Why does everything lead to lies?
Oh why am I like this?
Please tell me why, cold, fragile soul
Please tell me why I can't let anyone know
Call me a liar
Set me on fire
Make the regrets go away
My mind is already gray
These lies
These close ties
You tell me you want to know me
I don't know who I'm supposed to be
Out of reach
I need you to teach
Me how to stay
Without having to pay
I'm sorry for all I've done
You're the only one
Who can bring me back
To positivity that I now lack
Why do I tell you how to care for yourselves?
I can't even care for myself.
Why do I go so far to make you feel better?
I can't even succeed in making myself feel better.
Why am I so attached to you?
I barely even know you.
Why do I doubt you?
I know you'll leave one day.
Why do I always pretend?
I don't even know how to be real anymore.
Why do I want you to leave me alone?
I need you now more than ever.
Why am I like this?
I don't know, friend.
A malicious liar
A growing fire
This cycle of regrets goes on and on
I know it won't ever be gone
If you think I'm kind
Then you must be blind
I'm manipulative with you
I thought you knew
Feel sorry for me
Oh how manipulative can I be?
Always the same mistake
I don't know how much I can take
The light drops dead
Just like a ball of lead
Dark nights
Constant fights
'Round and 'round we go
Tell me no
Take me off this ride
There's a high tide
I'm drowning
You're frowning
Call me a liar
Set me on fire
I won't mind
Tell me to unwind
Not making sense
Build up a fence
Drive you out
And then you pout
Sorry for all the pain
Sorry for putting you in this game
I'm sorry for lying.
I'm sorry for regretting.
I can't help it.
Mondays suck
I'm out of luck
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
ehhhhhhh
I'm growing tired of irrelevant comments.
Don't say anything.
I've got work to do.
This is gonna be a long, stressful week.
Bye.
~ Cutepups
Ehhhhhhh, just felt like posting about some thoughts in the form of a very unorganized poem. I'm not feeling miserable or anything really. Stressed with some school things though. Like okay guys, I'm sick of how you (you know who you are, person) want me to know, when I don't know at all. You want me to be close, but you honestly are the only person I've felt close enough to to reveal my true ugly feelings. I'm a boring person that's nothing. I feel like I'm manipulating you guys by making these depressing posts, then happy posts, and then depressing again. This cycle seems to never end nowadays. And I hate it. But I can't help it. I reach out to people, but nobody ever notices. I'm sick of these comments that people type and hold know meaning in the words. Meh.
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DeleteWhen you make poems it makes me think harder about you :/ you don't have to be anything for me:/ just when you talk to me it feels like you're keeping your feelings inside. I just can't really be all bright anymore:/ I'm a stupid dimmed star:/ but if it's really you I'm gonna accept you for who you are:/ I just don't like feeling like I don't know a person:/ perhaps I was just being stupid and didn't realize:/
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