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Oh. Hi.

I was looking at my posts from around this time last year. Looking at them made me sad.

About sadness...

I'm an overreacting, too emotional, crybaby.

I haven't been feeling that good lately.

More towards the evening to the end of the day.

I broke. I broke down. Another thing caused me to break.

For the first time in a long time, I cried in front of them. All of them. My family. At her house.

On the fourth of July.

Surprisingly, my brother was the only one who effectively tried to make me feel better.

He isn't here that often.

It's still raining outside. It's raining and I've been crying on this July 4th. What a happy night it isn't.

I am so, so, so sorry.

I usually hide showing any emotions irl. But when the negativity comes to a certain point, then the barrier breaks.

I hate when the barrier breaks.

I hate being extremely sensitive.

I hate not being truthfully emotionally numb no matter what hits me.

I have so many scratches on my body. I'm a wreck.

I swear that everyone is a better person than me.

Please leave me alone.

I'm definitely not including a signature in this post.

I don't want to remember.

I want to forget.

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Have some songs that basically describe my emotions.

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https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iysZG8oA2ys
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=3Ez7vi-kQdM
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iuke-sNRD9A
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=j-tfNaBcyes