or ... not

Or, you know, I could just refuse to look at my blog for the rest of the weekend and not post anything. 

Which I did. Yet again. 

Ah heh.. 

Anything I say- bad, terrible, immediate regret. 

Eww, it's Monday. Eww, I still have to go to classes today. 

Not next week though. No classes on Monday and Tuesday next week. 

Can't wait for that, but I'm very stressed and worried and have all that lovely anxiety about the end of this week. 

Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. I'm so tired. I can't sleep well here. I just want to be alone and not get bothered by other people. 

Why are lights so bright? Why are doors so loud? Like ok.. rude. 

Concentration? What's that? How does one.. do that? 

I can't tell if sometimes(?) I just have procrastination or if it's also executive dysfunction. I don't know at this point. All I know is I'm stupid and regret everything I do, so I'm always tired, sad, and mad. 

I can only really focus on my assignments the day before they're due, huh.. 

Wow, I hate myself. :] 

Why can't I just do those things? I tell myself to, but then I just.. don't. 

Why am I always stuck? I'm an idiot. 

Everyone around me is better than me by ten-fold, and I have no excuse compared to them. That's just the facts. 

I have to leave for my first class soon. Ugh. 

Here's the start of another long week of college hell.

Bye.