why (venting)

contains swearing.

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Ok so, Gmail and Blogger are giving me a really hard time.

Blogger is doing the same shit I said in the last post.

I signed in and out of my gmail accounts several times, but it won’t show my emails for my more important email account.

The Blogger app keeps on crashing on me.

In other words, I hate this. Fuck this shit.

This is very pissing me off. Mostly the gmail shit

Anyway, I want to self destruct more than anything.

I’m pretty sure I failed my exam.

I fucking suck at time management, and I fucking hate myself, and watch this be the class I fail.

I have so much more shit to do this week, especially on Friday, but now I just don’t want to do anything. I don’t have energy and motivation to do all these things anymore.

I have to fill out an online form on Friday that I have to get done in only a few hours. I have no idea who to choose.

I also have to meet someone on Friday to talk about a job opportunity. And my anxious ass is already freaking out about that.

My anxious ass also makes me get test anxiety. Fuck anxiety.

In other news, my nose must hate me. It’s probably no big deal, but what do I know? Nothing apparently!

Whenever it feels like I have a stuffy nose and I blow my nose, blood (not mucus, fucking blood) comes out of my nostrils.

And it’s not a one time thing. This has been happening a few times a week.. for a few weeks.

Lol isn’t that great? Cutepups is back with the body issues. Wooooooooo—Iwannadie.

I can’t even look forward to Friday. I can’t look forward to my next “break” because “brother college graduation!” but I can’t stop thinking about how fucking nervous I am when I think about the fact that I have to fly by myself. Sure, the airplane ride is short, but I have fucking anxiety and I am fucking terrified. Airports give me anxiety. But I have to fly. I just don’t know what to do.

I’m having a little trouble sleeping again. I haven’t been sleeping well lately.

Man, I want to break my hands and/or fingers right about now.

At least all the people I’ve talked to in my Greek life organization have been very nice and kind (to me and everyone else) so far. The leaders especially write sweet messages. That’s a good thing, I guess? But that’s pretty much the only good thing.

Shit.. I miss Thelma and Sunshine so much already. It’s only the start of Wednesday. I don’t want it to be Friday, but I don’t want to go to any classes either.

I hate not having time to draw. I hate not having time to write any better blog posts. I hate how I’m not happy when winter is over now.

I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.

If I had the guts, I would have hurt myself like Duke does to himself by now. :-}

Personal updates from Cutepups! Yikes lmao what a wreck.

B YE
BYE

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