe that he has to die by suicide (or murder?). But now instead of actually making Duke mcfreakin kill himself (yikes @me), he's not. He's not gonna (successfully) kill himself.
Successfully because of past.. stuff. Not really getting much into that, though. (?????). Uh.. Duke is gonna die because his physical body (with that Soulless part, eww) is going to be breaking down and apart at a much faster rate towards the end of story 1. His body deteriorates. Even disintegrates.
Duke's humanity died ever since he gets shot in the head. Once, and then several times. Duke isn't fully human, so even when his humanity gets killed (being shot in the head like that would result in death) he isn't fully dead. So then everything after that (like, the torture arc) happens when Duke is partially dead. He's a living dead. At that point, he's still alive because Soulless is desperate to keep him alive. That also makes Duke a lot more brutal and powerful. He gets dangerous. Not as a joke. Duke freaks me out, man. He's.. wow.
Basically, Duke fully ends up dying as a long delay from the day Risak repeatedly shot him in the head. Duke didn't immediately die then, but the slow process sped up after that happened. Add on Soulless claiming more and more of Duke's body in order to keep Duke from fully dying, and also his body being injured and broken due to Taurel torturing him for nearly a week. His body.. not the best condition.. literally breaking or already broken.
Chances of living for long.. they weren't that long to begin with. He wasn't destined to survive. Sorry. :(
As for why Finny said he died in the story universe, it's because I'm going to kill him off towards the end of the story as well. Actually, Duke dies a very few days after Finny.
There are meanings behind it. It's upsetting, I know. But I love my angst. Ha, ha. Damn it.
I'll list them. Some.
Their world is becoming more and more corrupted by the day. It's rotting. Why do you think all of the people who live more inland (Dawn and the rest of the main characters squad are at the coast) are living underground in complex tunnel systems now? It's because going aboveground is a dangerous risk. Phantoms (or whatever I'll call them) are roaming about everywhere aboveground. They took control over the world. At least their small part of the world.
Duke's distinct connection to Fierdan who has a connection to being the creator of making phantoms the way that they are. Duke, Fierdan, and Soulless having (maybe even indirectly) caused phantoms to corrupt their world at a much faster rate than ever before. Duke- who has traits of Fierdan and Soulless, permanently- is growing up and becoming informed the most about Fierdan this year (and, like, also getting Fierdan's fire Elemental Power and some of Fierdan's thoughts and memories).
And so that would mean Duke indirectly caused the world to become destroyed. The corruption always leads back to Duke and/or Fierdan. Just like how Fierdan did, Duke destroyed things that started out good and turned them bad. He.. kills everyone and everything that gets too close to him. Maybe not physically but emotionally. He's like a killer, guys. He kills people. He threatens to kill people (Chapter 39.. *cough*). So when Finny starts becoming close to Duke again (that still has to happen), it slowly ends up killing Finny. The world's toxicity and corruption that Duke indirectly caused will end up killing Finny. Yeah, that's sad.
(Oh damn, it's 1 am.)
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Haircuts. I find symbolism in writing story scenes with haircuts.
I already wrote in a chapter where Twinkle cut off her long hair. So now it's short. She has short hair now. Yeah.
That could symbolize Twinkle breaking away from her past even more. It could represent her freedom. Freedom in what? Weaknesses and the past.
Later on, Duke's hair gets forcefully (and against his will.. of course) cut very short and then shaved off. He doesn't look like a beautiful boy looking like that, pfft. Uh.. lol.. I mean Duke losing his hair symbolizes him being forced into submission and weakness (he loses his hair because Taurel believes his hair correlates to the powerful black fire he used on Risak that killed him). Duke loses his freedom. Duke thinks about his past a lot during this time in the story. So that's the opposite of how it went down with Twinkle.
In the very beginning of story 2, Fierdan cuts some of his hair off. It's more like how it was with Twinkle. Cutting his hair is an attempt he makes to break away from his past and give him freedom. Fierdan had been staying in Cincernum for years, so he looks like a wreck down there. His hair is kinda very messy. High chance of tangles. He couldn't cut it that often, or at all. So when he's in Cincernum, his hair is kinda long. He just ties it up sometimes to make it look a lot shorter. He made all his hair fall by untying it in Chapter 75, for example. That's what happened then. Yeah. Well anyway, story 2 takes place in the other world (the one Ryen is in). Things are more professional and organized in the story's real human world. Fierdan- who got traumatized in the corrupted world due to past events, killing/healing people, being manipulated and abused many times, and doing the things with Duke at the end of story 1 which resulted in Fierdan also partially killing Duke- wants to distance himself far away from all that. He wants to change himself, and he has to pretend that he's not as f*cked up when he first meets his brother and the three other people with Elemental Powers (illusion, water, metal) in person. Fierdan wants to be normal, but he quickly fails at pretending that.
...... It's late. Yikes. Maybe I'll post about more stuff in story 2 later.
Well, I don't know right now.
Bye lol.
~ Cutepups >:'}
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