it's spring break!!

Yep. Woo. Cutepups is on spring break now. Yes. :) 

Oh and..

Happy St. Patrick's Day! <3 

So, uh, I'm here to combine a bunch of unrelated things into one post. Ok. 

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I got back home this past afternoon/evening. 

My parents also got back from their vacation. 

Talking and stuff. blah blah blah. uh ok. 

Gifts. Fudge. :p (mm that's some good stuff)

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Uh.. I suddenly got that skit idea (referring to the last post) after my creative writing class. 

I didn't plan on that beforehand. It just happened. 

Not sure why that idea had Twinkle text "pretty boy" and Duke send that Happy Pi Day text a few minutes after the texting conversation was over. 

That idea was so sudden. And I was like "ok sure..?" lol. 

So I wrote it. 

At night when I was reading over the post, I realized I put "conscious" when it should've been "conscience" so what did I do? I just made Duke text "I'm a dumbass" (that's self-projection, baby!) lol. 

We're talking about "stream of consciousness" in my creative writing class. So that's where that came from. 

I was thinking of that phrase when I was making a post a while back. I do that a lot when I write my posts. 

I just type out that mess that spills out of my mind. It's a mess. I'm a mess. ...heck yeah.

... I just love how Duke enters the group chat with a "Fine, I'll text Ryen." and then right after sending that text, his next message is "Yo, Hey," like omg I love him. 

1. Duke thinks he's texting Ryen. Yet he also texts "Fine, I'll text Ryen." while thinking he's texting him. 

2. While thinking he's texting Ryen, his first message directed to him is "Yo, Hey," which is like so formal. 

a n y w a y s 

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At any given moment, part of my brain is thinking about Duke and/or Fierdan. 

They're always on my mind, huh. :/ 

@ them: you two are assholes! stop it!! 

ok.......

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I also went on Animal Jam last night (Friday) lol. 

Highlights: 

• I went to Sarepia Forest and found a few all black wolves with white eyes. 

• A bunch of other Jammers were freaking out over them. 

• I only log in to AJ for the jokes, but the game is honestly so damn boring now omg. So I changed Precious's (my wolf lol) appearance to match the other black wolves. Except I kept on my black worn. Because I'm a rebel. I'd do what I want, thanks. 

• Then even more Jammers had negative reactions. Like how about you just chill. 

• Then I said something like "become one with the void" because the wolves reminded me of the void. Void wolves. Yes. 

• Also, I was playing bowling with another Jammer. Then halfway through it, the game glitched for a few minutes. I wanted to chat with the Jammer but I couldn't. There's no chat bar *smh*. Then a few minutes later, it said I won the game. But before the glitch, the other Jammer had more points than me. ...umm, dafuq?! 

• Then a little later, there was this punk wolf and fox singing. And they were like "everyone dance to our last song for the night" but other Jammers were like "omg, why, stop" and saying they were bad singers. There were also Jammers cheering the singers on. 

• Before that, there was another Jammer singing. And the other Jammers thought that was annoying. Why must you kiddos be so rude? :c. 

• When that was over, I decided to quote a line from the song I was listening to. So I said "i am a sad boy . sings ." and I think I got some compliments because of that..? idk lmao that was weird. 

• I changed Precious's eyes from the girly ones to the creepy weird but in a funny way kind. :3 hehe,, 

• Later on, a penguin came in for a few minutes to say they're almost in college, someone asked the penguin if they're 19 to which they replied no, and then I typed "lol" but they all misinterpreted it. My "lol" is because I'm that college student. I also logged in for the jokes and laughs but AJ is so fuking boring, noah fence :/. Also because I was very bored and everyone was leaving campus since it's spring break and all. 

...anyway...

Yeah, that's it. 

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When I'm tired and bored, I just lie in bed and find more songs to add to my character music playlists. 

I just listen to music. Nothing else. Just that. I have to focus on the lyrics and beats. 

Yes, I'm very serious about this. 

I write down the songs I plan on making into the character playlists in my Notes app before putting them on Spotify. 

So anyway my point is that I'm now doing that with songs I'm planning on putting into a Ryen themed playlist. 

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I've been thinking about that guy a lot lately. I love that dude. He also leaves me angry. 

So he's basically like his brother in that sense. (Fierdan is his little brother lol Danny boy is so young hhhhfgh-- wtf Cpups) 

But it's a different type of anger and sadness. Like I have one type of anger/sadness combo for Fierdan and Duke, and I have a total different type for Ryen. 

Dang :/ only I'll get what any of this means since I'm the creator of them and all. huh. .-. 

... Ryen had some anger issues in his pre-teen, teen years. Like geez, this boy is so angry. 

It leaves me so sad. Ugh.. </3 

Like his father (Z the shitman) spends a lot of time with him. So Ryen.. he misses out on a bunch of fun cool kid things. 

"fun cool kid things" - aka what Danny (aka Fierdan my fire man) and Dawn do because Z doesn't really give a shit about them. 

Ryen is like 11 or 12 years old. Something like that. And when his father is around him, he conceals his emotions. What does this boy feel? It's quite a mystery. 

But when Z isn't with him? Ryen becomes Angry Boy. 

Adolescent Ryen, take a chill pill. :/ 

He was also a pretty shitty big bro. He did human angelic beings, Pre-Fierdan Danny and Dawn, so wrong. Like.. wtf dude. 

Umm yes, Danny and Dawn were human angelic beings. That's just the facts. 

Goddamnit Ryen. How dare you yell at kid Danny. Just.. How dare you. The audacity! 

Oh and how could I forget? 

When Z isn't around Ryen, what is that boy doing? He's planning on wanting to strip his father (Z the shitman) of his power. And oh yeah. 

Ryen hates Z. A lot. Like.. a lot, a lot. 

Ryen wanted Danny-Fierdan to hate Z to the core just like he does. 

In other words, Ryen encouraged Fierdan to hate Z so much that he could and would kill him. 

It's so screwed up. I just.. I can't. 

Fierdan killed Z. That happened. He did that. Fierdan is a murderer. If there's anything I want you to get, it's that he killed Z (aka a very, very shitty father.. who was also a murderer and other terrible things that Fierdan was/is not). 

And yet, Fierdan killing Z was something wanted. By who? Oh, by Ryen.. and Z himself. 

Yeah, that's wild. Haha, this story shit bruh. 

Like ok gosh, you two just loved to use Fierdan like he's your pawn. Turn this sweet angelic kid into a killer weapon. O-K. (@ Z, @ Ryen,) 

Anyway, I sure do love me some angst. This story is just full of that stuff. Like.. pretty much all of it. 

An important thing to know about Fierdan: The majority of his life, he's treated like a pawn. Duke also is a pawn. Other people like to abuse their power over them. They like to "use" Fierdan and Duke. 

But just because they have that going on, it doesn't mean they (Fierdan and Duke) are innocent. Haha no, they're not innocent. There's nothing innocent about them *cough*. 

.... wtf, why did I start rambling about Fierdan? Where did that come from? 

Well anyway, Ryen.. what a guy. 

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Ryen wears glasses. 

When Fierdan is a few years older than the story concept ideas I have of him at his oldest (lol what is better phrasing? heh..), I picture Fierdan getting glasses. 

So there I am in bed under the covers thinking of: 

• Fierdan in his late 20s. Or early 30s. idk, something like that. 

• He calmed down and grew a little more stable. Which makes him in his early to mid 20s a thing of the past. 

• At that point, Fierdan wears glasses. He refuses to wear contacts. Because wearing contacts means having to insert the contact lens into your eye.. and I can just imagine something like that triggering him. And that's because of Taurel poking and stabbing Duke's eyes as a form of torture. Which, well, ended up traumatizing him. 

• Oh and Fierdan isn't doing any of those risky behaviors that he does in the later stories. He grew out of that phase (.. haha?).

• And Fierdan becomes a *insert adjective/description thing here* writer. Which he totally deserves to be. I'm so proud of him. 

• And I imagine Ryen being into philosophy and sociology. I just see Ryen as being a philosophical man. Haha, he sure likes to have deep thoughts. He's a logical thinker. 

• I also like to think of Ryen having various beliefs about God and religions throughout his life. He starts off being bitter about anything religious and pertaining to God. He's an atheist. Especially since Z compared himself to being like a god. So he and his brother grew up believing a god meant something like Z. And so they have the belief of "There is no such thing as God. God doesn't exist." etched into themselves. But then years later (starting in his late 20s? idk), Ryen starts to become less resentful about "God" because he learns, and becomes fascinated in learning, about religions and their "God" or gods. Anyway, thinking about all that gives me some warm wholesomeness lol. 

Yeah uh... 

So yeah. That's what's on my mind. 

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~ Cutepups