send me positivity and i'll love you forever

Hello! How was your day? Saturday was terrible and way worse than these other past days! :'))

This Melanie Martinez song has been stuck in my head for several hours now because I have found the lyrics relatable. Especially because of some events from Saturday.

Cuz I just do.

I'm a f*cking crybaby. Ah yes. Very true. Much truth.

: ) emotional manipulation and being yelled at and when he's basically saying how i have no hope for living a successful future because i'm an introvert and have anxiety like mm wow those avpd symptoms irl *cough f*cking cough* idgaf if my words are offensive i am a bad person and everything is my fault, get on with the program. and yeah omfg i know i'm something along the lines of "depressed" (oops gotta put that in quotation marks to not offend anyone even though my doctor says it might be so that i have that and was almost gonna get help but oh no change of plans not gonna do that anymore mm ok). like ok, telling someone with depression symptoms both mentally and physically for quite a few+ months now that they're ruining their own future and that all they say is "bull f*cking sh*t" does not help at all. ok. no. it doesn't help. and when that person gets intrusive thoughts quite often that are about death and dying because i have literally no plans for the future and have no talents and college is soon and 0/10 on social skills sure helps when he says i'm ruining my life and future in all ways possible. mm so helpful. good job but also screw you ok screw him. oh and then making us go into dairy queen like no big deal not like i just yelled at my daughter and made her feel more like sh*t and a hopeless failure. like yes it's all cool not like you might've just pushed me into having a f*cking anxiety attack. but since it's a public place i gotta hide and make it quiet or else people will start staring at me. oh wait my nose was running and my eyes were red. ha ha ha. oh and then bring her into this because she was trying to help me and getting mad because i'm texting my sister since we're talking about nice fun things. like wtf omfg. like no sh*t i'm not like them. wow wow it's pretty f*cking obvious. and get pissed off at us before because i was reading my summer reading book for school. thought you wanted me to do that lmao. oh and then after dairy queen just drive home and laugh at the tv like whatever glad to know you're happy while me and her aren't and had the chances of having good days being shattered. that's just f*cking fantastic. *slow claps* : )

:')) *screams*

It's this song. Crybaby. I'm one. Are you one? Nice, nice.

rip me end me

You seem to replace
Your brain with your heart
You take things so hard
And then you fall apart

You try to explain
But before you can start
Those cry baby tears
Come out of the dark

Someone's turning the handle
To that faucet in your eyes
You pour it out
Where everyone can see

Your heart's too big for your body
It's why you won't fit inside
You pour it out
Where everyone can see

They call you cry baby
Cry baby
But you don't f*cking care
Cry baby, cry baby
So you laugh through your tears

Cry baby, cry baby
'Cause you don't f*cking care
Tears fall to the ground
We'll just let them drown

We'll just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby

You're all on your own and
You lost all your friends
You told yourself that
It's not you, it's them

You're one of a kind
And no one understands
But those cry baby tears
Keep coming back again

Someone's turning the handle
To that faucet in your eyes
You pour it out
Where everyone can see

Your heart's too big for your body
It's why you won't fit inside
You pour it out
Where everyone can see

They call you cry baby
Cry baby
But you don't f*cking care
Cry baby, cry baby
So you laugh through your tears

Cry baby, cry baby
'Cause you don't f*cking care
Tears fall to the ground
We'll just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
We'll just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
We'll just let them drown

I look at you and
I see myself
And I know you better
Than anyone else

And I have the same faucet in my eyes
So your tears are mine

They call me cry baby
Cry baby
But I don't f*cking care
Cry baby, cry baby
I laugh through my tears

Cry baby, cry baby
'Cause I don't f*cking care
Tears fall to the ground
I just let them drown

Cry baby, cry baby
I just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
We'll just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
I just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
We'll just let them drown

rip me end me

Anyway, I'm thinking of making a comfort box one day. If I ever become motivated and determined enough to actually make one, that is.

I just really like the idea of it.

If you don't know what a comfort box is, this page should be helpful at explaining what it is.

http://www.selfcareumbrella.com/art-therapy/make-a-comfort-box-2/

Yeah ok. Oh and this post title? Mm yes. Send me positivity things and I will love you forever.

Ew gross I'm sounding needy. F*ck frick ffffffffffffff

lol i was thinking of making a post complaining about my way-too-thick hair this past morning

rip that post idea

rip all my wasted potential

rip for that guy who never knew my commercial skits

rip my self

rip