a poem :^)

it is hot.
can it not?

Wow nice beautiful.

It's the fall. It's mid-October. Why is the weather still hot? Temperatures in the 80s (fahrenheit of course since if that were to be celsius i'd be dead :>).

Still. It's nice not having to put on jackets and heavy clothes still. That's kinda annoying.

The weather has to chill though. Less heat, more chill.

Ever feel so disgusting that you just want to tear off your skin because it feels so gross and oily on you and it won't go away?

Ah..... yeah. That's what I feel like right now.

Ridiculous. This is ridiculous.

Anyway, I messed up my sleep schedule bad yesterday. It's not good to get 3 or 4 hours of sleep, kids. And then nap in the evening and wake up from the nap at the time you're supposed to go to bed on school nights. That's not good. Don't be like me. Don't mess yourself up on purpose.

Know what's healthy? Eating. Eating healthy. Eating fruit. Eating grapes. Grapes are good. Except if you're allergic. Then they won't be good for you. I've been eating grapes. I'm eating so healthy, guys, so healthy.

Nah, I still don't eat breakfast most of the time and don't eat or drink anything for over 12 hours.

Hahaaaaaaaaaaa.

I'm tired and weak. Oh heck the agony.

Ok but really though. Live in the now. That's some healthy thing. Live in the present. Not the past. Not the future. Just where you are now and the next 24 hours ahead of you. The past already happened. We all screwed up a lot of things in the past (if you didn't screw up anything in the past then i might probably hate you :>), and the past is over with. Sure, things from the past might scar you for what you think would be the rest of your pathetic life but it's in the past and that's all that matters. The future is too far away. Don't think about it too much. Don't think about it for your own sanity. Don't think about how you have no future. Don't fall into existential despair and "i wanna die" again. Don't do it. Shut up, me, shut up. The future only makes you more prone to anxiety attacks, so let's just stay in the present. By you I mean me. Live in the now. Suffer because of what's currently happening. Not the past or future. The present. The now.

*screams*

I'm tired. Sleeping for a very long while sounds good. Sleeping forever can't happen though. Unfortunate.

I also found out where I posted that picture of that cow. This is what I wrote. I was one wild blogger in the early days of 2015. I was so lively then. So alive. Not dead like I am today. At least dead inside. Oh, the edge. *hits arm against edge of table* Ouch.

☆

*random cow barges into the scene*

RANDOM COW: I'M A COW!!!!!!!!!! MOOEY, MOO, MOOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

☆

Heck.

(Why do I keep on referring to Heck Tate randomly in my posts? I don't know. This is a mystery even I don't know.)

MOOEY, MOO, MOOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'night.