well that's that

Uh.. hi. 

@ last post's #4: I got an A on that paper. :•) 

@ the essay I had to turn in before midnight: hahahahHA haaa aaahh ,,,, 

Welp, I gotta think of what to take next semester. I have half in mind, but I have to think of more. 

My class trip is going to be shorter today. There's no evening show that we're seeing in the city. 

My parents delivered a Halloween package to me. It has some pretty nice goodies in there. :3 

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I've been thinking about Duke, and wow, he sure makes me sad. 

I love making fun of him in skits, but when I take time to think about him, I'm just like, "damn.. this freaking guy!" 

... I still wish I could properly draw him. .-. 

I'm getting emotional over Duke again. This freaking guy! 

I think he's one of the saddest characters in the whole story world thing. Saddest meaning what they went/gone through is so, freaking, sad and tragic and full of suffering. 

Even more than Fierdan. Perhaps way more than him. 

Dawn might be the closest to Duke though. Her life was very screwed up. Honestly like, bless her soul. She's like a goddess- the genuinely good in heart kind. 

I have so many scenes in mind of Duke and Dawn (separately, I mean) that are just so heartwrenching. It hurts. 

But at the same time, I feel like I'm getting off the vibe that I'm condoning everything Duke does. Which, by the way, is wrong. 

Like ok, Duke is supposed to be viewed as one of the ultimate evil story 1 characters. He's not, nor ever has been, all goody-two-shoes happy positive fella. Like, that ain't my Duke boy. Nah son. 

He is a protagonist, but like.. he's not that good of a person. 

Duke- messes Twinkle up so badly by bringing her into his whole story hell mess, brings harm to himself and the people close to him by his own doing or other people, kills a man and severely injures another and it's definitely not done in a way that would be considered humanely...

The last one. Duke hurts people physically and emotionally. Duke "tried?" (it's complicated) to kill people. Duke kills someone. He's a murderer. He's so bad. X'D 

But damn, I sure do love thinking all about my Duke character. 

Just,, him,,,, 

And then there's when he kinda like breaks down because he knows he's getting more and more demonic-like and less human. And he knows he's evil and how he's like a bad omen. And he's literally that cursed tragedy boy character. And in the end, he really is like a (very messed up) victim of it all. Like, he never wanted all the hell he had to go through. He didn't plan on his life being what it is. 

Duke's character development (of course this is spoilers): first a loud, frequent crier. then add more trauma to then get that numbness and much, much rarer amount of crying that's nearly silent. 

Yep. :] 

;~; </3