Anyway.. hey guys. How's it going? It's ya boi, Cutepups, back again.
For this post, I'm going to be inserting videos of songs from my Fierdan and Ryen music playlists that give me specific feelings about them.
(Yes, the songs are all in the playlists. I just feel like Emphasizing them. Ok thanks.)
Because like.. hey.. they're brothers. That's crazy, I know. Do they know how to act like normal bros, especially around each other? No, they're more like wrecks than human beings.
You know what? Ryen and Fierdan had/have very angry, pretty violent teenage and young adult phases. Boy, were these two full of anger and violence. Yikes indeed.
Their actions were/are so ugly. I just don't understand them. How could they just do those things?
Yikes, their teenage selves are the most terrifying of all. They scare me. ;n;
... damn. what's the point of this post again?
... oh yeah.
Here are some songs that remind me of Ryen and Fierdan (@ each other, @ their father/the worst dad/Z the shit man).
anger,,, violence,,, emotions that just destroy me because their thoughts about their father are so messed up and honestly the brother-brother and father-son relationships ultimately leave me feeling very sad and vaguely empty inside,,, and and and... I'll shut up now.
Ha Ha Ok
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Father, Brother~ Escape the Fate
shit idk what to tell you guys. this song reminds me of Fierdan, Ryen, and Z so much for some reason?? uh......
more specifically: at least halfway through my story 2 concept. Like yeah, Z is dead. He's been dead for quite a while. I can just imagine Fierdan and Ryen singing this while thinking of Z. Spoilers for story 2 are that these brothers? They're just oh so lost and confused. Oh and that they learn more about Z and his "work" or whatever it should be called. And their mother who they learn was also shitty and kinda pretty damn evil. Like hey, at least Z was more straightforward than whatever the hell their mother did. And uh.. idk.. Fierdan and Ryen reflect back to their childhood sometimes. And this song reminds me of that.
As children, they both felt like they never truly belonged and were accepted by their father. They felt wrong and flawed. When Ryen and Fierdan gain more knowledge about their parents, they "just don't know" and it causes them lots of distress and other uncomfortable feelings.
They both got "pushed away" by Z. Another word I use is "discarded" for that. As a child, Danny (aka Fierdan) was also "pushed away" by Ryen.
"I forgive you for.. all that you've done wrong." this line especially reminds me a lot of Fierdan and Ryen and how they feel about each other. For a while, they're pretty bitter and hostile around each other (referring to story 2 now lol). But as time passes, they spend more time around each other, kinda making up for all the years they spent away from the other. And hey, they grow to understand each other and their reasons behind the things they did. Then at some point, it could be said that they forgive each other "for all that [they've] wrong" to the other brother.
(ugh, I bet I'm typing "each other" too much..)
Example: Fierdan forgiving Ryen for basically never playing games and hanging out with him when they were kids. That made Danny (Pre-Fierdan) feel shitty, of course, but when he becomes aware of all the work Z imposed on Ryen that made him pretty much not have any childhood whatsoever.. well, Fierdan kinda does feel sorry for him and think that of course Ryen would end up being an angry, frequently on edge child. (Ryen also forgives Fierdan for some reasons, but I can't think of any at the moment.)
Ok, next song!
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Just A Memory~ Escape the Fate
This song, in more simpler terms than the last one, reminds me of the anger/bitterness/hostility Fierdan has toward Ryen after he knows what Ryen did while working for their father and remembers how they both treated him (and Dawn too but this isn't about her) like trash (or, in other words, shit).
And the "you're gonna die alone" lines are just them (Fierdan and Ryen.. duh, who else am I talking about?) verbally attacking each other. Umm.. (with added context and connotations).. ouch, that phrase is very damn vicious.
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Hate Me~ Escape the Fate
idk, this is pretty much the same as the last song. Ryen and Fierdan are critical/bitter/borderline hateful towards the other for how they decide to live their lives.
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PUPPETEER~ Sworn In
This song just reminds me a lot of the "puppets and puppeteers" metaphor I have for my characters. Fierdan and Duke as the puppets, Z as the puppeteer, Ryen as both puppeteer and puppet depending on the circumstances. It's not a happy, kid-friendly puppet show (lol no); it's a very manipulative and dehumanizing puppet show with my guys! :^)
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Glass Houses~ Bad Omens
Another song with the same general fiery rage mood like the previous ones on this list.
"I've seen the devil more than I've seen God." oh shit that line hits hard. (Fierdan and Ryen relate @ Z)
"You said I'll never make it ... you said I'll make a mistake." (*cough* This one reminds me of Fierdan thinking (angrily, of course) about Ryen and Z.)
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The House Of Wolves~ Bring Me The Horizon
And this one pretty much summarizes how Ryen and Fierdan feel about God and religion (at least what they've picked up about it.. from Z, who believes he's like a new god or some messed up and off the walls crap).
I think of Ryen and Fierdan being atheists, and for some years (*cough*) they outwardly express (idk how to phrase this better lol) that, yeah.. they don't/didn't only not believe in a god, they hated God, making them antitheist (I think that's the word..? idk I'm tired lol).
And like.. I think "house" fits for them. Their house.. yeah, it sure is falling apart. Nothing healthy about that place. Huh.
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Everything You Hate~ Project Vela
For one, it reminds me of Duke and Fierdan. It also reminds me of Fierdan @ Z, Fierdan @ Ryen, and Fierdan and Ryen @ Z.
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We Were Just Kids~ Emmure
This song reminds me of Ryen, reflecting on how terribly he treated his brother when they were younger. Because.. Ryen did hurt Danny/Fierdan (and pretty severely).
Yeah uh.. I'm just not paying attention to the "I want your heart but I don't deserve it" line. Haha no, that does not remind me of Ryen @ Fierdan. If anything, that's how Fierdan constantly thinks about J___ and for the later short-term relationships he's in.
Fierdan and his instability in relationships.. especially after his relationship with J falls apart. Ah..-
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The Black~ Asking Alexandria
idk, uh.. it reminds me of Ryen and Fierdan desperately wanting to get rid of their father, Z the shit man! And by getting rid, or as the song puts it, "I need to cut you out", Ryen and Fierdan are referring to wanting to get him out of the picture by wishing he would just die already. Later on.. well, you guys know.. Fierdan kills Z (and "cuts him out" *cough*).
But I can also imagine it as the lyrics being directed at Ryen by Fierdan and vice versa.
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A Living Nightmare~ Outline In Color
Well, it's just: Ryen thinking about Z and Fierdan. And, of course, Fierdan thinking about Z and Ryen. Maybe even Fierdan @ himself and Ryen @ himself too.
Yes, they think of their parents a lot in story 2, despite the fact they've been dead for so long.
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And for a bonus, these songs remind me of Duke and Fierdan. I'm not adding any explanation though.
*cough, cough* ouch,,;;
Smother Me~ Outline In Color
Not Enough~ Outline In Color
White Lies~ Dream State
Simply Me//2~ Everyone Dies In Utah
... ok, this last one reminds me of Fierdan in story 2 and on more than Duke. But hey, Duke can also relate to the lyrics. I just think of Fierdan easier.
"I forgive you" oh there I go looping it back to the first song I put in this post. Fierdan and forgiveness. Ahh, my heart!
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Ok, I'm done now.
I missed writing a post about Fierdan and Ryen. I think about them a lot, haha.
Well, there ya go. That's the end of the post, folks.
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