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Ah, I did not post on Sunday. 

(Cutepups breaking promises 101 </3) 

Uh.. let’s start with the late post, shall we? 

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I’m back at college. I had to say bye to my pets for another month. 

Not a long trip but yeah. I’m back. I gotta do schoolwork and study and organization/club work. And that takes up quite a bit of time, I have to say. 

I was very close to making a negative post in the afternoon.. but then I didn’t. What’s the point in spreading my own negativity? No thanks, I’m good.

I’m stressing. I spent all day Sunday stressing out. 

I had to take a quiz (for Greek life if anyone’s nosy and wants to know, I guess) a few hours ago. 

I spent the day stressing over it and attempting to study and memorize the info that would be on the quiz. 

(I was nervous, ok shh...)

And I passed it. Which surprised me. Huh, that’s nice. I feel simultaneously like a failure and like a success (what is this feeling?). 

... I also have a midterm exam very soon. I’m very stressed about that too. 

I have to write so much in such a short amount of time. No multiple choice. Essay. Another essay. More questions. Reading materials that are hard to understand. *screams internally (whatever that means)* 

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I was going to make posts about these things: 

• Ardere’s home life 

• Ardere’s music playlist (I think of it in a slightly different way compared to the other ones) 

• I didn’t think of Duke for the majority of the time I was on spring break. Huh.. wow. 

• That future, future, future story universe concept I have of Fierdan having a daughter. 

• A future, future story universe concept of Fierdan being in a kinda long relationship with a woman. Well, at least 2 or 3 months long. After Fierdan (Danny —> end of story 2 ‘Fierdan’) had a relationship with J______. (romantic and sexual relationship *cough*). Well, I’m referring to his long-term (at least kind of?) relationships. 

• The concept I have for Fierdan’s daughter.. she’s so adorable and happy and omg I love her so much. ;w; 

• Me just making fun of that drawing of Duke I have as my current profile picture. (spoiler alert- I don’t really like it anymore. I don’t really see Duke as looking like that in my mind anymore.) 

• Me venting about the story and how there are so many plotholes that I don’t know how to fix. A lot of things just don’t line up at all. It frustrates and haunts me a lot. :-( 

• I was going to draw my Fierdan’s daughter concept, but then I had to think of other things. 

• Me being upset at myself for not drawing anything or writing anything to contribute to my story chapters while I was on break. 

Hhhhffhhhfgh. Fierdan’s daughter. Fierdan being a father figure to a baby girl who grows into a little girl. Them having a healthy/happy/positive father-daughter relationship. ... my heart ;w; <3 !!! 

(the word ‘adopted’ may be put between the words ‘Fierdan’s’ and ‘daughter’.. but now I’m not 100% sure about that... haha oh irony—)

I bet that all sounds like a “wtf is wrong with you, Cutepups :/“ concept, but I swear I can imagine it working beautifully. 

Daddy Fierdan Fierdan as a father at what age? I’m not sure. Any time from his mid-20s to his late-20s to his early-30s to his mid-30s. So I really don’t know, haha. 

Remind me to draw her if I forget to (which, honestly, I probably will). 

Blah, blah, blah. Life stuff is keeping me busy, and I’m too busy to do more than only think of my characters. I am stressed. Umm.. heck. Blah, blah, blah. 

I hope you guys have a nice week! :) 

Until the next time I decide to post something...~ 

~ Cutepups