my tooth isn't straight

Hello. I'm typing this at 1 am. What a convenient time. Oh yes.

The post title makes sense, I swear.

(I need to stop posting when I'm, I don't know, on the brink of falling asleep? Yeah, I'm so st--smart.)

Well anyway, Friday update. //lol ok sure cutepups but no one cares lol//

Friday (5/20) was actually a pretty good day. Pretty good school day. Not the social aspect of course since I'm like a mute, ahahahha. I also didn't do actual schoolwork except for in one class today. Not today, I mean yesterday. So, um, school was good on Friday.

Gah.. I'll be a year older tomorrow. Hnfgh.

But yeah, I'm like a mute at least 90% of the time in school. I'm not just shy, I just don't talk. Haha yeah.

And everyone else is all handy-dandy social and loud talker (not whisperer like ye ol' cutepups) . I fail at that compartment- being social.

But I can't help it. Now that I think of it, since I'm an anxious and tired mess that likes positive attention, I decided one day, "hey, i'm just gonna type down what screams in my head that i can never scream out loud, and this is an awful idea but oh well".

Thus, the feelings of failure and inadequacy settle down upon me. Because I can't even do basic human things right.

Man, I get angry easily. However, I seem pretty emotionless irl. Am I really? I'm not too sure. Haha, the more you know...

Gah ugh, I'm typing this on my bed. What a smart idea. (I do this too often, ahahha.)

Thanks for commenting. Though it's hard when most people do basic human things that I can barely do. It's hard when they're better than me. Oops.

But I do assume things way too much. Like there's a longer comment. And after I read the first few words (not even the whole sentence), my mind's all like, "oh no.. that sounds serious.. they hate you because you're so annoying, cutepups, like really annoying.. but only online since this is the only place left where you truthfully let out your feelings and you're almost always silent irl.. they hate you lol.. oh look it's from someone named anonymous.. who even is that.. insightful anon, swag anon, or both anon.. nah, probably hate anon.. anon sounds like this guy's name in band but with an 'm' at the start.. lol they're upset with you because you do everything wrong, cutepups, everything.. lol no one really cares they're just tolerating you because they know you're among the pitiful.. lol it's me your thoughts.. hi."

Well, that was tweaked to be more entertaining and less "bad language" and chance of being triggering. Heh.

Oh yeah, about the post title. I went to the dentist on Thursday. And, well, I have this tooth coming in completely crooked. Kinda like it's lopsided. It's a troll tooth messing with me. My body's raging war against me, even my tongue has its issues now. Talk about me being in bad shape, ahahha.. um. My teeth are so weird that I have to take this prescription toothpaste, whatever that is. And see an oral surgeon sometime soon, well, in the summer. Even my mouth has its issues.. great.

So, I guess that counts as a health status, right?

I'll probably be posting later on. Much, much later.

Well, if I can.

I'm so tired now.

Bye.

~ Cutepups