Next chapter spoilers. Duh.
yeah. totally.
Top two are from the past; bottom two are not.
Twinkle has her strawberry blonde and not blue hair in this. She's listening to music and is sad- which basically describes her entirely before the story of shittery begins.
@ Angry Kid Ryen: bitch wtf :/ why do you look so cursed?
@ Soulless: XD fucking demonic bastard shit!
And then I drew Fierdan. ...yeah? yeah. I thought he didn't look much like a girl when I drew this in two minutes (I took more time on the other ones, shhhh), but actually he looks very much like a girl when I look at this picture. He apparently has long, messy hair. Look at those eyes. Is he zoned out? Maybe, who the fuck knows what's up with this guy because I sure don't and I created him.
Ignore all the shit I said last post. Here too. Just forget it. Forget everything I said.
I can't sleep because I'm sad.
I can't say anything without later thinking over and over how I shouldn't have said that certain shit. Being honest and for what? Why the fuck did I say that? Shit..
I'll be leaving my pets (my Thelma,,) next week. And I don't know how we'll survive without each other. She (ok, just talking about Thelma) could barely handle it when I was gone for a week on my France trip. But a few months? Ah, well, screw us I guess.
I'm so scared I won't be able to handle staying around other people. New people. Being able to live with them. Being able to.. function.
Hahahahahahahah the dreams never stop do they !!!!
I've started to lowkey feel physically sick and I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Schedule? That thing? Did I mess mine up? Will I make it to that class in time? I'm scared, shit.
Bathroom? Oh god, am I gonna die?
Roommate? Oh heck, them dreams never stop fucking me over. Hope we'll get along. Maybe even become friends. Ah haha.
Ha! What if I snap one day, and cause her/more people to hate me back? It's hard for me to not easily get tired when I'm around other people for longer than a few hours. But all the time, every day? I don't know what I'm gonna do!
Heh, at least I don't have any early morning classes. Morning, yes, just not early morning. Well, am I glad that I never have to wake up at 6 am for school ever again. Not even going to an 8:00 am class. This semester at least.
Pretend you didn't read this either. Every text here is just plain white space.
Ah, it's been 15-ish minutes since I began this post.
My nose isn't being nice. It's still itchy. Eww.
I'm going to start making "blog" like posts.
Pictures! Great!
Oh and I've only been using my new computer for college related things. Not anything not related to that.
So.. idfk why I said that. But yeah.
Bye lmao.
It's always easy to dream or think up of scenarios. "What if"s are often so real in our mind, but many times things never work out as the scenario. Calm down, it's a change, it's a big leap, there's no doubt why one wouldn't be nervous, but one step at a time, creating scenarios won't hurt, but doesn't mean they'll be true either.
ReplyDeleteMost likely true (referring to what you said about "what ifs"). Thanks.
DeleteJust dropped by to let you know how much I love the Twinkle drawing, CPups! Woulda done it sooner, but been mentally EXHAUSTED from trying to do other things and stuff...
ReplyDeleteAlso the smol angry kid Ryen.
Dunno why. I just do. :)
Aww haha, thank you! The Twinkle one is my favorite. Oh I totally get it- says me, who replies days late.
DeleteThe Ryen one is my least favorite one. I didn't get his face right at all! XD