I read over my previous post several hours after posting it. I fixed the typos I found. I added a paragraph at the end. Read that if you haven't. Thanks.
Why was I typing up a post that turned into a long bad skit while struggling to fix and add things to my lab report, and on top of that, having most of my fingers feel frozen when I didn't even have a reason to feel cold? Well, ahaha, I'm a mess. I don't know.
My fingers felt the same way at least one other time this month. Maybe typing for hours.. numbs and freezes my fingertips? ..what--
And what am I doing now?
Well, I'm back in my dorm. Fall break is over, sadly. Ugh, back to drowning in the stress of college life. Ahh, how f~u~n : ).
Oh and I'm finally listening to the new Twenty One Pilots album. I should've listened to it sooner, dang.
Yes, I still love this band. Shh. (just @ 2016 cutepups)
I want to make an alternate skit where nothing that happened in the previous post's skit happened.
One that's more lighthearted than depressing. (@ Duke boi)
Oh and this isn't related to anything, but. I brought some of my art supplies from home. Now I have my colored pencils, markers, and the rest of the blank sheets of white paper from art sketchbooks with me in my dorm. I can properly attempt to do my bad quality art again. Yay.
Uh, I'll conclude this post with random story thoughts I've had ever since Saturday or for at least a month.
• Some characters that were first introduced in the story are mean and don't seem to have clear intentions on why they're behaving and acting certain ways. Those same characters end up not being as mean as their introductions make them out to be.
• The opposite is also true. Some other characters that were first introduced are "nice" and clearly have good intentions. But those same characters end up being mean and more villainous than what their introductions make them out to be.
• Even though I imagine adding three years to the ages of the main characters, I still think Fauna's thought about Fierdan remains relevant. I'm a little proud of myself..? Even if I change the story so he's always 19 years old (that would also mean making Duke, Twinkle, Finny, and Sparkle always be 17 years old and not that stupid age of 14 I came up with when I was that age), Fauna's line of thinking still makes sense. Nineteen is still a pretty young age. He's not even in his twenties. Nineteen. Still a number in the teens. So technically her feeling some sort of pity/sorrow (? tbh idk) for Fierdan through thinking he really is still a kid (ok, teenager) makes sense. ..right?
• Now when I think of Chapter 76, I call it the chapter where there's actually some explanation on how abuse/trauma affected/affects Ryen and Fierdan.
• I absolutely love thinking of their breakdowns in Chapter 76. Yes, Ryen and Fierdan both break down in their respective POVs.
• I sometimes believe that their mother was a more cruel and manipulative parent to them than their father ever was. And Z (aka their father) was definitely cruel and manipulative. He was downright abusive, and not just in one way. But I think their mother was just as, if not more, evil as their father was. She is probably one of the most important characters in the world of the story, but I honestly hate her nearly as much as Z. For entirely different reasons, of course. Even if I believe their mother to have damaged her children more, that doesn't mean I'll ever condone what Z did to them.
• I think I should clarify that I imagine Dawn being nearly but not quite two years younger than Fierdan and then Duke. They're well over a year older than her.
• I can't help but think about how "feminine-like (?)" Fierdan (pre, present, post) and Duke are compared to any other male character. Like, how I imagine them in my head compared to any other male character is so distinct. And yes, this applies to very young boy characters. Put Fierdan and Duke at the same ages as when other male characters were very young boys (who? idk? Ardere? Finny?) and I can imagine how much more "feminine-like (?)" Fierdan and Duke are compared to the others. I can kind of see them occasionally being mistaken for girls when they were little kids. Due to their appearances and behaviors/personalities. And yes, I'm purposefully including Duke in this.
Ahh, what is this? Oh shh.
Yeah.. uh.. bye.
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